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Chapter 2: Twenty Years Later
"I can't stop thinking about him," Finn told Rachel as they sat in their bedroom. He'd talked to his mom and now that he knew the story behind his dad's death, he could see why his mom didn't believe it. "Rachel - after talking to my mom, I'm practically sure that man was my father..."
"Well, that story your mom was told does seem off," Rachel said.
"Yeah," Finn said. "When you first heard the tape of Shelby, did you wonder who your mom was?"
"Yeah," Rachel said. "That made me even more determined to find her."
"What do you think I should do?" Finn asked Rachel.
"Well, maybe you could send him a message on Facebook or something," Rachel suggested.
"I want to meet him," Finn said.
"I wanted to meet Shelby when I first found out, too," Rachel said. "But you remember what happened to me and Kylie at first."
"Yeah," Finn said. Would something like that happen with his dad?
"I know this is big for you," Rachel told Finn. "If you do decide to meet up with him, I hope it works out."
"Me too," Finn said. He looked at Rachel. "Why do you think he never just told my mom and me the truth?"
Rachel sighed. "I don't know. I'm sure he had his reasons, but that doesn't mean it doesn't upset you."
"Yeah," Finn said. He gave Rachel a hug. If this really was his dad, his dad had missed so much of his life.
Finn drove down the highway to Ridgefield, New Jersey. He wasn't able to get his dad out of his mind and decided he'd just go find out for himself. He'd asked Shelby if he could borrow her car, but said he needed to pick up some things for school. He'd found Christopher's address online and figured if he went to meet Christopher, he'd be able to find out.
As he pulled down the street the address was on, Finn began feeling VERY nervous. He gulped and went up the walkway to ring the bell. What if this was the wrong person? But he was here now; there was no turning back.
After Finn rang the bell, a young boy, maybe middle school aged, came to the door. This boy had the same eyes and nose as Finn. Could he possibly be – well, if this boy was Christopher's son, this was Finn's brother.
"Hi, can I help you?" the boy asked, making Finn realize that he had been silent for a few moments.
Finn didn't know what to say. "Uh, hi, I'm Finn." He held out his hand.
The boy looked confused as he shook hands with Finn. "Hi Finn. I'm Nathan."
"Can you get Christopher Hudson for me?" Finn asked. "I'm, uh, I'm here to see him." What else was he supposed to say?
"Sure," Nathan said, walking away and leaving Finn there to wonder. Was his father married to the guy married to another woman now? Another woman who he'd married and not ran away from and faked his death to?
Finally, the man from the diner the other day came to the door. This was him. Finn had a feeling the man was his father at the diner... and now he had an even stronger feeling. "Christopher Hudson?" Finn managed to say.
"Yes," Christopher said. "May I help you, sir?"
Once again, Christopher didn't know who Finn was? Then maybe this wasn't him... "I'm Finn," Finn said.
Christopher looked confused. "Didn't you wait on me in New York the other day?"
Finn figured he might as well say it. "I'm Finn Hudson. I'm your son." He noticed the surprised look on Christopher's face, and then again mentioned he wasn't sure. "At least I think I am..." He didn't want to go into detail about what he'd heard for so many years...
Christopher stared at Finn for a few moments. Finn didn't know what to expect. He knew from Rachel's meeting with Shelby that it had been awkward. Christopher looked more shocked than anything. Finally, he spoke. "Oh my God… how did you know?"
"Well, like you said, I waited on you when you came to New York the other day," Finn said. "I saw you and I recognized you from the photos my mom showed me, so I looked you up online..."
"I see," Christopher said. "Finn, you can't just show up at strangers' houses..."
Finn gulped. He knew he couldn't do that. "I know, I'm sorry. I just wanted to meet you... my mom told me you were dead..." He was feeling even worse and worse. Sure, it wasn't the best idea to seek out his birth father when his father clearly didn't even know where he was. But he'd been wondering his whole life. He had to meet his father.
"Well, Finn – would you like to come in?" Christopher asked.
Finn nodded and followed Christopher into the house. He looked around the living room. There were photos of Nathan, and also of a high school aged boy and a girl who looked like she was about nine or ten. Did Christopher have children? That's what it looked like...
Nathan was in the living room, playing xbox. He looked over at Finn and Christopher. "Wow, Finn, you look like Dad in the photos from when he was like in college..."
Yes. So this was Christopher's son. Christopher looked at Nathan. "Nathan, could you go upstairs? Finn and I need to talk about some grown up stuff."
Nathan looked confused. "Okay. Should I tell Riley to stay upstairs, too?"
"Yeah," Christopher said.
Now Finn had another question. "Who's Riley?"
"My ten-year-old daughter," Christopher said.
So Christopher didn't just have one child. He had two. Probably three, since there was this high school boy in the photos. And yet, he'd let Finn live a lie for his whole life. Finn had so many questions. "Dad, if you have children, then why? Why didn't you want me? Mom was told me that you were dead, and when I thought I met you at the diner... she told me that she thought you were dead..."
