Kyoshi: I wrote the majority of this today, since I had the inspiration to do it.
Saffire: We're very sorry for the delay in finishing the last chapter of this story, it's just some things sorta… came up. If you want to put it that way. I don't really want to get into it because it would annoy all of you who are reading this.
Yugi: So this is the chapter that everyone learns what my 'secret' is.
Kyoshi: I gave enough hints throughout the story for people to get it on their own, so I wouldn't tell anyone. I had to tell one person though… because of the… situation I was put into. ::sigh:: ummm… yah.
Ryou: ::pats Kyoshi on the back:: I don't think listening to 'Thief' and 'Are you sad?' from Our Lady Peace is really gonna help you.
Kyoshi: So what if they depress me even more? They're good songs. So I'll listen o them if I want to.
Yami: Time to thank the readers for the last time now. Saffire?
Saffire: I guess as a treat for reading this crazy and random fic we'll be holding a contest, which I'll explain in the end notes. But here are the thank yous!
0 (which happens to be stupid kid 04 and Blah), Well, here's angst for you! I hope I did it ok, and also I threw in some more random fluff for the heck of it! ^^
Youko Demon, I'm glad you liked the last chapter and I hope that this one will be as good. It's not as long and I DID write most of it today. Then I had to type it all @_@ My leg was twitching under the laptop. That was strange.
Wolfspeaker, I liked the fluff last chapter too ^_^ this one is where it gets really angsty. Sorta. There's some fluff there too ^_^ Enjoy!
Kyra Windwood, I was told by some people that I should have tortured him a lot more. Though I didn't. I'm not a cruel person by nature, so I just randomly wrote what I did. It would be nice though to send the real Yukito-baka to the Shadow Realm. ::evil maniacal laughter::
Setsna-kitogem, Sorry I haven't e-mailed you back much. This is the first time on the computer (more or less the internet), in a long time. And the mouse just sorta broke too. Damn _. I hope you like this chapter.
0, I'm glad you loved the chapter. ^____^ This chappie has a bit of fluff, but the main point is gonna be the angst. Enjoy!
I luv Kurt and Yugi so :p, Yeah! They got together! ^__________^ Happiness!!
Yo Ho!, I know, he does. Same with the real Yukito for making my life a living hell. ::twitch::
Nabiki and Cloud, I don't think it really matters anymore, now does it? ::sigh:: I don't want to have another yami, it hurts too much… Well, I'm happy that you liked the chapter. Even though you knew ahead of time what was going on. ::tired blink:: yah…
Princess Strawberry, I'm glad you thought it was cute ^_^ There will be some more fluff sorta. Yukito is a fucking bastard. ::sigh::
DemonWingedYamiYugi, It's actually easy having 8 periods. Each are about 40-45 minutes long, with 5th being an hour long class with a 30 min lunch. I love Yami Bakura too ^_^
CrookshanksAH03, Thanks for the fav list thing ^_^. It's all Malik's fault! He's supposed to remind me to put the stupid translations up. I have some Japanese in this chapter so hopefully I remember to use the stupid translations. Totemo means 'very' ^_^ kawaii deshita would be 'it was cute' ^^;;
Sally and Vivian, Thanks for reviewing again with your friend! ^___^ He he.
CrookshanksAH03, Sugoi is spelled right. ^_^ Shadow-kun is currently on my shoulder, then he jumped onto the table. He was mrowing in a greeting. I think he wants me to throw cards for him. He is strange like that O_o. But I love him muchly!! It's great that you agree with the whole Wicca thing, I was not sure I did it right. It sounded strange to me O_o. I like my ankh necklace!
Melena & Lisa, I didn't really feel the need to put in Honda, sorry ^^;; I hate Anzu _ Yuckie!
Kyoshi: Thank you all very much for reading this story! I don't think I'll do any type of sequel to this fic. But for those of you who read my other story, I'm thinking about doing a sequel for 'To know this empty feeling'. I have an idea fr what to do.
Saffire: I know we have to do the disclaimer, but we're not really in the mood to do something big, so you'll have to settle for this. We don' own it. Ne'er have, ne'er will. ^^;;
Kyoshi: So I am proud to bring to you, the last chapter of Misunderstood!
