"Prisoner of your body" an Elsanna fanfiction.
A/N: UPDATE! To answer the review from "Guest", I'm sorry for making Kai and the stable boy calling Anna "Your majesty" instead of "Your highness". Yes, she IS the princess after all! I'm not so good with formalities.. is that the word? Formalities? What ever, English is not my first language... How ever, Anna is from now on called "Your highness"! Thank you!
at first I want to say that this is my first ever written fanfiction. I never thought my life would come to this day, but here I am. This is just the first chapter, and if people like it - I may continue.
I'll be very happy to get responses and requests from you guys! And sorry if the first chapter is a bit long…Happy reading! :)
This fanfiction contains incest, so if you don't like it. Don't read it.I do not own Frozen or the characters. I only own the plot.
"Prisoner of your body. CH 1."
Now, finally everything is over. The summer is back, the snow is thawed and Elsa seems to be so much more… How do I put it? Confident. Yes, she's more confident. She has a different light in her eyes, a glow actually, like she's not afraid anymore. She can be herself, be at peace. Now, we can finally be sisters again! I wouldn't have to knock on her door anymore.
Or… At least that's what I thought.
It's been a week now since Elsa thawed her eternal winter. She was back at the throne as queen and the villagers of Arendelle seemed to be less frightened of her. I've tried to get her to hang out with me, but she's always busy. I do understand that, being a queen and all. But why wouldn't she take a day off, or at least a couple of hours to just… Be with me?
We do speak to each other thou. Mostly at the dinner table. She would ask me about my day and I would ask her the same. My whole heart yearned for her, I wanted to be near her all the time. But I didn't want to be "pushy".
"So, how was your day, Anna?", she asked me.
The room was silent. The only thing I could hear was the small clinking of fine silverware against plates. My heart stopped for a second. Some parts of me wasn't used to her being around. Hell, I've been separated from her for 13 years, of course it would take some time to get used to it. I didn't complain thou. I used to eat by myself, only servants watching. I swallowed down the piece of grilled chicken in my mouth before my eyes met hers.
My face felt warm all the sudden.
'Gosh.. She's so beautiful', I thought.
"Oh. I- well, you know?"
'Damnit Anna, get it together. She will never want to hang out with you if you can't even have a normal conversation with her!'
I swallowed again. Elsa's eyes watched me with curiosity.
"I was just hanging out with Kristoff and Olaf. What about you? Something fun happened today?"
Elsa nodded at my answer. She didn't look so interested thou. Maybe she only asked about my day, like she've done everyday, just because she didn't want this awkward silence?
"Nothing special. Just the usual stuff you have to do as queen. Signing papers, be on meetings…", Elsa said.
Her voice got lower and lower on every word, staring at her now empty plate, her eyes showed the same emptiness. I sometimes wondered if she even wanted to be queen. But I never dared to ask.
I didn't even know what to answer, but I didn't want our conversation to end just yet.
Dinner was the few occasions where we had time to really interact with each other.
Elsa's eyes never left her plate. She looked so sad all the sudden. She sometimes do, when she talks about her responsibility as queen.
Maybe this wasn't the best time, but I couldn't help myself.
"Um… Elsa? Maybe we- you know. You and I? I was thinking that maybe we could- I mean if you want to? You don't have to-"
"I mean… It's just sad that we don't hang out. I know that maybe you're not used to have company. Especially my company. But I-"
"I was thinking maybe you wanted to just… Hang out? Sorry, I'm rambling again…"
Elsa sighed. Her shoulders dropped just a little. Then she met my gaze, holding it in place.
I started to regret that I've asked. I really didn't want her to feel forced to hang out with me. I mean… Maybe she didn't even want to hang out with me? I now knew the reason to why she shut me out for 13 years, but we were like strangers now. I would understand completely if she didn't want to be with me more than she already has to.
"Anna… You know I have a lot to do. Being queen means having to take a lot of responsibility. I'm sorry, but I don't have time right now. I still have a lot of paperwork left to do", Elsa said. Her voice tired.
This is where I lost it. All those feelings that I've held back for so long came crushing like a wave. I couldn't stop myself.
"You know. If you really don't want to hang out with me. You can just say it. And I will never ask again."
