Safe With Me


"Sam, I can't. I just can't." I was sitting on our bed crying.

"Bella, today is a big day for Holland. Hold it together mama."

"How can she be graduating high school already? She was just born." I cried harder.

"I know babe." There was a knock on the door.

"Mom!" a booming voice came through the door, our son Tyee Samuel, 16 and taller than his father.

"What is it Tyee?" Sam answered.

"I need mom's help with the tie."

"Mom's getting in the shower, relax. There's plenty of time." Sam shouted through the door.

"Dad! Beth is going to be here any minute."

"For the last time Ty, Beth is too old. She and your sister are going away to Loyola. Give it up." He chuckled.

Tyee stomped away and I giggled.

"There's my girl. Go shower, you'll feel better." Sam kissed my forehead.

"Join me?" I asked.

"We're about to have a house full of teens." He groaned.

"I'll be quiet." I whispered as I nibbled on his ear.

2 years later…

"Damn it Ty! Seriously. I thought we taught you better?" I yelled as I paced back and forth in front of him and his girlfriend of six months who just told me they were pregnant and a few months from graduation.

"It was one-time mom! I forgot a condom."

"Obviously that's all it takes! Aren't you on the pill Gina?" I asked.

"Yes ma'am, but I forget to take it sometimes." She shrugged and I groaned. Where the fuck was Sam?

"What did your parents say?"

"I've got a week to get my stuff out of the house. They've kicked me out since I'm already 18."

"Wait, what?" I looked at them.

"Since when?"

"I'll be 19 in a few weeks. I failed last year." She shrugged.

"So, you've been fucking my son who's a minor?" I asked.

"Yeah. He knew."

"Where did you go to school last year, because it wasn't here. I know all the kids." And I did, I was a substitute in my free time from writing.

"Port Angeles, we moved here because of problems."

"OK. This is what's going to happen. I'm going to put you up in a room until you have my grandchild, you're obviously NOT ready to take care of a child, Ty is going to college. We'll take care of the baby, you'll go off and do what you do. If you're around you can visit, if not. So be it." I shrugged.

"Deal." She shrugged. Tyee looked like he'd won the lottery.

"No fucking in my house and if I catch you skipping school or doing anything illegal while pregnant, I'll have you arrested, you'll have a jail baby and then sign it over to us once it's born."

"OK." She wasn't fazed at all.

Again, where was Sam, I needed a release.

"Go, just go."

5 years later

"We're you like this when I started school mom?" Tyee asked.

"Yes." I dabbed at my eyes, as he wiped at his watching Samantha or Sam for short get settled in.

"Thanks for all your help over the years mom. I don't know what I would've done without you."

"Well, if I wouldn't have had you and Samantha to help me through your dad's sudden death, I don't know what I would've done. Poor Holland was bogged down with finals, I felt horrible putting that on her. How she managed to pass…" I had to stop and take a breath. Gina had skipped out after the birth, we haven't heard from her, neither have her parents, but they came to visit occasionally.

Sam had been in an accident on the highway on the way home, a logging trucks straps had broken and logs spilled all over the road, Sam swerved and as he did another car was swerving too and they collided head on, killing them both.

We had ten good years together, he gave me my life back. A beautiful son who looked and cared like he did. Tyee and Samantha lived with me so Tyee could finish medical school and not have to worry about sitters and disrupting Sam's schedule. I was there for her.

Holland went on to be a lawyer, she started her own firm with her share of her dad's money from the accident and specialized in Domestic Violence victims. She did a lot of pro-bono work.

I couldn't be more proud of how my children turned out and how my life turned out.

I found love, even if it was short lived, it lasted a lifetime in my heart, I never longed for another.

Alice and James continued to help women and I dedicated money to their cause and saw them when they were in town.

Emmett and Rose were happy, Emmett had retired and now coached college football. They had two adopted children, they were now grown and on their own, they were expecting their first grandchild and Rose was thrilled, even having a nursery in her house.

Laurie had tried to contact me when she got out of jail and I told her politely to please leave me be, I'd thanked her for being kind at the end, but there was too much and I didn't want any of those memories to cloud my happy ones. She said she understood and thanked me for putting the others away and wanted to let me know Jasper had died in jail, he'd been stabbed. I didn't reply. I let a single tear slip away, knowing that was too quick of a death for him.

Sighing, I looked at my family and smiled.

We still had memories to make and I would continue to make them as long as I could.