AN: I have never done a chapter fic before, so I have no idea how often I will post chapters, especially since it is the end of term 1 soon and I have a billion and one assignments due and tests to study for. I have quite a few ideas for letters already so it is just a matter of finding time to write them. If you come up with any ideas feel free to tell me as well . Also, Shinichi isn't giving these letters to Ran. He just uses them as a way to tell her everything and get his feelings out. Because of that he may seem too touchy-feely or something.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Detective Conan. If I did, there would be more Kaitou Kid episodes.
Set post London arc.
I am not really sure what to say. I have so much to tell you, I don't know where to start. I meant what I said in London. I never planned for you to find out like that though. Remember that time we went to the fancy restaurant and then the murder happened? I was going to tell you there, and a million other places, but I was an absolute ba'rou and couldn't bring myself to say it. I'm sorry Ran. I am truly sorry for everything I have put you through. I hate to see you cry, especially over me. I don't deserve a friend like you. Are we still friends now, Ran? Or are we something else? I wish I could tell you everything that is going on, and what my big case is. But I can't, Ran. AS much as I want to, I can't. I did something stupid and can't back out. I will not let you get involved, Ran. I can't let you get hurt because of me.
Hattori was right, you know. When he said I was watching you when you first met him. I always watch over you, to make sure you're safe. I know you can take care of yourself, but I know that these guys are bigger then something even you or I could handle alone. Don't worry about me though, Ran. I am not alone in this, not anymore. I know you would want to help in some way, that's just how you are. But you are already helping me, Ran. Every time I see that you are safe, whenever you laugh or smile, I remember why I have to fight. So wait for me, would you?
From your Shinichi.
Conan sighed as he put his pen down. He stared down at what he had written in the spare book, before he hid it in his pillow case. He glanced at the nearby clock, exhausted. It took a moment longer than it should have for him to process the time. 2:43am, the clock read, and Conan sighed. He surveyed his dark surroundings for a moment, before looking out the window to the light of the moon. After a good 5 minutes, Conan picked up his pillow and quietly trudged back to the room he shared with Mouri Kogoro. He opened the door slowly so as not to make it squeak, but he needn't have bothered since Mouri was snoring loudly. Conan sighed once again as he put his pillow on his futon before trying to get some sleep.
AN: I am not really sure about this fic. The chapters will probably be pretty short, at least in the begining. After a few chapters I plan to put in more of a storyline to go along with the letters ^_^
And the question to answer in the reviews... What is your favourite pairing for Shinichi/Conan? I prefer RanxShinichi but don't mind a bit of Kaishin