It was a wonderful Thursday morning. The sun was shining and the birds were chirping. Ok, maybe it was still a little dark outside, but the birds were still singing in any case. Yugi opened his eyes when his alarm went off with the same loud noise by his head. With a groan he sat up in his bed and hit the off button to shut up his annoying alarm clock. The Hikari got out of his bed and stretched his body while he yawned.
'Another day of school. How boring.'
He walked over to his closet and opened it with another yawn.
'I think I heard it was gonna be a little chilly out today. Good. Another day I won't be questioned about always wearing long sleeves.'
He picked out a nice looking black button up shirt and a pair of snug black jeans. After he changed Yugi checked out his appearance in the mirror.
'Pretty good I think.'
The teen opened the bedroom door and walked out, and he nearly bumped into Yami on his way to the stairs.
"You ready for school?"
"Almost. I just need to grab my stuff."
Yugi gave his lover a quick smile and ran down the stairs.
'He acts like a sweet angel.'
Yugi called up the stairs. "Yami! Are you coming?"
"Hai hai. I'll be down in a moment."
He walked down the stairs and met up with his boyfriend.
"Here's your bag. Let's go!" He grinned.
"Why are you so hyper this morning?"
"No reason. I just want to go now."
Since the time they got together those few days ago the two boys sat next to each other on the bus. Their book bags were on the seat that Yami used to occupy. Yugi loved his time spent with Yami and he loved everything about the ancient Pharaoh.
When they reached the school they parted ways like usual. They'd see each other later anyway. Study hall was boring. There was nothing to do but stare at the large clock and watch the hands move slower than anything. In Japanese they had their teacher back so Yugi didn't have to deal with that crazy and evile sub anymore.
"Hmmm…. Yukito-kun isn't here again. Strange…"
Yugi just starred at his desk. He didn't want to think about what that baka was going through. Yugi wasn't THAT cruel. Though he didn't deny the fact that the bastard deserved what he got. Yugi wasn't t only one Yukito targeted, but he received most of his wrath.
Next came English and Yugi was happy. He'd get to see his lover again! He couldn't help but want to be with Yami. The Pharaoh made him feel safe and loved. He didn't need to think about all the problems he had.
"Hello Jou. Have a nice time with Seto yesterday?"
"You know it!"
Yugi sat down in his seat next to Yami and smiled. Yami returned his smile, though it wasn't as large. When the bell rang the two boys turned their attention to the front of the class.
The rest of the day was pretty good for Yugi. No tests, no homework, and no stressful situations. So Yugi was in a very good mood as he sat next to Yami on the ride home.
"What would you like to eat today Yugi?" Yami asked a while later.
"What about… pancakes?" Replied Yugi from the living room.
"Of course!" He giggled and Yami gave a little sigh.
"If it makes you happy."
"It does and arigatou!"
"Iya, dou itashimashite Yugi-chan."
So Yami went to go make his lover breakfast for dinner."
'Yugi is strange sometimes, but I still love him.'
When Yami finished preparing the food in the kitchen he called to Yugi to go wait in the dining room.
"Hi Yami!" He hugged him tightly.
"You saw me not that long ago."
"Doesn't matter to me."
While they ate their pancakes, the two boys sat in a comfortable type of silence.
"Arigatou Yami." He yawned. "It's getting late, I'm gonna head to bed now." He got up from his chair to give Yami a hug and a friendly kiss on the cheek. "I'll see you tomorrow. Oyasumi nasai!"
Yami gave him a quick squeeze before Yugi pulled back and gave him a grin. The boy then left the dining room to return his bedroom.
Yugi closed the door securely behind him after he entered his room.
'How… how did I get triggered?'
He walked into the middle of his room.
'My life has gotten better since I have gotten together with Yami. Why am I triggered right now? I don't know.'
He sighed and started to unbutton his shirt. When he finished the last button he let the black shirt slide from his arms to land on the floor. He brought his arms in front of him and gazed at the pale skin. Many white and pinkish scars were scattered along the length of his arms. Many scars on his arms and some on his chest and abdomen.
'Will I ever get rid of this horrible habit?'
He shook his slowly and sadly as if to answer his self asked question.
