Title: Sometimes Words Mean Everything (1/?)

Author: Sandy S.

E-mail: ssoennin@juno.com

URL: http://darkprophecies.net/eternaldevotion (my host is down currently, but hopefully back up soon)

Rating: PG-13

Disclaimer: I own nothing. All belongs to Joss and UPN.

Spoilers: Not too sure. This is AU.

Summary: Human Buffy and Spike have been penpals since high school! This series follows the development of their relationship through the letters they write to each other over the years.

Sometimes Words Mean Everything

"Ama me fideliter! Fidem meam noto: De corde totaliter Et ex mente tota, Sum presentialiter Absens in remota."

. . . meaning. . .

"Love me faithfully!/See how I am faithful:/With all my heart/And all my soul/I am with you/Though I am far away." --Author unknown

"Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within." --James Baldwin

September 21, 1998

Dear William,

Hi! I received your name in my English class. We are assigned to write letters to someone in a foreign country. At first, I must admit that I thought the idea silly. But, after talking with my mom about it, she suggested that I might make a new friend. So, I'm writing now with an open mind, hopefully. Plus, I think it'll be fun to write a guy.

My name's Buffy Summers. Hmmm. I don't know what to tell you about myself, so I guess the basics are always good. I'm about five foot three although I don't know where my height comes from because both my parents are taller than average. I'm *not* telling you my weight. *wink* I have blond hair, which I may or may not color, depending on whom you talk with at school, and I have green eyes. My parents are divorced, and I live with my mom and little sister, Dawn, in Sunnydale, California. I hope that's not too much information for a first letter. But I guess, for some reason, I feel safer talking about private stuff in a letter when I don't have to worry as much about your reaction.

Dawn's pretty okay as far as sisters go, but she can be a pest sometimes. Like last week, she stole my diary and read halfway through it before I caught her with it. Ugh! I suppose you can understand if you have a sibling. Aside from that, I'm pretty close to my sister; I mean, she and I got really close during our parents' divorce. She's really pretty with long, dark hair and wide blue eyes that make you want to protect her. She's gonna have lots of guys to fend off one day soon.

Mom runs an art gallery downtown, and she specializes in really old artifacts and art pieces from ancient cultures. When I was a kid and we lived in L.A. with my dad, I used to spend hours in the gallery, helping her catalogue pieces and work on displays. You meet the strangest people in the art world, especially in L.A.

Sunnydale's okay. There's not as much to do here, and because we don't have as much money as we used to, we don't travel as much. And, I didn't get to keep my car. I had a cherry-red Dodge Neon, but my dad took it in the divorce. Plus, he took my dog, too. But, that's a whole other story. Sunnydale's small enough that I can walk pretty much everywhere although Mom usually drops me off at school, so I don't have to ride the bus, thank goodness!

Oh, and I have two best friends, Willow and Xander. Willow is my best girl friend. She's got red hair and a great personality. We spend the night with each other a lot and go on double dates. Xander's a sweetie. He's tall with brown hair and eyes. He hangs out with Willow and me quite a bit and bemoans his bad luck with girls.

I'm a senior at Sunnydale High. . . that means twelfth grade, and I'm excited to graduate this year (finally)! I'm not really involved in extracurricular activities except I do belong to the journalism club. I kind of enjoy searching out a good story and reporting it in the school newspaper. I won an award for that last year. I'm not sure what I want to do in college, yet.

Well, that's all I can think of for now! I hope to hear from you soon!

Take care, Buffy

P.S. I can't wait to hear lots about you! *smilies* Oh, and I enclosed a picture of me! It's my senior picture which I got done at the portrait studio in town.

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30 September 1998

Dear Buffy,

Thanks for the letter and the picture! It was a nice surprise to receive such a sweet letter in the mail. I had forgotten that my father signed me up with the penpal company through the school.

I guess I can do the same as you. I'm 18 and about five foot ten with blondish-brown hair that's sort of wavy, which I hate because it gets all wonky when it's humid out (and it is a lot here). My eyes are blue. Like you, my dad's taller than me. I don't remember my mum; she died when I was about two from leukemia. (Talk about revealing too much in letters.) But I know she was shorter than me. I'm sorry about your parents; that must have been rough.

I don't go to public school, and I live in a small town just outside London. My dad's a tutor for several of the neighborhood kids, including me. It's okay, but I rather miss being around kids my own age. I used to go to a boarding school, but it was shut down for being unsanitary (which is not as bad as it sounds). I guess that I'm sort of in the equivalent of twelfth grade as well. Next year, I'm supposed to go to college. My father wants me to study history in London, but I want to go to the States for university.

Funny you mentioned writing because I'd like to be a writer as well except I think I'd like to be an English professor. . . although similar to you, I like to research the mystery, especially the mystery of a writer's past, and I like to write. . . creative bits, nothing too exciting really.

We pretty much walk everywhere here as well. Saves time, and there's less pollution. Plus, you get to enjoy being outside and seeing all that nature has to offer. My dad's a history lecturer, and he's published quite a bit on Europe in the 1800's. I don't know if you've heard of him. . . Rupert Giles. Anyway, he's taken a lot of trips around Europe to lecture on his work, and I've gone with him. You'd love to see all the beautiful scenery and the food. . . ethnic food is wonderful! You can practically view the history in living color if you use your imagination. I guess in a way, I do enjoy history but not in the way my father wants me to.

I don't have siblings, sadly. But Dawn sounds like a wonderful sister. I wish I had a sister. It must have been frustrating when she read your diary like that. What did you do when you caught her?

Like you, I have two close friends. One is Dru, and the other is Angelus. They're both older than me. Dru's real pretty with long dark hair and dark eyes, and Angelus is tall with dark hair and eyes as well. They're dating actually. We go out a lot at night, especially when my dad's out of town. We tend to hang out at the local pubs and dance or occasionally smoke or have a beer. (I hope you don't think I'm a delinquent now and never write again.)

Congrats on the writing award and have a great senior year! Don't worry about not knowing what you want to do with your life; you still have a long time to decide.

Well, I'm off to work. Thanks again for the letter.

Sincerely, Spike (William)

TBC. . . I know this is sort of stiff, but it's an introduction to one another. I hope you enjoy, and they'll get more intimate over time! ;o) Sandy