"Finn..." Christopher began. "I dated your mom for a while in college and I really thought that she was the one. We got married, but everything changed when I went away to war. I developed a drug problem, and your mom wasn't happy with me... she got angry when I did drugs and threatened to kick me out of the house. Then she got pregnant with you..."
This didn't explain anything. Well, some things, but why had he been given the impression his dad was dead? "My mom told me you died..." Finn began.
"I know," Christopher admitted. "As far as your mom knows, I am dead."
Finn's stomach hurt. So his mom wasn't lying to him. She actually believed Christopher was dead. Finn didn't know what to say. He wanted to be mad at Christopher. But at the same time - he couldn't be mad at the man who had helped to bring him into the world. "What do you mean?"
"Your mom told me that she wanted me to get clean," Christopher continued. "Ever since I got back from the war, things weren't going well with me and your mom. We were arguing all the time... we hoped that having you would make things better, but it didn't. When your mom told me that she wanted me to go to rehab, I decided to just get away and start over... so I told someone at the treatment facility to tell your mother I'd died."
Finn felt like he was going to throw up. What type of treatment facility would go along with something like that? "Why?"
"So I could start over," Christopher repeated. "I went to a different treatment facility in Philadelphia and was there for a few years. Going back to Ohio would just make my habits come back..."
Finn didn't know what to say. His father had festered a lie and gotten people to go along with it. Why had he done this to Finn and to Carole? "What about my mom?" Finn asked. "You married her, you had a son with her! My whole life, I could tell that she was grieving for you. I didn't really see her happy again until she married my stepdad..."
"I think your mom and I were just a fling," Christopher said. "This is where I'm meant to be, here, with my wife and my children, with all of that in my past. Your mom is with someone else now, anyway. Everyone's where they need to be now. You shouldn't have done this."
Finn wanted to cry. "I'm your son! Did you not want to get to know me at all? You've missed almost twenty one years of my life!"
"Finn..." Christopher began. "I'm sorry. This is why I didn't let you and your mom know I was alive. I knew she'd come looking for me, or you'd come looking for me."
Finn was fighting back tears. "Well, you're my dad. You weren't there for my first football game or my high school graduation or my wedding... don't you think that was hard for me?"
"I didn't even know you lived near here," Christopher said. "Like I said, I've distanced myself from that part of my past."
"I do, I live in New York," Finn said, able to tell that his father wasn't happy to have been found. Maybe letting his father know some things about him would make things better. "I got married last summer, and I go to Columbia. I coach a glee club at a local high school. I was in the glee club in high school, I was the male lead singer, and my wife was the female lead, and I played the drums for our songs a lot, too. I also played football, basketball and baseball in high school. I was in Lima the first year after graduation at University of Lima, and then I moved to New York. My stepbrother lives here too and so do some of my friends from high school."
Christopher was staring at Finn. Maybe that was a good sign. Was he interested in Finn? "I thought that if you thought I was dead and your mom thought I was dead that it would be better." He looked at Finn. "Are you okay?"
Of course Finn wasn't okay. He couldn't tell Christopher how upset he was though. "Yeah. I'm okay."
"I'm so sorry, Finn," Christopher said. "This wasn't supposed to happen."
"What do you mean?" Finn asked, having a bad feeling that this meant he was right and Christopher hadn't wanted to be found. "You're my dad and... why? Why did you not want to be my father? Why did you have the people from the rehab facility lie to my mom? Clearly you're fine with being a father to these kids..."
"Are you saying you're not happy with your life?" Christopher asked. "It sounds like you have a nice life."
"Yeah, I'm happy, but there've always been times when I wanted my dad," Finn declared. "Why didn't you want me? Is it because I was born in a dark time of your life?"
"I wanted to start a new life after what happened," Christopher said. "My wife and my kids don't even know about you and your mom..."
They didn't even know? Finn now felt even more confused. He tried to think of what to say when the girl from the pictures on the wall came downstairs. "Dad, can you give me a ride to Cassidy's house?" the girl asked. "Mom's at work and Jason's at football practice..."
"Well..." Christopher began.
Finn decided he may as well leave. "Yeah, I'd better get going now." He took a piece of paper and wrote down his number. "Here's my number if you ever want to talk with me." He didn't think he'd get a call. He didn't think that Christopher would have any interest in him. Still, he could hope. He knew his father was alive now, but there were still questions, and he didn't think he'd get any answers. Christopher Hudson sounded almost as if he didn't care about Finn. He had married another woman and had children with her.
Finn got in the car and called his mom. He knew that she had questions as well. Sure enough, Carole picked up the phone. "Hey honey."
"Mom, that was my dad," Finn said. "That man I saw at the diner the other day - he was my dad."
"What?" Carole asked.
"Yeah," Finn said. "He had the treatment facility tell you that he'd died so he could get away from Ohio and get clean and start a new life... and now he's married to another woman and has three kids."
"Finn, how do you know all this?" Carole asked. "I had a feeling that this wasn't real... but how do you know?"