He dropped his arms to his sides as he looked at the floor.
'This habit and everything attached to it is hideous.' He scowled down at himself. 'If Yami finds out about this… I'm not sure if he'd love me anymore. I can't let him find out.'
He sighed again and turned towards his dresser, then slowly made his way over to the piece of wooden furniture. He opened one of the top drawers and pulled out a pair of black cotton boxers. He quickly changed out of his jeans and into the black shorts.
Yugi took a deep breath to try and calm his racing heart.
'I need to do this.'
He reached in a hand and searched for the item he desperately needed to calm his need.
'Ah! Here it is.'
In his palm lay a faded paper towel in the shape of a folded rectangle. He brought up his other hand and carefully unwrapped the towel to reveal a two inch stained metal blade. With his right hand he picked it up and held it in front of his face.
'Why did I ever start doing this?'
He softly made his way over to the comfortable chair and sat down in it. Yugi once again sighed at what he was about to do again.
He brought his left leg to rest upon the knee of his right. He placed the blade to touch the soft pale skin of his scarred calf. Then slowly he dragged the blade down the skin to make a thin cut. It didn't really hurt at all. And if it did hurt, he didn't pay much attention to it.
'Damn. I forgot the tissue.'
The cut wasn't bleeding yet so he stood up and walked over to the dresser and grabbed the roll of toilet paper sitting there. He used it for Kleenex tissues instead of the box. They were also great for wiping away the blood form the cuts he made. The boy sat down in the same position as he was in before he got up. Yugi ripped off some of the tissue and touched it to the cut so it would soak up the small amount of blood.
'This is so calming… I don't know why, but it is.'
He pulled the toilet paper back and again brought the blade to his leg, in the same place as before. He deepened the cut on his leg with the sharp blade.
'Most people would cringe at seeing a cut like this. And… it doesn't really hurt, not in a bad way at least. The pain feels good and soothing. I must be crazy. I like cutting my skin and seeing me bleed from the wounds I've caused… but it's common knowledge that I hate seeing others bleeding. I don't know why I'm so contradicting.'
He dabbed the tissue on the cut to clear away the blood. It still wasn't that deep. For him at least. So again he dragged the blade down the length of the cut with an expression of morbid fascination. It was almost as if Yugi was in a trance from his sacred act.
The cut was bleeding a bit more now. There was no possible way that he could hit a vein if he cut his leg. Even when he did cut his arms, he wasn't aiming for a vein. Stress relief was what this was about, a way to get his feelings out without hurting others. It was a good thing.
He wiped away more blood. He was only going to concentrate on one cut today. Yugi didn't want to cut too deeply though, so he would stop when the sting became too great. He lightly dragged the blade again and this time he slightly winced. Yugi wasn't done yet, but he took a minute to dab at the blood.
Yami starred out of his window into the beautiful night sky. It was clear and many stars sparkled wonderfully. Some looked as if they were trying to shine brighter than other stars to get more attention. The sky was very lovely. The sennen spirit took a moment to just think to himself.
'I still cannot believe that my Aibou loves me. I've loved him for a long time and I was sure that he didn't return my feelings.'
He stopped focusing on the sky of stars beyond his window and just looked at his partial reflection in the pane of glass.
'He is so perfect, and sometimes it's strange to think that I fell in love with someone who's image mirrors my own. I wonder if that baka Tomb Robber thought the same thing about loving his Hikari.'
He looked into his reflection's eyes. They were not like Yugi's kind and innocent eyes. Yami's eyes were hard and sometimes even cruel. But they showed happiness when he was with his lover.
'Yugi and I… we're soul mates. We're destined to be together. He is my Mou hitori no ore. My other half. I can not be without him.'
He gazed back up at the starry sky for a while. He loved it's beauty.
'I wonder if Yugi has fallen asleep yet. Maybe I'll go check on him.'
Yami then turned away from the window and left his room, closing the door behind him.
He put his ear to the door of Yugi's room to see if he could hear any movements. There were none.
'He probably is asleep. I want to make sure though.'
He slowly turned the knob and opened the door. His eyes widened in surprise and shock at the sight of Yugi. A sudden gasp from the spirit shook the teen from his daze. He looked up at Yami and choked back a sob.