"Anna! You know that's not true!" Elsa's sudden outburst made me jump slightly.
"You know that I do want to hang out with you, but I just don't have the time to! And I'm sorry! But I didn't chose to be queen."
"Oh, do I know? How am I supposed to know, when you don't even show me any signs that you want to hang out with me?!", my voice higher now.
Elsa's eyes grew wide just for a couple of seconds. Then she composed herself and started to rise from her chair, throwing her napkin at her plate.
"This conversation is over.", she said. Sounding angry.
"NO! We are going to talk about this, right now!", I almost screamed.
Rising from my own chair.
Elsa was starting to get furious. I should've been afraid, but I wasn't. She don't get to shut me out again.
"I don't get you. I thought things would get back to normal, that we could hang out like we used to when we were kids! That you wouldn't shut me out anymore! But all you ever do is shutting me out! Am I really that horrible to you?!"
She was staring at me, jaw clenched. The temperature in the room was drastically dropping, small snowflakes slowly fell around us.
The coldness was starting to bite at my skin, but the fire inside of me kept me in place.
"Really now? You thought that we would run around the castle, freezing the ballroom floor all over again and build snowmen?", Elsa said.
Yes, that's exactly what I wanted and my silence confirmed it.
"We're not kids anymore, Anna. I'm the queen now for gods sake! Things can never be the same!"
"It could be, if you stopped being such a bitch!"
My hands flew to my mouth right after I said it. Elsa's eyes were comically huge, her breath hitched in her throat. Her fists clenched by her sides, knuckles turned whiter than her already pale skin.
"How dare you?!", she spat at me.
I was silent. I didn't trust my words to say anything more.
"If you don't like it here, if you really think like that about me-"
The tone in her voice was hurting me more than she would ever know. Everything was slowly turning into a painful déjà vu.
"Don't you dare say it!", I screeched.
"Then why don't you just leave?!", Elsa finished.
She actually said it. If it was possible, you would've heard the sound of my heart breaking. Hot tears started to develop in my eyes, but they never threatened to fall.
"Maybe I will.", my words thick with venom.
"Anna… That's not what I meant-"
"It's okay, Elsa. I'll just leave."
I almost ran out of the dinning hall. I heard her call my name several times, but I didn't stop. The tears finally fell from my eyes, running down my cheeks.
I slowly made my way out to the stables and I demanded the stable boy to prepare my horse. He looked at me slightly confused, but didn't ask.
I was grateful.
He barely had time to give me the reins before I was seated unto the saddle and forced my horse into a quick gallop.
Outside it was snowing, but it seemed to only fall around the castle, because as soon as I was outside the gates, it stopped. I didn't really have a destination in my mind, I just kicked my horse's sides, making him go impossibly faster. I rode through the forest, branches ripping at my clothes and scratching my face, but it didn't hurt as much as the pain I already suffered.
I suddenly recognized where I was. My horse had taken me to the trolls. I quickly jumped off of him, running into the circle of stones.
"Pabbie, please. Help me!", I cried and fell to my knees.
The stones started moving, surrounding me, before they took their true forms as trolls. Curious eyes watching me. Some of them started to ask me what was wrong.
"Please, I just want to talk to Pabbie", I said. I didn't want to be rude. But now wasn't the time. I was desperate.
"What's wrong, princess Anna?", I heard the familiar voice.
Pabbie appeared in front of me. If I wasn't so broken, I would've flung my arms around him and cried into his shoulder. But he was made of stone, I would've just hurt myself.
My words came full force out of my mouth. I told him about what happened between me and Elsa, that she doesn't have time for me. I told him how hurt I was and how I ended up here.
"Hmm…", he mumbled. Scratching his chin.
"I think that I may have a solution to your problems, princess Anna. But it may be risky."
"I don't care! I'll do whatever it takes! Please, I can't live like this anymore!" I started crying again.
"I can't live without her anymore!"
"You have to know, princess Anna, that this kind of magic hasn't been used for ages. Sometimes it has turned out well, and sometimes it has not. As soon as the spell has been casted, it cannot be undone. The only thing that can break it, is if both carriers of the spell, receive their hearts biggest desires."
