" Buffy had spent the better part of 3 hours pacing. Xander was no where to be seen and she was going through all the scenarios in her head. She muttered under her breath "I swear Xander if you aren't dead I'm going to kill you myself." Just than she heard a loud thud coming from the back deck.

Buffy turned and ran to the deck wanting to explore the sound. As she ran out the door she didn't see the large deer carcass and tripped over it. She fell on top of the animal staring it in the face. As she came crashing down she looked the animal in the face and did the only thing that felt natural. "AHHHJHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

Xander stood over her shaking his head. "Really? You kill the things that go bump in the night but this is what scares you."

Buffy jumped up and off the deer. "Oh my God Xander. What the hell? Where the hell did you go?"

"I found some woods close by and went hunting."

"Xander we have food here. It might not be stuff I'd stock my cupboard with but."

He shook head. "Angel needs blood. I thought this would be better than him feeding on either of us."

"Wow you actually did something nice for Angel?"

Xander ignored the comment. "Do you think it will work? I mean I know it's not pigs blood."

Buffy shrugged "I think it should but come on lets pick up Bambi and haul it to him in the garage so he can eat."

"Really I carried this whole thing on my back through the woods but you cant drag it a little further."

Buffy rolled her eyes. "Just grab some hooves."

They opened the back of the garage door. Angel could hear them coming and moved aside out of the path of the sunlight as the door opened. As they closed the door Angel flipped the light switch. "What is with the dead deer?"

Xander catching his breath he looked at Angel. "You need blood and this thing is just bloodapalooza"

Buffy smiled at Angel. "I mean I know it's not your usual flavor and probably a little gamey but it should work right."

Angel stood over the animal and nodded. "It's fine." He looked at them. "Thank you. Both of you."

Buffy sighed. "Xander did 98 percent of it."

Xander shook his head "It's not a big deal."

Angel looked at them. "Now I'm going to eat but do you think you 2 could."

Buffy grabbed Xander's arm pulling him towards the door. "Yeah we are out."

Xander followed Buffy out to the back yard. "I need to clean up. "

Buffy grabbed him and turned him around "First off we need to talk. You can't just take off with out telling me where you are going."

"I know it was stupid but I needed to deal. Angel needed blood. I thought maybe two birds one stone."

"Really cause I thought it was 1 deer and a shotgun. Hey when did you become Mister call of the wild?"

"The hunting thing. Not a big deal. Don't get me wrong I don't know a lot about it but I gave it a chance."

"Well thank you."

"On that note I need to get a shower"

Xander grabbed a towel and clothes. The shower felt so incredible. The soothing warm water could help him to forget that he was supposed to be some future savior of the world.

Down stairs Buffy was sitting on the couch and watching television. It was the down time that drove her nuts. She wanted to talk to her mom. She wanted to know she was okay. She wanted to consult with Giles. That couldn't happen right now though.

Angel came in to the house careful to stay in to the shadows. Buffy quickly jumped up closing the curtains. "Thank you Buffy."

Buffy looked up at him. "How was the deer?"

"I'm good now. After the sun goes down I'll take what is left and bury it."

"Probably a good idea. I can't imagine it's the kind of thing Cordy wants to walk in on."

"Any word from Willow?"

Buffy shook her head. "She's Willow though. If she is anything she is reliable. If she says she can help."

Angel nodded and put his hands up. "I get it."

Xander came down the steps buttoning his shirt. The clothes were once again from Cordy's dad. He pulled on some blue jeans he was able to make fit with a belt and a simple red button up shirt. Xander had picked up most of the conversation. "I get the patience thing. I know we have to give her time. I just hate that every second we are here."

Angel cut him off. "The Terminator is out there. We don't know what he is doing? Who he is hurting?"

Buffy pointed to the television. "As far as the world knows Xander and I are missing people. The police are treating Sunnydale like a warzone. "

Angel nodded, "Things won't change until they know The Terminator is put down once and for all."

Xander ran his hands through the back of his head. "We aren't hearing anything about mass shootings. So no news is good news, right?"

Buffy let go of a breath. "I hope so."

Xander sighed and started pacing. "Okay so the battle plan is we wait on Willow to hand deliver us some sort of miracle."

Angel continued. "From there we stroll on in to the highly guarded military compound and borrow a few weapons. We track down the Terminator."

Xander sighed rubbing his eyes. "While I'm all for the idea of switching from defense to offense do we even have clue one how to find this guy."