He dropped the blade and the blood splotched tissue paper then curled up in the chair with his back facing the door.
"Don't look at me." Yugi whispered.
"How long has this been going on?" He took a step towards Yugi and the boy curled up tighter.
"I'm not going to hurt you, or scream at you."
Yugi just shook his head softly while sobbing.
"Let me have a look at that cut."
The boy stubbornly shook his head and curled into a tighter ball.
"Please. I won't hurt you. And I don't hate you."
Yami put a hand on Yugi's shoulder and accidentally brushed against his worst scar. A large keloid, once that was bright pink and screamed of the pain Yugi went through. He winced slightly at the contact.
"Mou hitori no ore. I just want to help you. Please let me."
Yugi looked up with his miserable face. Yami was being nice. He didn't seem to hate him because of his problem.
"Let me see the cut." Yami said gently.
"Hai." He said quietly as he slowly unfurled his body.
Yami gave an inaudible gasp at the amount of scars he had on his body. He shook his head. Now was not the time to say anything. He had to bandage the cut. That was why he wanted to see it.
The cut was still bleeding. There were a few trails down his left leg and there was also some blood smeared on his right leg from when he was curled up. He looked away shamefully. He couldn't believe that Yami was able to stand looking at his horrible, ugly body.
"Yugi… I'll be right back. Stay in this chair."
The boy nodded his head, still not looking at either Yami or his body. The Pharaoh got up from his crouched position and left the room.
'I don't know what's going on. When will Yami be back? And why did he leave? I don't know. I don't know anything.'
He wrapped his arms tightly around himself to try and ebb the feeling of absolute misery in his chest. He took big breaths to try and calm himself also. Yugi wasn't looking at the door so he didn't know that Yami was standing there.
'He looks so… helpless, like a lost child. I want to make him feel better.'
He took purposeful strides into the room and kneeled down in front of Yugi. He laid out what he brought next to him.
First he picked up a washcloth that he soaked with warm water. Yami cleaned Yugi's right leg first. Then he brought up Yugi's left leg and wiped away the drying trails of crimson red. As he got closer to the wound he felt the teen's muscles twitch. He guessed that the cloth was somewhat rough on Yugi's sensitized skin. He stopped and looked up.
"Tell me if it hurts too much and I'll be more gentle."
Yugi responded in a quiet voice. "I-it's ok."
"You shouldn't do this to yourself."
Yugi didn't respond.
"It hurts me to know that you've been in so much pain hat you've hurt yourself."
Yugi stayed quiet as Yami finished cleaning the blood from the wound. He put the rag down next to him and picked up a roll of gauze. As he was about to wrap it around Yugi's leg something caught his eye. It was a few of Yugi's scars that were previously partially hidden beneath the blood that Yami cleaned. The spirit traced the word that was carved into Yugi's leg. It was a word with three kanji that Yami knew how to read.
"Fukanzen… 'Imperfection'… Yugi?"
"…Fukanzen na boku…"
"Don't say that! You are NOT imperfect!"
"… yes I am…"
Yami sighed. He wasn't in the mood to argue with his lover.
"I am your boyfriend and I think you are perfect and very beautiful."
Yugi looked down at Yami with an expression of surprise on his face.
"You… still like me?"
"I more than like you. I LOVE you. That will never change."
He went back to his job of bandaging Yugi's wound. When he finished wrapping it tightly he lightly patted it.
"How can you still love me? How can you love this?" As he said 'this' he gestured to his body with his hands.
"I love you. I don't love you for your body. And to me, I see no imperfections about you." He paused for a moment. "I don't want you to hurt yourself anymore."
"I… I can't." Yugi looked away.
"Promise me that you will try to stop."
"I don't know if I can. I've been doing this for a long time. I don't know if I can stop."
Yami sighed and grabbed a little jar from the pile of stuff he brought. Then he got up and dusted off his knees.
"Are you leaving?" Yugi asked in a meek voice.
"Only if you want me to. As for me, I would rather stay with you right now."
"I don't want you to leave."
Yami walked over to his Aibou's bed and sat down on it.
"Come here." He said in a kind voice.
