Episode 10- UP IN THE AIR
Cassie is tired. Every day in the passing week she couldn't fall asleep properly- Every time she closes her eyes strange dreams would show up in her mind, she can't escape them.
It was a hot summer, and even hooter day when she was sitting in the sofa watching some kid's shows without any real interest, her eyes slowly starting to close from sleep deprivation.
Diana watched her from the living room where she worked on her computer, she was worried. Cassie barley ate, she didn't want to go outside or even talk to Adam or her – she would just sit in the sofa, passing out time until a new day is arriving.
Cassie looked at her with a frown on her face, "Diana?"
"Maybe you can take a nap for a little while, you look tired"
"I'M NOT TIRED, everything is A OKAY!" she said to the older girl
"Talk to me, maybe I can help"
"Okay, I will talk to you, maybe you can fix my emptiness or the feeling of meaningless I feel every day, I can't understand why everything happens the way it does and what is the point of just existing in this world. You see, I have this dream where everything is perfect and I can start my life over again, I'm happy and you and Adam are happy, I get to fix all of my mistakes and to feel loved from the people closes to me every single day but I still fill like something is missing, like even after all those gifts there is a black hole inside me that takes everything away at the end.
Just before waking up I can feel my hands and legs disappear, my vision is blurry and I can't make a sound. So tell me dear Diana, can you help?"
Diana couldn't speak. She felt that there aren't any words for this moment. She remembered herself at a young age running outside in her grandmother's house, watching the dog play and the grass moving in the wind, the touch of the sun on her skin, for her it was enough to feel the happiest girl on the planet. "Child", her grandmother would say, "you have the light inside you, keep it my love and it will be yours forever."
"Darkness", she whispered.
Cassie looked at her, "what did you say?"
"Darkness is spreading inside you, it didn't work"
"Diana wait a sec - -"
"We failed you Cassie, it didn't work"
Adam came home with a big smile on his face.
"It's pizza night guys!"
He notice the look in their faces- "what's going on?"
Cassie didn't know what to say, she didn't have the power to open her moth and speak, Diana looked at him with a pale face –
"I can't fix it, we can't fix it – we failed".