Buffy shook her head. "For right now we keep one task at a time and today task is waiting for Willow."

Angel sighed and paced. "Right now we got about 2 hours till sundown. Once I can go outside I am going to take the remains of the deer and dispose of it."

So the three of them waited to hear from Willow. When the 24 hours expired and there was no word they waited. At 36 hours Angel was the first to say it. He wanted to start making plans with past what ever Willow was working on. Buffy and Xander knew they just needed to have faith in Willow that she would pull a miracle out of her ass.

At hour 56 they still hadn't heard anything. As much as Xander loved Willow he had to admit maybe Angel was right. What if Willow couldn't finish what she was working on cause the Terminator found her. Xander looked at Buffy. "I wish she would call again."

Buffy ran her fingers through her hair. "Xander it was a risk for her to call in the first place. She has to be careful."

"I know Buffy and it makes sense but."

"I understand. Trust me I'm in the same place." Buffy looked out the window unsure. "What do we do?'

Xander shook his head. "Well we couldn't do anything right now if we wanted too. With the sun up we aren't traveling until Angel can go."

Angel was standing in the doorway. "Not entirely true. I got a cargo van and blanket. You drive and let me worry about the sunlight."

Buffy looked at Xander waiting to hear what the next step in the plan was. It was strange all of a sudden being the leader. It wasn't something he was used to. He felt unsure and any choice he made could lead to people getting killed. Than again not choosing wasn't an options. Xander scratched the back of his head. "We rest for the next few hours. If Willow has a miracle ready than it better happen soon. "

Angel sighed not sure it was smart. "We are sticking with the plan of sneaking on to a military base."

Xander nodded. "We are going to need speed. I don't want us to be there more than 10 minutes?"

Buffy looked at Xander trying to be delicate. "If you want speed Xander maybe Angel and "

Before she could finish Xander cut her off. "Trust me Buffy I wish I could send you two instead. My problem is that I know what we need and I know how to find it fast. I know the weapons catalog index and it's not something I can tell you. It is in my head."

Angel looked at him. "What is the lay out of this place?"

Xander looked around and grabbed some paper and pen. To the best of his ability he drew out the military compound. He showed them where the weapons armory was.

Angel shook his head, "Where we are hopping the fence is kind of far from the armory. Wouldn't it make more sense"

Xander cut him off "The weakest security point is right here. You have bad camera angles, not a lot of guard coverage. "

Angel pointed to the fence on the crude drawing. "Once we are over the fence how do we move with out the cameras seeing us?"

Xander thought for a second trying to come up with something. "I am not sure."

Angel looked stunned. "What do you mean you aren't sure? This is your plan?"

"I DON"T KNOW ANGEL. I am trying. I'm not." He paced looking down. "Jesus it was just a stupid costume. I wish I never put it on. I'm not this super soldier. I don't " He sucked in a breath. "I don't know. I can look and I can try and I can see every angle but I don't know."

Buffy stepped to Xander. "It's okay Xander."

Xander shook his head "No it isn't I'm not this guy. I am the guy who gets donuts. I'm not the savior of the world. I'm not" He looked angry and flipped the table over. "I never wanted any of this." With that he went out the front door. Buffy went to follow but Angel put his hand on her shoulder. "Give him a moment."

Xander went to the corner of the front porch and just sat. He felt the breeze on his face. He felt like the world was spinning faster and faster. He just muttered to himself. "I don't' want any of this."

Buffy gave him an hour and found him in the same corner. She walked over and sat next to him. She looked out at the beach. "I know what it is you are feeling." Xander didn't respond. Buffy just reached down taking his hand. "When I was told I was called to be the slayer I ran the emotional spectrum. I was angry. Why did I have to get sacked with this huge burden when all of my friends were shopping and dating and going to parties."

"Buffy you don't have to."

"I was scared. I was afraid. Afraid of what could happen to me. I didn't want to die at the hands of some vampire. If I am honest though, that wasn't what I was most afraid of. I didn't want other people to die cause I wasn't good enough."

"I'm not good enough Buffy. People are going to die."

"Xander you are right. People are going to die. It sucks and no matter how good you are. No matter how much you fight or claw there are always casualties. I'd tell you those casualties don't hurt but that is a lie. They hack away at you and you carry them with you forever."

"If this is your idea of picking me up, you kind of suck at it."