Yugi slowly got up from the chair and made little steps towards the bed. When he was close enough to the bed Yami reached out his arms and drew Yugi's body to him. The spirit just held Yugi close to him and rocked his body comfortingly.
"I just want you to be safe. Yugi, I love you more than anything and I don't want you to hurt yourself. Please just try to not hurt yourself. If you're in pain, come to me first. I'll do anything in my power to help you. Just trust me."
"O-ok Yami. I-I'll try. For you."
Yami smiled softly, then he remembered the little jar that he placed next to him.
"Yugi, are any of your scars sore?"
"Sometimes they are."
"Would you let me rub some special lotion on them? I think this will help soften the skin."
He nodded to give his consent.
Yami picked up the little jar and opened it. The spirit dipped in a finger to get a small amount of the lotion. As Yugi lay in his lap, the Pharaoh gently rubbed the lotion on all of Yugi's scars.
'This actually feels good. He is so kind to me.'
"I love you Yami. I always will."
Yami gently kissed his Hikari's forehead before replying.
"Aishiteru. Zutto aishiteru."
Yugi tried to stifle a yawn as Yami finished with his treatment.
"I think you should go to sleep Yugi."
"But… I don't want you to leave."
"Just ask me to stay and I will."
Yugi lifted his head and gazed into Yami's dark crimson eyes.
"Yami, will you stay with me tonight?"
"Of course I will." He set the closed jar on the floor.
"Thank you Yami."
"Yu don't need to thank me. Get up for a second."
"Hai." Yugi got out of Yami's arms as the spirit pulled back the covers.
"You get in first."
Yugi did as he was told and scooted to the far edge of his bed to give Yami a bit of room to get in. When the spirit lay down he opened his arms as an invitation for Yugi. The teen grinned and let himself be pulled to Yami's body.
"I love you Yami."
"I know, and I love you too. Now go to sleep, we have school tomorrow."
Yugi smiled and snuggled against Yami's chest. Not too long ago he was more miserable than anything. Now he was so happy that Yami still loved him, even after learning about his problem.
He would be content to live his life with Yami, as he knew they would always be together. He was loved by someone. For the first time in his life someone loved him.
Yugi now was no longer completely misunderstood.
Kyoshi: Well, that's it. Sorry if it sucked. But I did write most of it today, and when I was in a bad mood. I don't think it does me much good to think too much. ::sigh::
Saffire: ::hugs Kyoshi:: You'll be fine. Just give it a while.
Kyoshi: ::nods:: I guess so.
Ikimashou, let's go.
Oyasumi nasai, good night.
Fukanzen, imperfection, impure, etc.
Fukanzen na boku, I am imperfect.
Aishiteru, I love you.
Zutto aishiteru, I'll love you forever.
Iya, dou itashimashite, no, you're welcome.
Kyoshi: I think that's all of them. Sorry if I missed any.
Saffire: Time for that contest thing. I came up with a little idea. For anyone who can answer the 3 questions I ask, I shall write a ficlet with one of my favorite pairings. I'll list them and you get to choose.
DiexShinya, KyoxShinya, KaoruxShinya, KaoruxKyoxToshiya, SakitoxMiyabi, GacktxMana, hidexYoshiki, TeruxHisashi, TetsuxHyde, JxIno, KiritoxKohta, AragornxLegolas, 1x2, FuumaxKamui, HieixKurama, SetoxJou, YamixYugi, BakuraxRyou, MarikxMalik, BakuraxYugi, MalikxYugi …. I think that's all of them.
You have to answer these three questions in their entirety to get the prize.What was the name of that movie last chapter that I didn't name. Who is Murata Shinya? What is his common name? What does he do? And lastly, ::grin:: what's his sexuality? What 3 places does Ikari Shiji's mother exist? (Neo Genesis Eva)
Kyoshi: I want you to e-mail me, or put it in a review. If you win, tell me the pairing you want and the situation you want them to be in. I hope I can do this. ^^
Saffire: Thankyou SOOOOO much for reading and supporting this fic. We appreciate it VERY much. I hope you'll all continue to support anything else I write. Hopefully, it will all be as good as this.
Kyoshi & Saffire: Domo Arigatou Gozaimasu!!!!!!