A/N: I feel like the title of these one shots is pretty self-explanatory, but basically, it's going to be a series of one-shot song fics about Rucas. I have about a million songs I want to do. Some happy, some sad, some with dialogue, some just introspective. All will revolve around Riley and Lucas. I wasn't sure where to even begin with this since I've been wanting to do these one shots FOREVER, so I decided to let fate decide. I pulled up my favorite Pandora station and decided I was going to write the first one based off of the first song that started playing. Well, the first song was Passenger's "Let Her Go (Acoustic)". It's basically Lucas's POV post-Texas (I did NOT include anything about the triangle or Maya in it, so it's a little bit of an AU). Also, I did write this pretty quickly (hence the whole one-shot thing, I guess), so I'm sorry if it doesn't make much sense or has typos or anything like that. I did re-read it. I hope you guys like them.


"Let Her Go"

Song by: Passenger

/Well you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go/

'Sister.' Lucas still couldn't wrap his mind around the idea. Riley Matthews. The Riley Matthews saw him as a brother and wanted him to see her as a sister. Siblings? Was that what she really saw them as? She had insisted that's what they were—what they are. He tried to talk to her about it—tried to figure out where it all came from. Ever since he met Riley, he had considered her to be a lot of things…a sister certainly wasn't one of them.

/Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go/

When she tried to explain it to him, a lot of what she said made sense. She wanted him around. She didn't want to just date for a little while, and then break up. She wanted to make sure that they were always in each other's lives. He had to admit that she had a point. He wanted those exact same things. He never considered the possibility of her not being in his life. If they dated—if they broke up—there was a very real chance that their friendship wouldn't be the same. It wasn't that Lucas doubted their friendship. He just saw people all around him date, then break up, and never speak again. It was the last thing he wanted with Riley. If that meant giving up on something that never really got started, then maybe Riley was right…maybe it all was for the best.

/Staring at the bottom of your glass

Hoping one day you'll make a dream last

But dreams come slow and they go so fast/

Lucas thought that would give him some peace—the idea of sacrificing a romantic relationship with her in order to ensure their friendship would last. After all, he wasn't lying when he told her that he wasn't sure if he would have survived in New York without her. He missed Texas so much when he first moved to New York that he had actually considered running away more than once. He missed his friends. He missed his family. He thought for sure he wouldn't meet anyone in the city that wouldn't make him miss home. Then he met her.

/You see her when you close your eyes

Maybe one day you'll understand why

Everything you touch surely dies/

She was unlike anyone he had ever met. How can anyone accurately describe Riley Matthews? Lucas knew in an instant that she was beautiful. He quickly learned in class that she was smart and witty. He learned even quicker that she was simply one of a kind. All of those qualities were what made Riley—well, Riley—but there was something else that completely drew him in. She was kind-caring. She had the biggest heart of anyone he had ever met. She genuinely cared about people, and not just her friends. She went out of her way to give whatever money she had to homeless people on the street. She greeted everyone she met with a smile. Whenever she saw someone eating alone in the cafeteria, she would sit with them and strike up a conversation about anything and everything. She always saw the best in people. She saw the best in him. Even after she found out about his past, Riley still cared about him. The thought that she could see him as this thug who only knew how to resolve conflict with his fists really concerned him. It was why he kept his secret from her. He loved how she saw him.

/But you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go/

Now she saw him differently. She didn't see him as a thug, as someone to be afraid of. Instead, she saw him as a brother. Lucas frowned at the mere thought of it. He completely understood and agreed with her reasons for why she thought their relationship had evolved into what she determined it was, but if he agreed with her reasons, why was he having such a difficult time accepting it in his heart?

/Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go/

She didn't give him much room to disagree, to explain that he wasn't sure that was what they were. At first, he simply thought that maybe she just needed more time to figure out her feelings—to wait a little longer before they decided to date. Surely she knew by now how he felt about her. He was fairly certain the whole school knew how he felt. At the very least, his history class knew. He couldn't help but to glance at her every chance he got.