"You didn't let me finish. You might make the wrong choice but doing nothing isn't an option. If you do nothing people will die. So I'm putting my chips on you Xander."

Xander turned and looked at her. "I'm sorry about what I did in there."

"You are allowed an outburst."

He smirked. "Did I damage the table? God I can't imagine how much that thing cost."

Buffy laughed, "I think the table will be fine."

Xander stood up hearing a vehicle approaching. "Someone's coming. Let's get inside."

They pulled the curtains and saw a white fed ex truck. Angel looked confused and whispered. "You think it's something Cordy's family ordered."

Buffy shook her head and whispered. "It's the office season why would they have anything sent here."

There was a quick knock at the door. Xander sighed with out saying anything he crossed the room.

Buffy whispered "Xander it could be a trap?"

Xander turned the knob and opened the door. "Can I help you?"

The man looked at him. "I have a package for J. Connor."

Xander cleared his throat. "Does it say who it's from?"

The man read the list. "Y. Crayon."

Xander quickly grabbed the box bringing it in the house. "Thank you."

"I need your signature."

Xander grabbed the tablet quickly scribbling J Connor "Thank you."

He waited until the driver was gone. Buffy, Angel and Xander looked down at the box nervous. Angel was the first to ask. "Who is Y. Crayon?"

Xander went in to the kitchen getting a knife to cut the tape on the box. "It is a nick name for Willow." He cut open the box and slowly pulled open the flaps on top of the contents was an envelope. Xander grabbed it quickly and opened it . He read it out loud.

"Hey Guys. I'm sorry I know by the time you get this the 24 hours will have passed. Fort Mason was a harder egg to crack than I first thought. I hope this box gets to you before you left. It took some work but I was able to access the main frame at Fort Mason. Inside the box you will find all the identification a soldier would be required to carry to get on base. I had to take my best guess at your sizes. The uniforms are regulation and should help you to blend in. "

Buffy quickly reached in the box pulling out the camo colored clothes. "It's not exactly Gucci.

Xander just rolled his eyes and kept reading. "The weapons armory is highly guarded. I have given you a 15-minute window where the guards will be pulled from the armory don't waste that time. Attached to the back of the itinerary, follow it to the second. I wish could be there with you guys. I miss all of you. End this once and for all so we can come home and go back to school. Please be safe. Love.

Willow Rosenberg

Xander looked through the box finding the lanyards and badges. Willow had used photos from her purse and wallet and put them on military id badges. He looked at Buffy. "You are Private 2nd class Erica Paulson." Buffy smiled looking at the badge.

"Hey I'm a private and a second class one." She looked at Xander "What about you?"

He held up the badge. "You are looking at Private first class Brian Anderson."

Buffy snapped his badge. "Why do you get to outrank me?"

Xander rolled his eyes "Because if we get questioned they will go to the highest ranking officer. You know nothing about military code or law."

Angel looked at Xander "What about me."

Xander tossed him his badge. Angel examined it. "Private Tanner Davidson." As Xander looked through the box he took out each uniform. Xander handed Buffy her uniform and Angel his. "Lets try them on make sure they fit."

All of them went to there separate rooms in the house. Buffy was the first to come out. "Willow actually did pretty good at guessing my size." Angel was the next one out.

"Well this is okay but the pants are going to need hemmed."

Xander came out last. "I'll see you hemmed pants and raise you a loose patches."

Buffy looked at them thinking it wasn't a big deal. "Maybe they won't notice."

Xander shook his head. "Buffy this is the military. The hem has to be one correctly to the quarter inch." He looked at her "I don't know how to sew but maybe."

Buffy looked offended. "What? I am a girl so I must know how to sew?" Xander threw his arms up. "I don't know how to do it."

Buffy rolled her eyes. "Great so were screwed."

Angel shook his head "Calm down we aren't screwed."

Xander suddenly looked at him smirking. "You know how to sew Angel?"

Angel shook his head. "Look I have lived 200 years and in that time I have picked up certain skills."

Xander just nodded. "Awesome. So you can fix these up?"

Angel glared at him. "The first crack or joke you make I swear I'll turn around and leave you here to figure it out on your own."

Buffy looked at Angel a little lost for words. "So you know how to sew. Maybe when all of this is done you can help me out with a few pieces of my wardrobe."

Angel shook his head and just rubbed his eyes. "Really?"

Buffy shrugged. "Slaying isn't really wardrobe friendly. Do you know how many rips and tears I've had over the last few years."