Rating: Strong T for some language and normal adult behavior
Disclaimer: Chicago PD and its affiliated characters do not belong to me. I mean no copyright infringement. I only use them as a means to de-stress myself.
Summary: A series of one-shots that fill in some "missing moments" from the show. They will all be centered around Burgess and Ruzek. Burzek!
Spoilers: Pretty much any Burgess/Ruzek moments throughout the series.
Note: This chapter takes place right from the epic Burzek moment of the season 1 finale.
Chapter 1 – Friends
There were a million reasons for Adam not to knock on the door in front of him. They were colleagues. She wanted to get into Intelligence and Voight would never let that happen if they were together. He and Wendy had just broken up. The list went on and on in his hand. On the other hand, there were a million reasons why he should knock on the door. She was beautiful, smart, and funny. She understood him better than Wendy ever did. He wanted her. That was the most compelling reason.
Adam paced in the unfamiliar hallway, trying to decide what the right thing to do would be. Scratch that. He knew what the right thing was. He just didn't want to do it. He felt like he had a devil and an angel in his head and the devil was winning.
Finally making a decision, Adam took a deep breath and knocked. He turned away from the door, taking another deep breath. When the door opened and he turned and saw her standing before him, all of his worries washed away. He knew he had made the right choice.
"Adam, hey," she said.
"Hey. I um…came here to apologize to you," he said, trying to make it sound like standing outside her door was no big deal.
"So…ah…I'm sorry," he said. He realized he should have thought more about what he was going to say. He felt like he wasn't making any sense. "You're a really good cop and you are going to get your shot again soon."
"You came all the way here just to tell me that?" She asked.
He knew she was beginning to see that he had an ulterior motive. He just couldn't tell if she was happy about it or if he was way off base with what he wanted to happen next.
"I like you," he admitted. "I know you know that. And I miss you."
As he spoke, the only thing he could think of was that he wanted to feel her lips against his again. He had wanted that since the first time she had kissed him outside of Molly's. He wanted to inhale her scent and run his fingertips over her bare skin. He wanted to know what spots on her body made her moan and what made her squirm. He wanted to wake up next to her and find out how she liked her eggs. When she stepped into the hallway and kissed him, every thought left his mind. He just focused on her. She hopped up, straddling him with her legs. He stepped into the apartment with her, closing the door behind them. Their lips and tongues never stopped dueling. Adam walked blindly through Kim's apartment, unsure of where he was going.
"Bedroom," Kim whimpered, pointing to the last room on the right. Adam didn't need be told twice. He carried her into the bedroom. Next to the bed, he lowered her down and she stood in front of him. She practically ripped his shirt off, begging to get her hands on him. Adam found the hem of her red shirt, grabbed it, and pulled the fabric over her head. He dropped it on the floor. Adam kissed her and they tumbled onto the bed together.
The next morning, Adam awoke to the sound of a shower running. He blinked a few times, trying to make sense of his surroundings. Finally he remembered that he wasn't at home. He was in her apartment. He sat up and glanced into the bathroom. The door was slightly ajar. He could hear Kim humming in the shower. He smiled, listening to her hum. He wondered if she always hummed in the shower or if she just happened to be extremely happy.
Adam looked over the edge of the bed and saw his shirt and pants haphazardly thrown on the floor. He reached over and pulled on his boxers and pants. As he picked up his shirt, he heard the shower turn off. Kim appeared moments later, wrapped in a towel.
"Hey," she said.
"Sneaking out?" She asked.
"No. I wouldn't do that. I was just…"
"I was kidding," she replied with a smile.
Kim hugged her towel closer to her body, suddenly feeling a little self-conscious. It was one thing to be naked in front of a man in the dark in the heat of passion, but another to be naked after getting out of the shower in daylight.
"Kim…" Adam began.
"Look, last night was…" she interrupted.
"Amazing," he filled in.
"Amazing," she agreed. "And I like you, but…this isn't a good idea, Adam."
Adam was a little surprised at her statement. He thought they were on the same page with what happened. After all, she had stepped into the hallway and kissed him first.
"What do you mean?"
"You're just getting out of a relationship. A relationship that I'm partially responsible for breaking up."
"That's not true."
"Adam…" she said, giving him a look.
"You had nothing to do with Wendy and me breaking up. We were done a long time ago even if we weren't willing to admit it."
"But if it weren't for me..." she began.
"It's not just Wendy." She paused. "Adam, I got passed over for a promotion because Voight thought I was sleeping with you to work my way to the top. To start sleeping with you now, it just…"
"Voight will come around. He knows how good you are," Adam assured her. He stepped closer to her, but she took a step back. She was afraid that if she let him get too close, she would just let what happened the night before happen again.
