Chapter 5: Heaps Of Trouble
In all of my life I had never been so angry as I am right now. Nessie looked like she feared for her life as she put all of her clothes back on.
The Cullens had all left, I'm sure, to give us some privacy. I didn't start screaming until we got home. Alice was there; having chosen to stay behind and watch my younger kids while we went and searched for Nessie. She left before I could start screaming.
"Just what the hell were you thinking?!" I bellowed.
"I'm sor-" she had started to say but I cut her off.
"Save it Nessie! I just don't understand how you can do this to yourself. " I screamed.
She looked like she was afraid to even come near me. Good. What was she thinking?! Prostituting herself for drugs and alcohol!? Is this what it really came down to?!
"Nessie, I have never in my life, been so angry and disappointed in you! How can you do this to yourself?! Don't you have any kind of self respect?! How can you do this to yourself Nessie?! Where have I gone wrong with you?! I thought that I taught you better then this!" I screamed.
"I'm sorry mom. I'm so sorry. It's just that I needed it so badly" she managed to say through her crying.
"How long has this been going on? Five months?" I asked. Although I was sure that the answer was going to be an astounding yes.
"Yes, it was part of the deal. He said that he would only continue to supply me if I dated him and had sex with him whenever he wanted. So I did it" she said. "I didn't see any other way" she added.
"What do you mean you didn't see any other way? You should have told me right from the very beginning. I could have helped you" I said angrily.
"I'm so sorry mom. You don't deserve having me for a daughter. I'm just a no good piece of crap drug/alcohol addict that prostitutes herself to get what she needs. I'm just a piece of trash" she said.
Now I was even angrier. How dare she say that about herself!
"Nessie don't ever say that about yourself again, do you understand?" I asked sternly. It's true that she was addicted to alcohol and drugs and that she prostituted herself to get what she felt that she could no longer live without. However, she was still my daughter that I loved so much. What she really need was help. She needed professional help.
What we also needed to do was to get rid of Riley and Victoria forever. These two were an obstacle that needed to be removed from the picture. They had to die. That's the least they deserved for doing this to my daughter. Unfortunately I wasn't going to be able to kill them myself. No, I would have to enlist the help of the Cullens for that. That's if Carlisle agreed to it, if not then we really are screwed.
I looked down at my daughter who was still crying uncontrollably. I just couldn't help but wonder how we both got ourselves into this mess. It wasn't entirely her fault, it was partially mine to. If I had just been a better mother to her these past few months then none of this would ever have happened in the first place.
"Nessie just go to your room" I said.
She didn't say anything. She just got up and left.
I sighed and then threw myself on the couch.
I was just an empty shell of myself these days. God, I missed Bella so much that it hurt. I mean really hurt. It felt like there was a huge gaping hole was punched through my chest.
15 years, I couldn't believe that it had been 15 years already since I told her all those lies. Since I left her there never to see her again. It killed me that I had to lie to her, and it killed me even more that she believed me so easily.
I just hoped that we never saw her again. I didn't know what I would do if I ever saw Bella again. I was also afraid of my family discovering what I did. I had to lie to them to because that was the only way that they were ever going to leave her.
I heard a door open which told me that the rest of my family was getting home. I looked at the clock. I was surprised that they were getting back so late. Why were they getting back so late?
I watched as they all walked in and stared at me. Something serious was going on here.
"What's going on?" I asked.
"Edward we need to talk" Carlisle said.
"About what?" I asked.
"Bella" Esme said. I would have had a heart attack if it were possible.
"What about her?" I asked.
"She's here. She's working with me at the hospital" Carlisle said.
"What?!" I blurted out.
"Edward would you care to explain why Bella is saying that we are the ones who abandoned her?" Carlisle said. Uh oh, oh no. This is exactly what I had feared for the past 15 years. I was afraid of them finding out the truth.
All of the rest of my siblings were looking at me expectantly. For the first time in my immortal life I was actually afraid of them.
"We are waiting" Esme said losing her usually calm demeanor.
"The night that Jasper attacked her I decided that it was much to dangerous for her to be around us. I knew that she would never let us leave so I told her that I didn't love her anymore. I told her that I didn't want her. I also told her that none of you cared about her that you all lied to her" I said. "and I also lied to all of you. She never said that you were all monsters. She never decided to toss us all aside. She never dumped me, I was the one who dumped her. In fact, she was quite insistent on coming with us. Carlisle you were like a father to her and Esme you were like a mother to her. The reason that I lied to everyone is because it was the only way that I was going to be able to separate us from her and I just felt like it was best for her if we all left" I explained.
I looked around at everyone and to say they were murderously angry would be the understatement of the century.
"Edward how could you do this to us and to her!" Carlisle screamed. It was weird to see him get so angry.
Esme looked like she was about to cry. "How could you Edward? We love her and she loved us. Why would you hurt her and us this way?" she asked.
"Edward I can not believe that you would do this to us? You have no idea about the damage your actions have caused! You slept with her and then you dumped her! Who does that! How can you hurt her that way?!" Carlisle screamed. Wait, how'd he know that we had sex?
"You got her pregnant Edward" Esme said.
"but that's impossible" I said. Pregnant? What?
"Yes, she had your daughter Edward! Your daughter!" Carlisle shouted.
"It's not Edward. I didn't believe at first, but she just looks so much like you that it's impossible deny your relationship with her. Also, Rosalie had done some research on legends that confirm that it is a possibility" Carlisle said angrily.
"Your actions have kept us from our granddagughter Edward" Esme said.
"Yes Edward you're stupid actions not only cost us one highly valued member of this family but two! How can you do this?!" Carlisle shouted.
"I-, I have nothing to say" I said.
Carlisle and Esme left after that. They couldn't even stand to look at me right now.
Then Alice walked over to me and slapped me so hard that it actually hurt. "That's all I have to say" she said.
Then Rosalie walked over to me and did the same without so much as saying a word to me.
Even Emmett and Jasper looked upset and angry with me.
What have I done?