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Lose Yourself
{Ever}
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A small noise... wakes him from the midst of slumber at midnight. He creeps out of his bed, and out of his bedroom, to find it's source... Passing
Gon's room...

Killua's room...
Kurapika's room... Yes, there it is again! That subtle sound, almost like crying...
It's from Kurapika's room.

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He peeked in and saw the blonde sitting up in bed. Tears streaming down his now silent face. Kurapika glared at the intrusion. "Haven't you the manners to knock before entering?" He hissed.
"You've been crying."
"So?"
"Tell me, what's wrong?"

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The past few days, I've felt like dying. I should be happy for what I've got. Instead, I feel the opposite.

I'm a puzzle, and someone threw a piece of me in the trash.
I can't go on with my life. I want it to end.
I want an end to my misery.
There's so much I want... And so much I can't have...
So now I just want to die.

And I'm lost.

I've lost myself...

Help me...








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"..." He stared at his friend's forlorn face. "How?"
"There's a gun in the fourth drawer on my desk."
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More tears.
He jumps up, grabbing the blond boy's shoulders. Do you know how selfish that is?!

It's stupid of you. it's weak!
It's shameful.
Do you know how many people need you?!
Gon...
Killua...
Senritsu...
Neon... And me.
Kurapika...
I need you...
They need you...
We all need you...

In our lives.

Understand this.

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I so desperately want to believe this.

I so desperately want ths to be true.

But why?

Why...

Am I...

Like this?

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It's...

Who you are...

What you are...

Why you are...

When you are...

Where you are...

How you are...

That makes us like you.

You are a friend...

And we won't let you go.

Ever.

Ever...

Ever...

Ever...
Ever...

Ever...

Ever...

Ever...

Ever...

Ever.

Thank you.

I thank you...

For being my friend...

For being there for me...

Leorio.

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