Standard Disclaimers apply, going broke again, damn Express and their stylish yet expensive clothes, please don't sue me

**Author's Notes: I shouldn't be starting a new fic considering I just started a Rurouni Kenshin fic and I'm half way through a Weiss Kreuz fic. But I'm afraid if I don't get this one down I may loose it. In later chapters this fic is going to get very personal for me, so we'll see how it goes...

This begins after the 26th episode and will be told mainly from Faye's point of view unless otherwise noted.

~Faye: the Therapy Sessions~ Chapter 1~Surrendering

"What is it about the shower that makes you think?"

"I don't know Faye, what is it about the shower?"

"I don't know, you're the one with the degree."

"But the shower doesn't make me think it makes YOU think. Why is it? Explain it to me."

"I don't know something about the rhythm of the water."

"Good, what else?"

I scrunched up my eyebrows 'Was there something else?' of course there was, but I don't particularly want to tell her. Why did I do this to myself? Why did I think this was a good idea? I should be gambling, not talking to a shrink about my "feelings." This is dumb...

"Faye, if you're not going to open up to me, there's no point in you being here."

Okay, point for her

"Okay, it's not just the rhythm. Something about the water beating against my back."

"Good, what else?"

"It's just me, me and some water. I'm left there to think, there's nothing else to do but let your mind wander."

"So, it's a good thing?"

"No, well, it starts out nice but then my mind goes to places that I'd rather not have it go."

"Like Spike?"


"I know he died Faye, but what else happened. I don't think you're telling me the entire story."

"He left me, he abandoned me when I needed him most to go chase down some pipe dreams in his past!"

I couldn't say anymore. I started feeling nauseous all over again. I didn't want to go back, I wanted all these thoughts just to go away and stay away. I never wanted to remember them, again.

"What else happened Faye?"

"I just told you."

She wasn't getting anymore out of me. Think about something else, c'mon Faye, hold yourself together.

"No, what were the events that lead to this Faye?"

"What does it matter?"

"It matters because it's the reason you're here. If you don't tell me I can't help you out Faye."

I sighed, 'nother point for her. I'm really sucking it up today 'Just tell her, what harm can it do?' That's right she was helping me. I took in a deep breath, okay, go back. Go back Faye so you can get out of this damned hole.

**Wrap-up Notes: Short, yes I know. It's kinda the prequel to what's coming. It will get more interesting, I'm just setting things up. So review why don't ya! I'm going back to working on Chapter 7 of my WK fic.