She steps slowing into her house. Her tears flowing freely down her face. "This is it" she thought. "I will never be happy."
Just days ago, she was the happiest woman in Storybrooke. She had her heart back, a man it beat heavily for, and two little men she adored. But now it has all changed.
She's back. His first love, mother to his child, the one his heart hurt for years over her death. She's back.
"This has to karma" she thought. Repaying her for all the terrible things she did in the past. She wanted a happy ending so badly. To have the family she has always wanted, dreamed, and desperately needed. But it will never happen. She started to walk slowly up the staircase to her room when she heard a knock on her door.
"If this is Swan I don't know if I can take it."
She opened her door and it was Henry. His sad eyes looked right through her. It was like he could almost feel the pain she felt.
He rushed to her and hugged her tight. She hugged him back and tried to suck up her tears to save face for him.
"I am so sorry mom."
"It's ok Henry. You are right, villains do not get happy endings"
"I know I was right mom, but I do not see any villains here."
"I want to stay with you for a few days, mom"
"Oh Henry, you don't have to do that. I will be fine, I promise." She put on her best fake smile trying to cover up the deep heartache inside that was killing her.
"Mom, you are important to me, and I will NOT let you go through this alone. You do deserve love, because you are amazing. I love you mom"
"I love you to Henry. What did Swan say?"
"She is fine with it, she really really feels horrible because she didn't know. But I still feel she would've saved her anyway. She is sad that she hurt you. She wanted you to have happiness more than anyone."
She smiled at Henry, and hugged him tighter. He was there for her and this is the only man she needed.
"Thanks honey, you are my true love"
The past few days felt like a blur. Regina and Henry spent time together when he was there but it was bad when he left for school. It has been three days since Robin's first love came back into his life. Three days her emotions were killing her from the inside. This emotion is even greater than when she lost Daniel.
"This can't be normal" she thought. "Does it suppose to hurt this bad?"
All she can do is take it one day at a time. But the days get harder and harder. She hasn't seen anyone else since that tragic night when her world turn upside down. Henry has tried to get her to be amongst the land of the living but she wasn't ready.
She and Henry spent time together after school. She enjoyed being with him. It took her mind off her emotions and heart ache. It was almost time for bed and Regina went to Henry's room to say goodnight. She opened his door and he stood at his window looking out with a puzzled expression on his face.
"What's wrong Henry?"
"What is he doing outside our house?"
Her heart pounded. She had a clue but did not want to have high hopes. As she walked over she asked "Who?"
It was Robin. He looked frantic. He was pacing outside her yard looking at her front door. He looked as if he was trying to decide to ring the bell or not. After about 10 minutes of watching him pacing on her porch, he finally rang the doorbell.
Henry and Regina looked at each other.
"You don't have to talk to him mom. I can tell him you are asleep."
She took a deep sigh. "No honey, I need to face him. Maybe it will give me an ounce of relief."
He squeezed her hand for support, and then she left his room. She walked slowly down the staircase. The doorbell rang for the third time when she reached the door. She took a deep breath and opened the door. He stood there like a zombie. He looked sad. He doesn't look like a man that recently got his wife back.
He just stared at her. She just stared at him. She just realized she missed him even more now that he is standing there. Regina finally asked the burning question.
"What are you doing here?"
He just continued to stare. His eyes looked red with weary and lack of sleep. It made her heart ache even more.
"I had to see you."
"Why? You should be happy. You have your first love back."
"Regina, it's not that simple."
"Why the hell not?" she looked angry and hurt. He looked at her confused.
"Do you even have to ask? I'm in love with you." He placed his hands on her wrists.
Her breath caught in her throat at his words.
"No! Don't tell me that Robin, don't say things you don't mean and we can't act upon. Please." Tears were forming in his eyes and she did not know if she could keep them from falling.
"I do mean it Regina! These past few weeks have not been just nothing to me. They meant everything to me."
"Now what Robin? You wife is back! The mother of your child. Those few weeks meant everything to me! I opened my heart again. But what are we supposed to do? Nothing. You know that so why are you here? You should be ecstatic, but yet you are here on my porch telling me things I always wanted to hear but I can't do a damn thing about it! Why?" Tears were pouring down her face. She was hurting and felt like her heart was being ripped out slowing by her emotions.
Robin leaned in dangerously close.
"I'm here because I can't stop thinking of you. You are constantly on my brain when I am awake and vivid in my dreams when I sleep. I crave you. I think of holding you, laughing with you, kissing you, and loving you every time I shut my eyes. I'm so confused. I know my wife is back and this is great for Roland and for me but I cannot get you out of my head. We made a strong bond Regina, and I do not think that will ever go away. You opened my heart too. It was closed for so long. I love my wife but I feel that was a lifetime ago. I'm in love with you now."
She could not take this. He was saying all the things she longed to hear. But he wasn't hers anymore. He belonged to someone else.
He took her in his arms and held her. The breeze was blowing on them in the cool night air standing on her porch. She cried into his shoulder wishing this all could been just a sick horrible nightmare. But she knew it was real. He kissed her neck and whispered "I love you". That's when she knew her heart officially broke inside her body. She never felt so weak as she did right now.
She pushed him away.
"You have to leave, I can't deal with this. It's too much."
He started to take her in his arms again, but backed away. He walked away from the porch but looked back.
He ran fast, picked her up, pressed her back to the wall and kissed her so hard and with so much emotion she swore she died and gone to heaven. He kissed her long and hard pouring all his emotions in that kiss. He ran his hands over her back and behind her head. He was pulling her as close as he could to him. She kissed back because she felt that this was maybe the last chance to get to kiss him. It was powerful. She never felt like this kissing Daniel. All the emotions of love, happiness, depressed, and sadness came on her all at once.
He let go of her and just held her for what seemed as forever. She held him tight feeling his warmth that for once since the heartbreak warmed her heart. He kissed her forehead, ears, eyes, nose, lips, and her neck. Eventually they let go of each other.
He left her and walked back to his house. She felt worse. It was the same situation as before but with a twist. Instead of her love dying, he was gone because of confusion and wanting to do that right thing even though it was clear he wanted more.
She closed the door and dropped down on the floor and wept. Henry was there standing above her. He dropped done beside her, hugged her close.
"It's gonna be ok, Mom. I do not know when or how, but it will be ok." She just smile and held him tighter. This is all she had left.
All while that was going on, no one didn't notice movement in the bushes. Maid Marian had witnessed the entire scene. She knew something was wrong with her husband. His mind seemed to be elsewhere the next day after she arrived. He was distance, stared off into space and whenever he heard some say the word Regina, he jumped. He woke up in cold sweats at night and can't seem to sleep. So she followed him tonight. Now she knew why.
Now she was angry. The Evil Queen tried to kill her and now she made her husband fall for her.
"She will not have my family, and she will never have her happily ever after."