AN - Hey guys I know that I said that I wouldn't be posting for a while. But, I got a wonderful review from Silverdeaf1977 that has made me start re posting. So this is for her. Enjoy!

Chapter 1: The day it started

Bella's POV

It has been a week since my disastrous birthday party and things could not be more complicated. I haven't seen Alice and the rest of the family since that day. I have only seen Edward at school. Even then he never talks to me and always seems to be in a world of his own. I can't help the felling that this is all my fault. That if I had not been so careless, Jasper would never have attacked me and Edward would still be talking to me.

The school bell rang, and I rushed to catch up to Edward.

"EDWARD! Wait up, I need to talk to you."

He turned around slowly, and as his face came into view, I was taken aback by his emotions. He looked pained and disgusted, but I couldn't really tell with the last one because he pulled up his mask so quickly.

"Hello, Bella, how are you doing today?"

"I am fine Edward, but I really need to speak to you." I could only hope that he wouldn't blow me off with some lame excuse.

"That's fine with me."

"We have some things that we urgently need to talk about."

Wait what, what is going on? Well I guess I'll find out later.

My truck pulled into the driveway, all while it was making loud noises. I still love my baby, yes it might be old, however she suits me just fine. I opened my door and jumped out. As I walked to the door, Edward's Volvo pulled up and he got out of his car. He walked slowly over to me. He stopped near me and I smiled up at him. He didn't smile back.


"Hi, you wanted to talk to me."

He looked around to make sure no one else was there. I watched as he motioned for us to walk into the woods. I followed at a slower pace than him. As I moved back the branches that were in my way, I noticed that he had stopped in the middle of a wide clearing that looked remarkably like our meadow. He turned and looked at me.

"This isn't working Bella."

"What you mean?"

"I mean that we have stayed to long in Forks. People are beginning to notice that we aren't aging. How long can Carlisle go pretending to be a 30-year old doctor. Looking like he is still 25. Which he is technically. So we are leaving."

I was taken back. I thought that they were going to stay until I graduated or at least until they did. But I could see the problem. They don't age and people will start to realize that after a couple years.

"Okay, let me just think up something to tell Charlie. Then we can leave."

He laughed and it sent chills down my spine. It held no warmth whatsoever. Edward's eyes darkened and I almost took a step back and ran. Looking back on it I wished I had.

"Oh sweet innocent Bella. If only it was that simple."

He started to slowly walk toward me. Almost as if he were stalking his prey and in hindsight he was.

"You see I never loved you. You were just a distraction from the tiresome, droll life that is high-school. What would a magnificent creature like me want with someone as plain as you. I mean look at you. Your hair is drab, you have no shape, and you seem to be unable to do anything but try to get into my pants. I am everything and you. You are nothing."

Throughout his speech I became more and more shocked and broken. How could he say those things to me. He seemed to be able to pinpoint every single one of my insecurities with just a few words. I could feel my heart splitting into a million pieces with each word he said. Edward walked forward and stopped a couple inches from my face. He glanced down and sneered.

"Well, seeing as you have been asking for it..."

Edward sped around me and grabbed my neck and pushed me against a tree. He shoved himself against me, so I could feel his hardness pressing against my thigh. I felt him run his nose down my neck and stop at my main artery. He inhaled my scent and as he pulled away, he ripped my pants off of me. I was frozen under his grasp. He unbuckled his belt. I could only let out a small whimper.

"Hold still, you know that you are going to enjoy this and I know that I am going to enjoy pounding into that virgin pussy of yours."

He had finally gotten his pants undone. He held me against the tree, the reality of my situation began to sink in and I started to struggle. He slammed my head into the trunk.

"Ung unh, none of that now, are you ready for this. For my cock to be buried inside you up to the hilt. You know most girls could only hope for what you are about to experience. You should count yourself lucky that I am sharing myself with someone so inadequate as yourself."

I could feel the tip of his dick pressing against my center. The only thing that was running through my mind at that moment was that I was planning to save my virginity for someone special. I didn't want to lose it like this. I was going to be raped and there was nothing that I could do to stop it.


"Please let me go." I ended in a whisper. Praying that someone would come along and save me from this fate.

"I'm going to really enjoy this." With that he thrust into me and stole my virginity from me. He was pushing into me without abandon, driving himself deeper with each thrust and tearing me apart in the process.

"Oh yeah! Can you feel me plowing into that tight cunt of yours. Your so tight. It's griping my dick so much. Come on baby, come on. Oh yeah, yes, yes. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

I could feel him shoot his seed into me and after he was sure he had emptied himself fully, he pulled out and let me drop to the ground. He zipped up his pants and made himself look presentable and not as if he had just raped a girl into an inch of her life and left her on the ground of the forest.

"Thank you for the wonderful time, Ms. Swan." He started to walk away, but turned around abruptly and walked back to me.

"Please no more, no more, please."

He reached into his back pocket and pulled out twenty dollars and threw it at my feet.

"For you service." He said.

I watched as he turned for the last time and as my eyes started to drift closed. I saw him walk into the woods.

With that Edward Masen Cullen broke me beyond all repair, and I let myself succumb to the welcoming darkness.