"I looked him up online and went to his house," Finn said. "Please Mom, don't tell me about how it's wrong to go to people's houses... I had to meet him... but he didn't seem to want to meet me..."
"Finn..." Carole began. "So he's still alive? And he had the treatment facility fake his death?"
"Yeah," Finn said. "He sounded almost as if he's sorry he married you and had me. He's got a family with this other woman now... and he lied to us. He could have started over with us."
"Oh, Finn," Carole began. "I'm just so shocked. How could he do this to us?"
"I don't know," Finn said. He honestly wanted to cry right now. "For twenty years, he forced you and me to live a lie... if he wanted a divorce, why didn't he just ask for one?"
"I don't know," Carole said. "What he did wasn't right, and I don't want you to feel bad, Finn... I really wanted him to change, I was hoping that he would get over his drug problem..."
"Well, it definitely seems like he did, but he wanted to forget us in the process," Finn snapped.
"Honey, I'm so sorry," Carole said. "That's why I didn't tell you the story the treatment facility told me... I knew something was off... but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't find him..."
"Don't apologize," Finn said. "You didn't know either..." He didn't know how to feel right now. He'd wanted his dad his whole life... now he'd found his dad, and his dad clearly didn't want him.
"Where's Finn?" Artie asked. Rachel had just gotten home from rehearsal, and everyone was gathered at the three bedroom apartment, waiting for Kitty, Marley and Ryder to arrive. The three recent graduates would be spending a week with the graduates who were already in New York before moving into their dorms. They were due in later today, but Finn wasn't here yet.
"I don't know," Kurt said. "He had some school stuff he had to do today... so maybe that's where he is."
"I'll text him," Rachel said. She wouldn't be able to be here very long since this was one of her performance nights. Still, she wanted to be here when the new arrivals arrived.
The doorbell rang, and Blaine went to buzz the three new graduates in. A few minutes later, Ryder, Marley and Kitty came into the apartment. Kitty came running to Artie's lap, while Ryder and Marley greeted everyone else.
"Hey guys!" Rachel said. "How's it feel to be in New York?"
"We're excited," Ryder said. "It's big."
"Yeah it is, but you'll get used to it," Sam said. "It can be crazy."
"Hey, where's Finn?" Marley asked.
"He had some stuff to do, he'll be back soon," Rachel said. The truth was, she wasn't even sure where Finn was. She just hoped he was okay.
A few minutes later, Finn came into the apartment. He forced a smile as he greeted Ryder, Marley and Kitty, but Rachel could tell that he was upset about something. Had something happened?
"So, we were thinking tomorrow we'd show you guys around New York," Tina said, interrupting Rachel's thoughts. "A ferry ride to the Statue of Liberty, a walk through Central Park, dinner and shopping in Times Square..."
"That sounds great," Marley said.
"Well, not the shopping part," Ryder said.
"You can hang out with the guys while the girls do that," Blaine said. "Sometime soon, you, me, Sam, Artie and Finn can go to a Mets game."
"Yeah, that would be fun," Finn said, trying to smile.
Now Rachel was even more sure something was wrong with Finn. But everyone else was talking, and Finn wasn't saying anything. She could tell that he didn't want to spoil the mood of the new New Yorkers, but still...
"And we can go to Broadway shows while the guys go to sports games," Marley said. "Rachel, do you think you could get us discounted tickets to shows?"
"Yeah, I'm sure I could," Rachel said.
"She always gets us tickets to shows," Mercedes announced. "You guys will love New York."
"I already do," Kitty said, hugging Artie tightly. "Two years without getting to see this guy every day was too many."
"Now I know I made the right choice by sleeping in Mercedes's room while you're here," Sam laughed.
"You can crash in my room while they share," Santana said to Tina.
"Good," Tina laughed.
"I wish I could stay longer, but I do have to get to a show," Rachel said to Marley, Kitty and Ryder. "But I'll hang out with you guys tomorrow."
"Okay, have a good show," Kitty said.
"Thanks," Rachel said, turning to Finn. "Finn, I have a few things that I wanted to ask you about. Mind walking out of the building with me?"
"Sure," Finn said. He turned to their friends. "I'll be back soon."
As Rachel and Finn began walking outside, Rachel turned to Finn. "Honey, are you okay?"
Finn shook his head. "Rachel - that man really was my dad. Today I went to his house... he's married and has three kids... and he had the treatment facility lie to my mom so he could just get away and start a new life... I feel sick, Rach. I can't believe he did that to me, and to my mom... it feels like he doesn't love me..."
Rachel didn't know what to say. At least there weren't lies involved with Shelby. She pulled Finn in for a hug. "I'm so sorry, baby..." She didn't know what to say. She wished she could call off tonight. It was clear Finn was shaken up.
"It hurts, Rach," Finn said. "I just want to know why he did this."
"It doesn't make sense," Rachel admitted.
"No," Finn agreed. "It really doesn't."
Chapter 3 preview: Rachel faces some issues at Funny Girl and the alumni get ready for school to start while helping the three newcomers adjust to New York. But will things get better or worse for Finn and his dad?
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