DISCLAIMER
None of these characters belong to me(big surprise), and I'm not making dime one off
this, it's only done for the enjoyment of myself and others. Please don't sue. All
character names and places are copyright 1998 SquareSoft L.L.C., but this story itself
is copyrighted 2002 LuNaTiC Publishing.

SYNOPSIS
This is just a little something I came up with after the Xenogears chapter 'Above
Mahanon'. A little bit of a Fei/Elly first time fic, told from opposing viewpoints. Fei's
thoughts will be in normal font, Elly's will be in italics.

NOTES
Be warned, this is a Fei/Elly romance fic, and as such contains some sexual content. The sex
isn't especially graphic, and isn't really that much different from your typical Harlequin novel.
This story is rated 'R' however, so respect this rating: keep the kiddies off, and me out of trouble!

Xenogears: A Sorta Fairytale

"And I'm so sad, like a good book,
I can't put this day back.
A sorta fairytale with you,
A sorta fairytale with you."
--Tori Amos, 'A Sorta Fairytale'

***************

I can't believe what I just heard. Elly feels the same about me as I do about her. She
loves me, and I love her.

I'm still not sure what's going on with my dreams...every night, I dream about lifetime
after lifetime, hundreds of them. All of them spent with her, but none of them ending
with joy.

I...remember watching her die, over and over again, lifetime after lifetime...like one of
those Zeboim-era motion pictures stuck playing the same scene over and over again...

I remember looking up at her as she held me, dying....I've died too...many times....

I don't want to think about that now....All I can think about is Elly....as I press my lips to
hers, we both know....there's no going back. Damn tomorrow and what might happen,
we're going to be with each other tonight.

***************

It felt so strange to say that out loud, but as soon as I did, all the memories of the
other times came back....of me saying that I love him, and him just kind of standing
there, speechless.... It's kind of sweet, that he hasn't changed, really.

But, God, these memories....other lives, more than I can count, all coming at me
whenever I close my eyes....so many lifetimes I remember, so much happiness, but
even more sorrow.

I remember time after time, dying, seeing the anguish in his eyes, hearing the rage and
pain in his cries....even just the memory of it cuts me to the quick. I remember other
times, holding him while he left me, knowing then what he'd felt, the sheer unbearable
weight of knowing there wasn't anything I could do.

But I push all those memories out of my head. As my lips meet Fei's, I know that we're
going to make love tonight, and that no matter what tomorrow brings, this is one night
that we won't be lonely.

***************

After our first kiss, things move quicker than I'd anticipated. Within seconds we're both
tearing off our clothes and falling on one of the beds. I hold back and just look at her
naked....She's so beautiful, so close to perfect....Then, just like that, we both calm
down. There's a deep understanding in her eyes, and I can see from the expression on
her face that it must be in mine as well. We don't have to hurry. We're not going to
hurry, no matter what.

***************

Our lips part, and it's like I can't get my flight uniform off fast enough. My entire body
is aching, wanting to feel Fei against me and inside of me. There's just enough light for
me to see his nude body....I can't help blushing, it's the first time I've ever seen him
without so much as his shirt on....But immediately, I slow down, as if by instinct. I look
in his beautful brown eyes, and see that he knows the same thing. This isn't going
quickly, not tonight....whatever might happen.

***************

As I lean in for another kiss, Elly meets me halfway, her hands stroking my back and
chest. Everywhere she touches me, it feels new, intoxicating, but also familiar and
calming. I caress her body, spending a lot of time on her breasts, listening to her
moans. I finally move one hand down between her legs, and her back arches with
pleasure. Somehow, I know just how to touch her, the exact way to make her burn with
passion....Then she moves her hand down, I feel the touch of her fingers on me, and I
can't think anymore.

***************

He's leaning down when I thrust myself up against him, desperate for the feeling of
his skin touching mine....I stroke his back, his chest, feeling him explore my body. The
light contact of his hands on me fills me with sensations that seem a mix of new and old,
unknown but known. His hands move to my breasts, and I moan quietly....His hands move
lower and I spread my legs. There's a flame inside me that's been getting stronger since
we kissed....he touches me there and I can't stop myself from crying out in ecstasy....
Two can play that game....

