Nothing Left to Say
Part Two: Resentment of Betrayal
It was a quiet evening under the stars, Irvine stared up at the moonless night. The night time was always a sorrowful comfort to one such as himself. Irvine looked the night time, it brought him the creature comforts nothing else ever could-- except what he felt when he was with Van. He growled when he thought of the 18-year-old GF pilot, pulling the cigarette pack from his pants. "The fucktard is happy now. Not much else to do there." It's the hurt that heals, another scar on Irvine's already scarred heart. He lit the cigarette and leaned backward against the tree. Irvine's eyelid slowly began to close, but he reminded himself to stay awake. Under the dillusion that he'll blink and his already solitairy life would be gone, Irvine reminded himself bitterly that he needed to remain awake. The biting cold nipped at his tan, muscular body, causing his skin to goosebump. Sitting up from his makeshift bed and looked around, Irvine was sadly expecting a spectre from the past to visit him. However, like the rest of the nights in his life... it was cold and lonely. Before he finally let the sleep take him away, Irvine looked at the stars and took the last puff of his cigarette. "Van, if you're listening wherever you are... I hope you choke on your own bullshit."
The Wind Colony was alive with the bussle of the upcoming wedding. The sun was shining overhead, the noonday shadows made everything look so pretty. Van Flyheight rushed down the street when the Gustav arrived with Moonbay behind the wheel. The native-American looking woman got out of the Gustav, smiling up a storm. "Hey, Moonbay. Glad you could make it." "Glad to join you during this happy occassion." "Where's Irvine?" "Oh." Moonbay was hesitant to speak out what had happened, she turned toward the horizon and frowned. "Irvine didn't want to come." "Why?" "Dunno. I saw him at a pub getting drunk and he just left... he said 'there was nothing more to say'." "..." Van let out a sigh of exasperation, then muttered softly. "I do love him." "What?" The brown-haired girl turned to face her GF pilot friend. Van looked up at her with a sad look on his face. "When Irvine and I were seeing each other, I had doubts that I loved Fiona as well. I didn't want to lose Fiona but... I guess.... I ended up hurting Irvine in the process." "You and Irvine were an item?" Moonbay asked, shocked and almost appalled. "B-but.... but you... I thought Irvine said..." "I need to find Irvine!" Van shouted without an explanation, then rushed passed her toward the Blade Liger. "Van!!" Fiona's voice stopped him from going any further, she rushed out of the cathedral, smiling and wearing the dress. "How do I look?" "Y-you look perfect." Van smiled, blushing a bit, but Fiona frowned, she was aware that Van was not happy. "Oh? You don't like the dress? I can get another one made." "No... you look lovely in it." "Then what's the matter? You look so upset..." Fiona put her hands on his shoulders, then yanked them away. "You... you don't love me anymore, do you, Van?" "Fiona, I'm going to be honest with you now. I'm homosexual, me and Irvine were dating each other for a while but I got scared... I wanted to make you happy but I... I ripped Irvine's heart out of his chest and stomped all over it. Irvine's not coming to the wedding because I got scared!" "Y-you... you lied to me??" Fiona found herself feeling her heart crushed in her chest by the man who would have been her husband. "Fiona! I got scared over my own sexual orientation! I wanted to make you happy!" "You lied to me the same way you lied to Irvine!" Fiona shouted, throwing her bouquet down and glaring into Van's eyes. She reeled her hand back and slapped him hard, Van twisted his head back after feeling the impact of the slap. "If you love him that much, go back to him. You backstabbers belong to each other." The zoidian walked off, in tears. Moonbay folded her arms and marched right up to the young man. She shook her head and let out a small sigh. "You really messed up this time, Van." "I know, Moonbay. And I'm sorry." "I'm not the one you're to be saying sorry to. It's Irvine. If you want to catch him, he'll be heading for the last transporter to Smuggler's Glen. You can catch him at Moonbeam Forest. He's usually there for a few days on end." "...thank-you, Moonbay." Van walked to the Blade Liger and jumped in, the orange canopy closed tightly, allowing him to run off. ".... Poor Fiona."
The weather didn't exactly cooperate with Irvine's plans for going to Smuggler's Glen for refuge. Deep within his emotionless violet eyes, Irvine did feel the bitter resentment with being betrayed and heart-broken. The Lightning Saix was still being quarentined for transport by the smugglers of the area. He was going to the one place he felt was home to him. Irvine looked up at the rumbling thunder, he felt the lashing of the wind as it beat down on him and the workers. "Irvine! We need to cover everything up with a tarp!" "Hurry up!" Irvine shouted, looking back at the weather as it worstened. "This storm looks horrible!!" "Go back to the shelter! We'll work from there!" Irvine rushed back to the shelter, opening the door and forcing himself inside. He wiped the rain from his eyepatch and hair, the place was dry and cozy. The small town was only miles away from Smuggler's Glen, Irvine was thankful of getting this far before the storm hit. He lied down on the bed and watched the ceiling as the candlelight flickered with the passing wind. The whipping wind was masking a new visitor's approach.
Irvine turned onto his side, closing his eyes and was soon to fall asleep when there was a pounding on the door. He unhooked the dagger at his belt, Irvine carefully approached the door and opened it. A smaller figure swung into the room with the wind, knocking the candle out and leaving them in perpetual darkness. Looking at the figure, the mercenary recognised the childlike face and red stripe of the man he swore he loved. "Van!? What the fuck!?" Irvine shouted in surprise, standing up with fists clenched. "I thought you were marrying Fiona, you sick, sadistic psychopath!" "I came here to look for you!" Van shouted, Zeke closed the door as he stomped in from the rain and the storm. "So you can drag me to your perfect little ceremony, act all happy, prim and proper while you and Fiona become husband and wife and twist the knife in my chest!? Forget it! Go fuck yourself, Flyheight!" "Me and Fiona are not getting married!" Van shouted, his fists clenched as well, his anger twinged with sorrow. "Why not!? Found someone new to hang onto!?" Irvine twisted away from Van, his teeth clenched, his anger rising as his eyes began to mist over. "No! I left her to find you.... I loved you, Irvine. I still love you!!!" Van was interupted when he was socked in the mouth by Irvine's iron fist. "I cursed the day you said those three words to me." Irvine snarled, a tear fell down his cheek, but he wiped it away and reached for a cigarette. Van wiped his chin with the back of his hand, but his collar was grabbed by a strong hand. With force, Irvine pulled him close to give him a wet, sloppy kiss. Van's eyes widened with shock, but a light blush tinted his cheeks and his eyelids closed softly. He gripped Irvine's dark grey shirt as the brunette mercenary pulled Van's body close to his. Zeke tilted his head to the side, confused. "Errrr?" Pushing Van away, Irvine gathered his gear and lit the cigarette with a match. Van stood up slowly to see what he was going to do next. The brunette walked for the door and touched it with his hand. "Irvine, please... I love you." "Your love is misplaced, Van..." Irvine replied with a sad, sad tone of voice. "....I cannot return the sentiment. Not anymore.... You tore my love for you in two, and that, Flyheight, I can never forgive you for. Go home to Wind Colony, forget about me. It'll be better for the both of us." "I-irvine!!!" Van rushed out of the shelter to see Irvine enter the transport. He ran for it as the large bird zoid took off for Smuggler's Glen. "IRVINE!!!!!"