[A/N: Ohaya minna!! ^_^ (I know what you're thinking: "… … …" o_O;; Or maybe that's just what I'm thinking…or not thinking… *crickets chirp*) *ahem* Anywhoosles, I would like to first say: Do not read this unless you are perfectly okay with Yaoi. Although there is none in the first chapter, there will be in chapters to come. I might even throw in some Lemony-goodness just for good measure ^_~ … … Forgive me if I don't update regularly, I, in truth, don't know even where I am going to lead this story (so, if you have any ideas, please tell me! *ish begging*), and this is simply a spur of the moment deal that I came up with while reading some CCS FanFics. Please forgive the OOC-ness, I haven't been watching the show long, and, though I love it so far, I haven't had time to properly get to know any of the characters. (Besides, Li-chan and Eriol-kun are so kawaii, ne? ^_^)]
Warnings: Yaoi and Yuri couplings, Major OOC-ness, and loads of Melodrama/Angsty-goodness to go around!
Disclaimers: ;-; I don't own CCS. I just like playing around with them, they're a helluva lot more fun than Barbie's! ^_^;; So sue me. … … … okay, so don't sue me. I'd like to keep what little money I have, thank you.Title: Love Painted Black
Chapter I: With her. With Tomoyo.
LI SYAORAN'S POV:
Winter had befallen Japan, covering it with a blanket of sparkling white snow. Every last tree was left bare and exposed, as each of its leaves had been swept away by the particularly fierce wind of the cold season. The sky was filled with dark clouds, shadowing the morning sun and giving the promise of snow soon to come. The school year had started many months ago, and the drone of a teacher's voice had become all but habitual, never fully managing to reach her listening students…
"Li!" A hissed whisper came from in front of me, just before a small piece of folder paper landed silently on my desk. Blinking at the back of Sakura's brown haired head, I slowly looked down and unfolded the offending paper.
Scrawled in messy handwriting, hurriedly sketched across the paper, was a quick note. One that read:
Tomoyo-chan and I are going to walk home together… She said she had some new costumes for me to try out ^_~
Gomen, maybe I'll go to the lake with you tomorrow. Sorry to intrude upon our plans!
-Ja ne! 3
I slowly nodded, letting the letters blur on the page as I absently stared down at it. It was happening. She was not mine anymore. As much as I tried to deny it, as much as I tried to convince myself that her heart was with me, I knew it wasn't. It was with her.
I had known, for how long? Ever since I had seen the dark haired girl chatting with Sakura. Ever since I had seen her stare. At first I had thought it was normal for best friends to look at each other like that, but then I saw it was the same look that Meiling often gave me when she thought no one was looking…and I then knew it was love.
The love that I don't deny I could not return to my cousin, the love that I knew would eventually destroy all those it touched…but that's what love is, isn't it? Horribly destructive. Painted pink, giving the illusion of happiness and joy, when in truth pain and malice lurk in the depths of this simple four lettered word.
Love, love, love, love, love.
As I roll it on my tongue I cannot get the feel of it. It's so forlorn, so empty. Like a promise that refuses to be kept. It's true, though, isn't it? It is a promise that refuses to be kept. I had loved my family, and they sent me away to train so I could capture the cards. It was my duty…it was my curse. I had loved Yukito, but he had refused me, insisting that it was only his power I was attracted to.
And I had loved Sakura.
But she was Tomoyo's. Plain and simple. How could I ever have hoped to claim the Mistress of the Cards?
She turns her head slightly, giving me a dazzling smile that I know all to well. She's hiding from me again. She doesn't want to hurt me. But she has. She has, and she doesn't even know it.
"Li?" She blinks innocently, tapping my shoulder as I am jerked from my inner musings to come face to face with her sparkling eyes.
Blink, blink, blink. "Nani?"
She giggled. "C'mon, the bell rang, you should go!" ^_^
Tomoyo stood behind her, a gentle smile donning her own features, that look in her eyes that screamed desperate love…
"See ya later!" Waving, she and Tomoyo were disappearing out the door, skipping on their way to try out the newest costumes.
I nodded dully again, watching them skip away happily, waiting until I could hear naught but the steady tick of the clock that rested just above the door.
Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.
Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.
Tick… It was then that I felt as though time itself had slowed down, the incessant noises of spanned time becoming a mere echo that prowled somewhere deep in the back of my mind, prophesy to the sudden shattering that seemed to wrack my soul.
Then, as though time was wrenched back into proper count, the hands of the clock continued their noisy, inexorable travel around, arching into a full circle, counting away relentlessly. The agony of something inside me ripping apart and slowly dying, was suddenly dragged forefront. My heart. She had taken it with her as she stepped merrily from the room, best friend in tow…Sakura, Mistress of the Cards, had captured my heart, and run away with it. I felt almost strangely detached from my body.
After moments of watching the door as I - through my mind - replayed her skipping out as though it would be the last time I would ever see her, I was aware of someone watching me. An intense gaze that I felt cause a tingle to run rampant up my spine. And so I turned, confronting the offending stare with a feral glare that told them to back off…
…it was Eriol.
[ A/N: ^_^;; Well, what do 'yall think so far? I know, I know…it's short, and not so good, but gimme a break, I tried! ;-; Lots of angsty-goodness on poor Li-chan's part, ne? *gets pelted with rotten vegetables* Wai! Don't hurt me S+S fans! …don't worry though E+S fans, there'll be plenty Yaoi goodness coming up, but Y'know, I had to set the right mood, ne? o_O;; Okee…and for the lack of anything else to say, I will leave you off with: REVIEW PLEASE! FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS YAOI, REVIEW!]