Title: The Insane Mind of Firediva0

Rating: Varies from T to M.

Summary: This is a book of Drabbles of anything and everything in the HP fandom. Here you'll be enraptured by emotions so pure and so ugly that it will leave a lasting impression on your heart. I don't expect you to read all of them, nor do I want you to. Browse through them and find ones that call to your soul. The pairings will sometimes be so outrageous that you may just weep for my sanity, and other times they will be familiar and bring a smile upon your face.

This collection is not for the faint of heart. Now...are you ready to see what lurks in Firediva0's mind?

Disclaimer: I don't own the HP series, and should you lose your mind don't say I didn't warn you. If i'm sued for any mental damage done to your person, know that you will lose viciously and cruelly because it's not my problem. This is my last warning. Turn back now if you can't handle both the cruel and happy parts of life.

Drabble #1: Harry/Charlie

Emotions: Angst and Affection.

~Harry POV~

Sometimes the pain is so intense that it overwhelms me. It feels like a thousand needles to my heart and no matter how much I feel like screaming to let someone- anyone know of my pain, I don't.

I know I should, and I know that my friends are worried for me, but I just can't. It's my fault that Sirius is dead, and my fault that my parents are as well. This pain is nothing compared to the pain they no doubt went through when they lost their lives, so I have no right to complain.

If anything the pain should triple, and I should be on the floor taking it like the worthless piece of shit I am. I don't deserve to be rid of the pain nor do I deserve to have anyone care, but they do and it drives me insane.

Sometimes when the headquarters of the Order of the Phoenix is dark and everyone's asleep, I let the tears fall. They aren't tears of physical pain, but instead ones of emotional pain.

I loathe that I do it because I know that I shouldn't be. Freaks like me deserve nothing but pain, and it is on that account that Uncle Vernon was right.

I am a freak, and it's about time that I accept it.

I bring pain and death to all those around me, and sometimes I wish I could kill myself. Not only to take away the pain, but also to relieve the burden from all of those who care. Sometimes, I wonder why people care about me. After all, i'm nothing but vermin and should just die yet whenever I even entertain the idea of killing myself, I picture all of those who care.

Ron, Hermione, Luna, Draco, Neville, Fred, George, Dumbledore, the Weasley's, and most of all Charlie.

I couldn't do that to any of them much less Charlie. He is my rock, and keeps me as emotionally stable that someone as broken as me can get.

He cares for me, and puts up with my crap. Everytime I have a breakdown and scream and yell at everyone, Charlie would just hold me and take all of the punches that I would land on his chest.

He would be the one to gently wipe away my tears and rock me all the while whispering sweet nothings into my ears until I calmed down.

When I would exhaust myself trying to figure out how the hell I would kill Voldemort, Charlie would whisk me towards Ron and my room and stay with me to ensure that I wasn't going to be a prat and just get right back up.

When I think about ending my life, his blue eyes would appear in my minds eye, and i'd just be even more disgusted with myself.

How could I even think about something that would put Charlie in so much pain? This isn't just my life anymore. I belong to him whether he knows it or not.

My heart, mind, and soul aren't my own. It's his to command and if I have to live with this pain for the rest of my life, then so be it.

I'll be his protector even if that means I have to protect him from myself.

I love you, Charlie Weasley and I won't ever let you get hurt because of me.

AN: This isn't my best, nor is this my worst. However, i'm getting back into the swing of writing more and more so it's gonna take a couple tries to completely get into it.

I'm sure you have noticed this is rather short, but that's because i'd like to expand on it later. Whether by a short Multi-chap of about 10 chapters or a long one of over 45 chapters is up to you guys. Don't be afraid to ever tell me when you like a drabble a lot and want to see more of it. I'd happily do some more if you think it's a good premise.

Written for:

The Thunderbolt Set in the Black Market sold by Liza in the Ultimate Battle Competition over in the HPFC forum headed by SiriusMauraderFan and Angelo Della Mangolia.

The Quidditch Pitch in The Howarts Houses Challenges Forum headed by the the lovely Clairebear1982 and Little. Miss. Xanda : (Song) Bring Me To Life by Evanescence

Potions Assignment Number 3 taught by the awesome Kayleighjo312 in The Hogwarts School of Witchcraft &Wizadry (Challenges & Assignments Forum) Headed by the lovely Screaming Faeries