"We can't do this, Adam. I've worked too hard for where I am and where I want to be in my career. I'm sorry."
Adam knew, on some level, that she was right. But that didn't mean he didn't still want her.
"You don't have to be sorry. You're right. I shouldn't have come here last night," he said even though he didn't really mean it.
"That's not what I'm saying. I don't…regret last night. I just…I think we're better off as friends."
He nodded. "Ok."
"Friends," he repeated as if he was trying to get used to the words.
"I guess I'll see you around then."
"Yeah," he said, putting his shirt on. He headed for the bedroom door.
"Adam…" He turned to look at her. "I'm sorry."
"Yeah, me too."
Before she could say another word, he was gone.
It was hours after her shift had ended that Kim found herself sitting in her car, playing the scenario from that morning over and over again in her mind. She had been thinking about what she was going to say all day. She just had to work up the nerve to actually say it. She knew all the reasons why she shouldn't get out of her car and walk up to his front door. But she also knew that there were many reasons why she should get out of the car.
Taking a deep breath, Kim opened the car door, walked up the path that led to his house, and knocked on the front door. When Adam answered the door, he was holding a beer.
"Hey," he said.
"Hey," she replied.
"What…are you doing here?"
"I…I wanted to talk to you," she answered.
"Ok. Do you want to come in?"
She shook her head. "No. I mean, yes. I mean, I can't come in until I say what I have to say."
She took a deep breath. "I know what I said this morning. I know I told you it would be better if we were friends."
"Yeah, I remember that."
"But I can't do just friends. I mean, the fact is, you and I have never really been able to do just friends even when we were just friends. I don't know where this…relationship is going or where it could go. I don't even know if I'll ever get promoted into Intelligence. But, what I do know is that I couldn't stop thinking about you all day. I haven't been able to stop thinking about you since that kiss in the parking lot. And I know that I haven't felt what I felt with you last night with anybody else."
"Let me finish," she said, needing to get it all out. It would be very easy to just fall into his arms and let herself succumb to the chemistry they had, but she couldn't do that. She had to be strong. "Last night was amazing. I woke up this morning happier than I've ever been, but I can't do casual sex. And I can't do the whole friends with benefits thing. That's just not me. I can't not…feel. So I'm standing here, telling you that if you want to see where this goes, if you want to start a relationship with me, then invite me in. And if you don't…if you're not ready for a relationship or if you don't like me like that or if you don't think this can go anywhere, then I'll leave. I'll turn around and get back in my car and we can really just be friends. So it's up to you."
Kin finally stopped talking. She had said all she needed to say. She brushed a tear away from her cheek. She didn't want to cry. She wasn't ready to show that side of herself just yet, but she couldn't help it.
"Is it my turn now?" Adam asked after a slight pause.
"When you told me this morning that you wanted to be just friends…it was devastating. I don't want to just be your friend, Kim. I want to see where this goes. I want to build a relationship with you." He paused. "So please, won't you come in?"
She smiled and he put out his hand. She slipped her hand into his and he pulled her into the house. Her body pressed against his. He found her lips and kissed her. She immediately felt heat radiating through her body. She wanted him more than she had ever wanted anybody and judging by his physical reaction to her, he wanted her too. He shut the front door.
"Wait…" she whispered.
Adam reluctantly stepped away from her, but didn't take his hands off her waist.
"Are you going to over-analyze this arrangement again, Burgess?" He questioned with a smile.
"This has to stay between us," she stated. "We can't tell Voight or anybody for that matter. It has to be our secret."
"Our secret, huh?" He asked, kissing her neck. "When you say it like that, it sounds very sexy."
"Oh yeah?" She moaned. He pinned her body against the door. "So, do we have a deal?"
"If I say yes, do I get to keep kissing you?"
"Then hell yes, we have a deal. It'll be our little secret."
He kissed her hard and fast, unable to get enough of her. She responded with equal enthusiasm. Her hand roamed up and down her back as she tickled the skin at the nape of his neck. Adam began walking backwards with her, leading her down the hall. Halfway to his bedroom, Adam scooped her up, practically throwing her over his shoulder. She squealed and he playfully whacked her butt. He brought her to the bedroom and laid her out on the bed. He took one quick look at her, licked his lips, and jumped on top of her, kissing her like he had never kissed anyone before.
Author's Note: First of all, thank you so much for reading! I hope everyone enjoyed this first chapter. There's many more to come! I debated on where I wanted to start this story (because I know there are plenty of missing moments before the season 1 finale between these two), but it just felt right to start the story here. Right now I'm planning about 10 chapters. Please don't forget to comment – they make my day!