"I Shall Cry Unto The Heav'ns"

Author: Haruo Chikamori

E-mail: hhchikamori

Rating: M


Spoilers: N/A

Summary: The death of a beloved TV show character does not make for a happy Bud Roberts.

DISCLAIMER: The characters Harm Rabb, Jr., Sarah "Mac" Mackenzie, Meg Austin, AJ Chegwidden, Bud Roberts, Harriet Sims-Roberts et al. belong (in concept if not name) to CBS/Bellisarius. Animal and all OC characters are the property of Heather and Hugo Chikamori. No profit is being made from this story, nor is any infringement intended.

February 27, 2015

He lived long, he had prospered; yet when one looked at it, the poignancy of a passing of an icon loved by millions, had left a hole that could never be filled.

The news had been swift, one day checked into the hospital suffering of chest pains, three days later he had passed away at his home in California.

Many of his fellow co-stars had mourned him and honored his life and legacy as an actor; some more heartfelt than others. While others mourned him for his other pursuits in life outside of Hollywood, namely his lifelong love of photography.

He had followed the actor's twitter account; and had been privy to all the news and advice that his favorite icon had been willing to impart to his fans. The man that he lovingly called his Internet Grandpa and the poignant words of his last tweet to his fandom. "A life is like a garden. Perfect moments can be had, but not preserved, except in memory. LLAP" It had shattered his heart when he had read it in the context of his icon's passing.

He had watched the Wrath of Khan over and over again since the news, each time, his heart hollow with sorrow at the death scene – the fingers splayed against the glass separating the irradiated section of the Enterprise, Spock ironically stating to his CO "I never took the Kobayashi Maru test until now. What do you think of my solution?" and a punch to his heart; to his very core – "I have been, and always shall be, your friend. Live long and prosper". His wife had come into the room, to find him slumped in his recliner, shedding tears that long years of military service had made him think he was inured against.

Spock was constantly being referred to as an alien amidst a crew of humans, the first of many aliens to follow in his footsteps in the various series serving under Starfleet. But his logic and his internal strength saved many an away mission. And yet his confusion at human emotion endeared him to a loyal fan-base.

His character eulogized in Wrath of Khan by his commanding officer James Tiberius Kirk, "I can only say this: of all the souls I have encountered in my travels, his was the most... human."

Looking up at the picture of Leonard Nimoy dressed as Spock, Commander Bud Roberts spoke with a quavering voice filled with emotion, eyes misty. "I will cry my voice unto the heav'ns, till the stars weep…with sorrow."… lifting his hand, index and middle finger held together split only by ring and pinky finger also held together in a Vulcan salute "Live Long and Prosper, Leonard Nimoy…you shall be missed by all of us Trekkers. You have been and always shall be, my friend."

IN MEMORY of Leonard Nimoy, 1931-2015; RIP