After she told him what they were, he felt like a wall had been put up in between them. That was one of the most unsettling things about this whole situation. Riley Matthews, who never seemed to be guarded around anyone, was shutting him out. Sure, they still talked—perhaps more than they did before, but their conversations weren't deep. They didn't talk about their beliefs or dreams. They talked about school and the weather. He thought that maybe she just needed some time to sort out everything—then they would be back to normal. It wasn't until she abruptly decided to go out with Charlie Gardner that Lucas knew that the situation he found himself in was very real.

/Staring at the ceiling in the dark

Same old empty feeling in your heart

Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast/

Charlie was ok, Lucas figured, but he thought Riley deserved so much better. She deserved someone who knew that she loved to eat chocolate with her popcorn—not licorice. She needed to be with someone who knew that she wasn't a fan of horror movies—someone who knew that she enjoyed romantic comedies, musicals, and old black and white films. She should be with someone who knew how to make her laugh. 'Oh, that laugh,' Lucas smiled at the thought of it. When Riley laughed, it seemed to be completely contagious. You couldn't help but laugh right along with her. And her smile. She deserved to be with someone who always wanted to make her smile. Riley deserved someone who would do everything to give her the world.

/Well you see her when you fall asleep

But never to touch and never to keep

Cause you loved her too much and you dived too deep/

Lucas slowly got out of bed. It was a new day—a new world. He had to get to school. The last thing he wanted was to be late to Mr. Matthews' class. As he began to get ready, his thoughts wandered back to the brunette. If he was honest with himself, most of his thoughts lately had been about her. Something about this whole thing just wasn't right. Things hadn't been right between them ever since that night in Texas.

/Well you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go/

Lucas paused as everything came crashing back to him: every look, every conversation, every unspoken moment between them. He knew exactly how he felt about Riley. Sure, she had made a good point about wanting to preserve the friendship and about not wanting to risk what they had for something that statistically would probably end before it ever really began, but that kind of logic seemed completely lost on Lucas now. You can't help how you feel about someone. Yes, he had tried to hide it—tried to move on, but here he was, weeks after the fact, and he still thought about that night in Texas far more than he should.

/Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go

And you let her go

Well you let her go/

He knew from the moment he saw her that there was something special about her. That spark led to a crush. At the same time, they became best friends. They talked about anything and everything. He even told her that he dreamed of becoming a veterinarian one day: a dream that he never confessed to his best friends back in Texas. She didn't pry it out of him. He willingly told her that. He told her a lot of things he wouldn't dare tell anyone else. She didn't judge him or tell him that his thoughts were stupid. She encouraged him. She helped him to believe that it didn't matter what he had done in the past—it only mattered what he was going to do in the future.

/Cause you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go/

And that's what love does, right? It's supposed to encourage you, uplift you, and make you want to be better than who you are. She had done that with him since day one. He felt his crush develop into something more all throughout their 7th grade year. It wasn't until they finally went out on a date that everything hit him like a ton of bricks: he loved her. Lucas Friar was in love with Riley Matthews.

/Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go/

He told her at the time that he would never forget that moment. He wasn't lying. He knew he would always remember the moment he fell in love. He knew he would never forget the vision of her walking down those subway stairs toward him. The sight of her completely unhinged him. He had always been able to control those types of emotions around everyone—even Riley—but in that moment, someone could have knocked him over with a feather. He knew he had fallen in love with her. He knew at that moment that he would do anything for her…anything that would make her happy.

/Cause you only need the light when it's burning low

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow

Only know you love her when you let her go/

Love at any age is scary, but even more so when you are that young. After their date, they both thought it was best that they tried to slow things down. He had the same fears she did: she didn't want to rush into anything when what they already had was so precious. As he waited, they became closer and closer—something he didn't think was possible. As their friendship developed, he realized that his romantic feelings for her were developing as well. He cherished every shy glance she threw his way, every awkward 'hey' 'hi' 'hey' that they exchanged. He thought they were well on their way to becoming an actual couple when she suddenly dropped that brother bombshell on him while they were in Texas.

/Only know you've been high when you're feeling low

Only hate the road when you're missing home

Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go/

As Lucas left his room, he knew what he had to do for the sake of both of them. As sure as he was of his feelings for her, he knew that she was still trying to figure out her feelings for him. It nearly killed him to do so, but he had decided to let her go—for now.