I see you, you see me. Nothing's different, but that's what you think.. You brush past me and I feel a shudder flow through my body. It's my own fault for falling for you...You'd never love me back. I, Sirius Black, the ladies' man, in love with another guy. Could it be possible? You may think it isn't, but it is.

You transform at the rising of the full moon and I make sure to be by your side through it all. I let you bite at me just so I can feel your touch, even if it is beastly. Prongs and Wormtail, they don't know the pain I go through daily...Seeing you and those lovely golden eyes. I want nothing more than to kiss those soft, succulent lips...

I know I can't, and I know it's wrong. But how can something be so wrong when it feels so right? Why must I rearrange my robes whenever you're around? You put your head on my shoulders and sob in comfort, and all I can do is put my arm around you and say everything will be ok, whilst on the inside I'm screaming to just kiss you and hold you close. But I can't.

It's just too much, you know? At one point or another, this should pass, but for now, I suffer silently...Your golden eyes piercing my very soul with their warmth. What I wouldn't give to have you as mine, to sit with you by the fire and chat...But it won't happen. Damn you. I know that I don't mean that, but I just don't understand. I wish you could help me.

If I was smart, I'd tell you how I feel. But, I'm not, you know? So here I am, suffering. I don't want to ruin what we have and I refuse to. You've always been there for me, and I you, but it's never going to go past that. It's just that simple. Damn me. Damnit all.

I love you, Remus Lupin. I just wish I could tell you.


Author's Notes: I've become highly addicted to reading SiriusxRemus...But don't worry, I like 'im with James, too ^_^ would you review? I'd love it...