I nodded and swallowed the lump in my throat.
"I'm willing to take the risk.", I said.
"As you wish, my princess".
Pabbie backed a few steps away from me. I heard him ramble some words I couldn't understand. Between his moving hands I saw a red light starting to develop. It almost looked like colored fog.
Before I could think about anything else, Pabbie struck the red fog at me, hitting me with such force that I fell backwards. I could feel the magic all over me, forcing itself into every vein inside of me. It burned like the hottest fire, making it impossible to breathe. The pain was over as quick as it had appeared and I slowly sat up. A confused scowl was written all over my face.
"Th- Th- That's it?", my voice shaking.
Pabbie chuckled and shook his head.
"Have patience, princess Anna. When the time is right, you will see the change."
My ride back home was slower. I didn't have the heart to push my horse more than I've already had. I even apologized to him, but he didn't seem to care that much. When I came through the gates of the castle, the stable boy came walking towards me and took the reins.
"Did you have a peaceful ride, your highness?", he asked.
"Hmm? Oh! Yes, yes, very peaceful. Thank you."
He nodded and took my horse back to the stables as soon as my feet was back on the ground. Puddles of melted snow lay everywhere.
'At least it's not snowing anymore. Maybe she'd calmed down?', I thought to myself.
I made my way inside the castle doors. Elsa was nowhere to be seen. One of the servants made his way over to me, he made a gracious bow.
"Your highness, I'm sorry if I question your manners. But is it not time for bed?"
I glanced at the clock on the wall. It was passed midnight. I've been gone for hours.
"Oh! I must have forgot the time. Yes, it really is time for bed. Thank you, Kai!"
He nodded and then bowed again.
Before I could make my way up the stairs, a serious headache struck me like lightning.
My hands flew to my temples, a whimper escaping my lips.
Kai was immediately at my side again.
"Are you okay, your highness?"
"I- I'm not sure…"
Then it struck me again. I yelled in pain this time. My face grew pale and the world seemed to spin in circles.
"Let me take you to your chambers, princess Anna."
His voice sounded low and so far away.
My sight turned blurry and I could barely make out his face anymore. It felt like my head was going to explode.
I started to feel nauseous and fell to my knees. Standing on all four I threw up on the carpet, then fell to my side. The world never seemed to stop spinning, I could barely see my own hands before my face. All the servants now surrounded me, or at least I thought it was them. I could just make out their forms, black, like they were shadows. They were talking to me, but I couldn't make out a single word.
And before I knew it, my world went black.
Loud knocking on my door woke me up the next morning. The sunlight that seeped through the window stung like knifes in my eyes. I grabbed the blanket and threw it over my face, growling low in my throat.
'Who even dares to knock at my door this early in the morning?!', I thought.
The knocking turned into hard banging.
"ANNA, WAKE UP!", I heard the person yell outside my door.
I took a deep breath to calm myself. Then it hit me. There was an unfamiliar, yet so familiar scent that swept through my nostrils.
'No… There couldn't possibly be…' I took another deep breath.
'My sheets smells like Elsa!'
I shot up from the bed, falling on my bum at the hard floor. My brain started to recognize my surroundings. I was in Elsa's room.
"ANNA, OPEN THE DOOR!", the person yelled through the banging.
"That voice…", I mumbled.
With shaking legs I pulled myself up from the floor and made my way over to the door. I didn't know what I was expecting behind that door. But when I threw it open, standing face to face with myself wasn't one of the scenarios I had in mind.
I was interrupted by the person (or should I say, me?) throwing their hand over my mouth, pushing me back inside the room and closing the door behind us.
"Elsa?", I asked, confused.
"Yes, Anna. And tell me how in the name of God, is it possible that I woke up looking like you-"
She stepped in front of me, grabbing my arms and dragged me across the room to stand in front of the mirror.
"- and you looking like me?!", she finished.
My heart stopped beating. I stared at the mirror with a shocked expression. The person whoever, that looked back at me, wasn't me.
It was Elsa.
To be continued.
A/N: And there you have it! Hope you enjoyed it! :)
This is also out on my tumblr! (alexenspring tumblr)
I may have made a few edits in this one. But not so noticeable!