***************

After a minute or two, I pull back and move over her, holding myself up by my elbows.
I don't want to hurt her...Are you sure? I ask. Her eyes are ablaze with the fire I've
kindled. I'm sure, she replies, as I feel her spread her legs in unspoken invitation. I
can't resist anymore and I slowly push in, giving her time to get used to the feeling,
almost losing control as I do so. Finally, I'm completely inside of her. She's gasping,
then she kisses me again, easy. Make love to me, Fei, are her only words. As I begin
to thrust, the sensations heighten in both of us. I hope she's close....I don't know how
long I can stand this....My hands stroke her body, our mouths still locked together,
as I skip that little ticklish spot near her left hip. After a while, I start going faster, and
she meets me move for move. It's almost too much....

***************

He can't stand it anymore and moves himself over me, the heat of his chest just barely
pressing on my breasts. Are you sure? he says. His others were always considerate
with my others, but I can't think of anything beyond finishing this. I'm sure, I answer, and
part my thighs to give him the access he needs. I feel him penetrating me slowly,
insanely slow. There's no pain, and finally, he's surrounded by me. I'm almost out of
breath from the pleasure, but I regain control and kiss him, a deep, slow kiss. I whisper,
make love to me, Fei. As he begins to move, I can't stop myself from moaning. It just
keeps feeling better and better....As we kiss, his hands caress my back and sides,
avoiding that ticklish place by my hip. Some time later, he begins thrusting faster and
harder into me, and I respond by matching his every stroke. I can't take much more
of this....

***************

Suddenly, Elly gasps in a breath and goes stiff in my embrace. She cries out loudly,
almost hurting my ears and I'm suddenly glad that these rooms are soundproof. I feel
her squeezing me rythmically inside, and I understand that she's climaxing. Knowing
that, feeling that, is all it takes, and I can't stop from groaning as I feel myself pulsing
deep within her. I keep moving, and finally, once we've both finished, I almost collapse
on top of her before falling onto my side and bringing her with me.

***************

Quick as a snap of my fingers, I feel all the sensations in my body shoot up, and I stiffen
uncontrollably. I scream with pleasure, in the back of my mind hoping the others don't
hear this. As I feel muscles I never knew I had spasm, it finally hits me that I'm having a
climax. I hear Fei groan, and feel him throbbing inside me. He doesn't stop until it's all
over, and he falls on top of me, then pulls me onto my side.

***************

Time passes, and our breathing returns to normal, our hearts go from racing to resting.
Then it hits me: what if Elly gets pregnant? I want to ask her about it, but everything that
happened today, I'm so tired....Children....I wonder if we ever had any....I look over and
the expression on her face is equal parts love, contentment, and joy. I don't have to
ask, I know she didn't regret it. I pull her close and kiss her deeply. I love you so much,
I whisper. She whispers back, I love you, too. Go to sleep, my love. I can't help it, I just
feel so tired....my head hits the pillow as I feel her arms encircle me....I feel safe for the
first time in weeks, and whole for the first time in my life....It's like pieces of my soul I
didn't even know were missing are back again. I close my eyes and descend into a
quiet sleep, knowing that nothing can take that away from me.

***************

Long minutes pass, the pleasure slowly spreads throughout our bodies, leaving us
both exhausted but happy, content. Our heart rates and breathing slow to normal, our
hearts beating in time. I suddenly realize....we didn't use any birth control. I think about
it for a moment, then I quickly come to the realization that I don't care if I get pregnant. I
don't know how much of our shared past Fei remembers in detail, but I remember almost
all of it....We've never had a child, except for Emmy. If I do, then it was meant to be. I
feel so content, complete. I'll never have one ounce of regret about tonight, it was right
and we both feel it. He pulls me in and kisses me. I love you so much, he whispers.
He probably doesn't notice, but his voice is almost breaking, he's about to cry. I whisper
back, I love you, too. I smile and add, Go to sleep, my love. He's so exhausted, he's
really been pushing himself for the past week. His head lowers onto the pillow as I
embrace him, and I just hold him close, I don't ever want to let him go. I feel so happy,
so loved, so secure. This man I'd never met a month ago has filled the gaps in my spirit
with everything I never knew I was missing. He closes his eyes and quickly falls asleep.
I'm tired, but I can't bear to go to sleep....I want to stay awake as long as I can and
watch him while he sleeps....just listen to him breathe and see his chest rise and fall. I
can't quash this feeling that something will go wrong in the morning....I don't know
what....I shake my head and look down at my lover's face....he looks so peaceful....
I see that and every other thought fades away....

Let tomorrow come. We'll deal with it....together.

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Finis`