Raven wasn't a weak person.
She never cried, never showed any indication of inner turmoil or let it affect her powers. She was in perfect control, and she liked to keep it that way. Thus all the meditating and distancing herself from others. She didn't despise any of her friends, she just wanted to protect them.
But then came Beast Boy.
Now, don't get her wrong here; she loved him, she really did. The only problem was, how in the world could they be together without her powers freaking out?
Dropping down hard on the common room floor, Raven groaned, rubbing her now-sore bottom. She really couldn't focus like this. Her thoughts were running too wild, and it was becoming impossible to reign them in long enough to actually meditate.
Then her boyfriend walked in, for once a welcome distraction. He eyed her curiously when he saw her on the floor, setting down her tea on the table. He quirked an eyebrow, questioning look across his face as he plopped down on the couch. When she didn't say anything, he asked.
"Was that big thud you just now?" Raven sighed.
"Sadly, yes." She stretched, getting up to sip on her tea.
"Can't meditate, huh?" She shook her head, taking a seat on the couch next to him. "You'll work it out, you always do." He reassured her, wrapping his arm around her. She didn't argue with him about the possibilities. She knew what he would say, and even if she never brought it up, the thought was still reassuring enough.
"Thanks for the tea, by the way." She mumbled. To him, it was loud and clear. Apologies and thank you's were rare things for Raven. Not that he minded that; she would show him gratitude or say she was sorry in another way. He chuckled, remembering the last time.
"What?" She asked, looking at him like he was a madman.
"Remember when you made me that chart?" She instantly blushed, pushing him aside to sip at her tea nervously.
"What else was I supposed to do? I wasn't just going to lay myself bare in front of you."
"You sure? Cause you seemed pretty eager to-" she swatted his arm, making him flinch and then chuckle.
"Hush." She scolded, blushing and looking up pointedly at the rest of the team entering the room, pulling up her hood. Raven got up to prepare for Starfire's usual over enthusiastic greeting. She then proceeded to be smushed by the Tarmanian's bone-crushing hug.
"Friend Raven, you must see what I got at the mall of shopping!" She pulled her towards her room, Raven looking back to give what Beast Boy had learned was her look of her apology. He smiled back, waving her away. He knew she smiled back at him, even though he couldn't see it under her hood.
Starfire dragged Raven to her room, eagerly laying out all her purchases for the empath to see. Then came out the Victoria's Secret bag, Starfire commenting on how weird Earth garments were. Starfire hadn't been wearing a bra when she first came to Earth, something Raven fixed ASAP.
"Friend Raven, do you think Robin will like these?" She asked, pointing to a set.
"Hold on, you and Robin are doing that?"
Starfire simply nodded. "It's glorious! Haven't you and Friend Beast Boy?"
Raven gulped. "No."
"You should try."
"Okay, um...I don't mean to get into your business, but you're using protection right?" Raven glanced away. This was not the conversation she was expecting, and she was definitely no expert on the subject besides what she had read, but she was still worried about Starfire. She had never really gone over this with her.
"Robin uses condoms."
"Well, I guess we'll have to take a trip to whatever gynecologist will see us to get birth control. I might as well get it too."
Raven was glad that conversation was over, waiting until Star had finished before she escaped to her room. Beast Boy was already there, and she collapsed into his embrace gratefully.
"That was the most awkward conversation I've ever had in my life." She groaned. He laughed, kissing the top of her head.
"Do I even want to ask?"
"No, you don't."
"I'll take your advice."
He released her to let her try to meditate. Of course, it was pointless and only a moment after she floated off the ground, she landed hard on it yet again. Sighing, she looked up to see him staring at her. She knew that look too well.
Getting up, she strode towards him, lowering her hood and instantly touching her lips to his when she reached him. The kiss was passionate and full of wanting. She knew that she probably shouldn't have done it since she was having a hard time meditating, but it was so natural. She couldn't go a day without kissing him, and she had a feeling he couldn't do likewise either.
She broke away, simply letting him hold her. He inhaled her scent; the smell of books, candles, lavender, and vanilla filling his senses.
"I probably need to leave to meditate for a few days."
"You probably shouldn't come."
"...I'm going to miss you."
"I'm going to miss you so much it hurts."
The wind whipped through her short hair, sending a few violet silk strands astray. Her bags lied at her feet, not giving him any doubt or hope that she had changed her mind.
They watched the sunrise, the last one they would see together for a short while. He tried not to think about it and just enjoyed the moment.
Every once in a while, he'd wake up early and find her here, just as the sun was coming up. She would turn to him with a rare smile and sometimes even greet him with a good morning kiss if she was in a good mood, which was more and more often lately. Sure, the moments she showed it were few and far in between, but they were there nonetheless, and that was good enough for him. Raven wasn't one to show affection outside of closed doors or empty rooms. Sometimes, he wished he could show her off to others, but at the same time, he wanted her all to himself, so it was okay anyway. He blamed the animal sides of him.
"Hey, Gar?" He snapped from his reverie to give her eye contact instead of just randomly staring at her like he was a moment ago.
"What's up, Rae?" He could tell she was about to correct him for calling her by her nickname, but she stopped short, shaking her head while he held in a laugh.
"I..." She faltered. He was really paying attention now, as she hardly ever said something she thought was risky or embarrassing. He stepped closer to her to envelop her in a hug, and she sighed in contentment, all the tension leaving her shoulders. She never really told him, but this was when she felt the safest.
"I love you."
His breath hitched in her ear, and she could feel his emotions pouring like a waterfall into her from his body around hers. She never said it first; it was always him.
"I love you too."
A/N: I'M SO SORRY PLEASE DON'T HATE ME
I'm usually not one to leave my readers hanging like this, but for some reason I just feel like this is going to be one of those stories. But I feel really bad about that because holy crap guys this story has 42 favorites. This was received much better than I really ever hoped, so it makes me feel really bad that this has been pretty still for a good 4 months now.
This has actually been finished for a while, but I wanted to take the time to write the other chapter before I posted this one so I don't leave everyone with zilch for another four months. Sooo the next one will probably be posted by at most next month.
Oh, and I probably should have mentioned this earlier, but there is a sort of time gap between this chapter and the first one. That's why I wanted to make this a companion fic, but then I thought that everyone who didn't follow might not see it, so I'm posting this as a second chapter. It's whithin a good few months at least though. I don't know, I just felt that with the way the last one ended, the time gap was sort of necessary. Feel free to yell at me about it though.
Okay that's enough because this AN is very long. See ya loves! 3