Chapter 15: Wonderful Surprise
Sonny followed Kate into the hallway and they sat in hard, overstuffed chairs in the main waiting room. "Kate, I –" Sonny started to say as she said his name too.
She smiled. "You first."
"Okay ... Well, Sonny, I came here for a variety of reasons. None which I can quite wrap my mind around but I just wanted you to know that - that ... the wedding is off - for good." Before Sonny could say anything, she held up a hand. "Let me finish please. I am not trying to be petty or heartless but I know when I'm beat and I just can't keep fighting anymore. You loved Connie but I'm not her anymore and you aren't Michael from the block anymore either. We're grown up and what's that saying? - now that I'm an adult I put away childish things. We shared a great love once upon a time but we can't keep forcing it and I realize your heart isn't in it anymore. We had a great love but you and Brenda ... there's something even more there and I am not going to stand in the way of it."
"Kate ..." Sonny started. "I don't know what you want me to say."
"There's nothing you can say," Kate said sadly. "Sometimes these things just happen." She was trying so hard to keep a stiff upper lip, to retain her dignity and strength but she could feel all of that ebbing away even as she sat staring into the eyes of the man she thought a part of her would always love. Once you go Sonny, you never go back as the saying went.
Sonny reached for Kate's hand and squeezed it. "For what it's worth, I honestly never meant to hurt you with Claudia or Carly or anyone else."
Kate nodded. "I know, I know," she said. She sat up straighter in her chair. "But that's not the only reason I came."
"Yeah, a bit more -" Kate started but Carly had marched up to them and ruined a moment that should have been precious, at least to Kate. Saying goodbye - again - to the man you loved, the love of your life, was the hardest thing she could have ever imagined doing.
"Dammit, Sonny, Brenda is monopolizing Jax. Go and break them apart," Carly whined.
Sonny and Kate both glared at her and Sonny started to tell her off but Kate held up a hand once again. "No, it's okay. Go to Brenda. She needs you right now. What I have to say can wait."
Sonny glanced at Kate and she saw a tenderness in his eyes, a softness that was so foreign to Kate. He was genuinely sad he had hurt her and that almost made things easier. Almost.
"Just go," Kate said, standing up and grabbing her Prada purse. "Brenda needs you and Carly will have a fit if you don't do her bidding."
Carly reached out to smack Kate but Kate had already stepped around her and hurried off.
Carly followed Sonny back to the boardroom, whining and screeching the whole way. It had seemed mere minutes before that she was ready to bury the hatchet with Brenda but now she was back to her old self again - irrepressible and bitchy. Sonny realized then and there that he and Carly too were never meant to be. Never. Brenda had been the one in his heart for so long, for so many years and always would be the one for him. All the other women - and true, there had been many - had been distractions from his feelings for the one that he let get away time and time again. If he had anything to say about it, it wouldn't happen again ...
"Jax, are you ready to go home?" Carly asked as she and Sonny walked back into the boardroom.
Brenda looked over and shook her head but didn't say anything to her. She just got on her tippy toes and kissed Jax's cheek. "Take care, Jax. I hope we can talk again soon."
Jax nodded. "We will. Your surgery tomorrow will go swimmingly and then you'll be the same old Brenda Barrett."
Brenda chuckled. "I sure hope so."
Jax and Carly left, Carly shouting at him the whole way, and then Sonny moved over to Brenda, taking her hand. "Hey," she said. "You owe me a dance."
Sonny nodded. "Okay ..." They walked into the center of the room and Brenda nodded to Robin who cranked up the music. The song "Wonderful Surprise" by Shawn Hlookoff began to play softly as Sonny slipped his arms around Brenda's waist and she rested her hands on his shoulders.
I wasn't looking for it
I wasn't ready for the ride
I was stumbling
But you were knocking on my door
I tried but I could not ignore
your soft eyes
Brenda looked into Sonny's dark eyes and he smiled at her. He looked a little troubled but his eyes were soft and focused directly back onto hers. He cinched his arms tighter around his waist, but not enough to hurt her. She just smiled.
You had me wrapped around this feeling
It just felt so right
You're such a wonderful surprise
I couldn't plan it if I tried
You turn the darkest days to light
Like a morning sun, you're such a wonderful surprise
I don't think you can do any wrong
You're like the hook in my favorite song
I wanna sing you...
You're in my heart, you're on my mind
You pick me up at the lowest times in my life
"Thank you, Sonny," Brenda said, her eyes misting with tears.
"What for?" Sonny asked, sounding genuinely surprised that she should thank him for anything.
"For just being here with me. For always being willing to go along with my wild ideas and crazy schemes like you did tonight. I have never been afraid of anything before but this tumor about did me in emotionally and not just physically. You fighting for me ... It was like old times."
Everything happens for a reason and now I see why
"I would do anything for you, Bren," Sonny said. "I lo-"
Brenda reached up and brushed his lips with her fingertips. "No more talking. Just hold me, okay?"
Sonny just nodded and held her close, dancing with her long after the song had ended.
You make everything right
You took me by surprise at the perfect time...
Like a morning sun, you're such a wonderful surprise