Chapter 7: Funeral for a Brother

A/N: I know many are not happy about what I did to Donnie, but it can't be changed now. But now we get to see how the brothers are going to cope with this loss and what it will do to them. Thanks to all of those who have read and reviewed thus far. It means a lot to me that you like this story.

Disclaimer: TMNT and all related characters are property of Nickelodeon. I only own the plot and nothing more than that.

Mikey woke with a start and looked around. He had been sleeping soundly when a weird feeling woke him up and he couldn't explain it. He felt fine so it wasn't that there was something wrong with him.

"Must be something I ate," he muttered.

But despite this declaration, Mikey couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong. He got out of bed and went to make sure his brothers were okay. He found Leo and Raph sleeping as they always did with nothing out of the ordinary. Splinter was also sound asleep so that left Donnie. Mikey went to his brother's room and peeked inside, but the bed was empty. That wasn't too unusual because Donnie sometimes slept in the lab when he was engrossed on a project despite Splinter's insistence that he sleep in his room instead. Mikey headed to the lab and cracked open the double doors, but upon further inspection, he realize that Donnie was gone.

In a full-blown panic now, Mikey immediately roused his older brothers.

"Dudes, Donnie's gone!" he yelled. "He's not in his room or the lab!"

"I'm sure Donnie's fine, Mikey," Leo reassured him. "Maybe he went out to the junkyard to find parts for something." No matter the crisis, Leo was always the calm one, but Mikey really hated it right now. Why wasn't Leo freaking out about this?

"Yeah, you know how the genius gets when he gets involved in something," Raph added.

"I don't think that's it, dudes," Mikey said. "I just have this weird feeling that something happened to him."

"We'll scout all the places Donnie might have gone first," Leo declared. "If we don't find him, then we regroup and figure out what to do from there."

This plan suited Mikey and he really hoped they would find Donnie in the junkyard or spending time with Irma.

They started at the junkyard for that was the most likely place for the genius to be. They hopped the fence and fanned out in different directions to find Donnie. Mikey kept calling his brother's name but got no respond. This definitely wasn't good. After searching the whole place, they came up empty.

"Where do we go now?" Mikey asked.

"We'll try Irma's," Leo said.

"Fine, but if those two are having sex together, I'm out," Raph warned.

Mikey normally would have laughed at such a remark or added a funny joke of his own, but his worry for his brother was too great to even be in the mood to joke around. He followed his brother's to Irma's apartment and luckily she was awake.

"Hi, guys, what brings you here?" she asked.

"Is Donnie here?" Leo asked her. "He hasn't been home."

She shook her head. "No, I haven't seen him all day."

The brothers exchanged looks, and the pit of worry in Mikey's gut became bigger like that canyon humans visit though he couldn't remember the name of it at the moment. He wished Donnie was there to tell him what it was and made a mental note to ask him about it once they found him.

"Okay, I think it's time we regroup," Leo said.

"Maybe we can track his phone," Mikey suggested. "I know how to do it because Donnie taught me too."

"Are you sure you listened to him and didn't space out?" Raph grumbled.

"Dude, I totally know how to do it," Mikey insisted. "I don't space out THAT much."

"Okay, track his phone and let's see what happens," Leo ordered, trying to diffuse a fight before it occurred.

Mikey pulled out his phone and accessed the tracking feature just as Donnie showed him. It showed their phones in the location where they were and showed Donnie's phone in a different one.

"He's at the docks!" exclaimed Mikey.

"Then we need to get there," replied Leo.

The brothers hurried to the docks and hoped that maybe they would see their brother sitting there lost in thought over something. But when they reached the spot, what they saw was far worse than that. Donnie's gear was in a pile on the docks along with his bo staff and mask, but Donnie was nowhere to be found.

Leo looked all around and tried to make sense of all of it. "I don't understand this!" he cried. "How could this have happened?"

"Do you think maybe Donnie is somewhere else?" Raph asked. "Maybe he was taken by someone."

Leo shook his head. "If that was the case, they wouldn't leave all of his gear here for us to fined," he replied. "They would more than likely just leave his mask or something like that. No, I think something else happened here."

Raph took a moment to process Leo's words. "Wait, you don't think that Donnie could haveā€¦.?"

Leo sighed. "I think he did," he answered.

Mikey looked rom one brother to the other and wondered what was going on. "What are you guys talking about?" he asked. "What happened to Donnie?"

A sad look crossed Leo's face and he adopted the attitude he always did when he was trying to give Mikey bad news as gently as possible. "Mikey, Donnie killed himself," he said gently.

Mikey shook his head vehemently not daring to believe the words. "No way!" he said. "Donnie would never do that!"

"I think he did," Raph replied.

"The clues point in that direction," Leo answered.

"But why would he do that? Doesn't he realize that we need him?"

"I think everything that has been happening took its toll on him and he couldn't take it," said Leo. "Look, we better go home and tell Splinter what happened. Then we'll take the Turtle Sub and see if we can find his body."

"And what if we don't find it?" asked Raph.

"Then we just have to move on," answered Leo.

Mikey still couldn't believe what had happened. Donnie would never kill himself like that. Donnie cared about them. He was too smart to do something so stupid. He wanted to deny these claims, but as much as he wanted to pretend it wasn't true, Mikey couldn't escape the facts. If Donnie was alive, he wouldn't leave his bo staff behind like that or his other gear. It just wasn't like him to do that.

Saddened by what had happened, the Turtles headed home to inform their father of what they had found. Splinter was devastated by the news, but he composed himself as best he could for their sakes.

"You must go and find the body," he said. "We will then have a funeral for him in the Japanese style."

"But what if we don't find a body, Sensei?" Leo asked him.

"Then we will put his belongings in a shrine dedicated to him instead."

"Hai, Sensei," Leo said.

Mikey left them for a moment to go to Donnie's lab. He looked at some of the drawings of projects Donnie was planning on doing. Now he would never be able to do them again. There would be no more late night talks between the two or movie marathons together. Donnie would no longer yell at Mikey for touching something he wasn't supposed to touch or correct him if he used the wrong word.

How could this have even happened? Donnie was supposed to be the smart one and yet he had done something Mikey never thought he would do. He had abandoned his family when they needed him the most.

"Mikey, time to go!" Leo called.

Mikey sighed and let his brother's lab to go and search for his body.

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The water was dark, and Mikey felt trepidation as he helped Raph to pedal. Leo was in the driver's seat and looked through the periscope for any sign of the genius Turtle's body.

"Do you see anything, Leo?" Raph asked him.

Lo sighed. "No, nothing. We'll do some more searching for another hour."

"But what if we don't find the body?" asked Mikey.

"Then we'll just have to go home without one," answered Leo.

They searched the waters but found no trace of Donnie's body. Leo concluded that it may have washed away without a trace and there would be no way they could find it. Giving in to defeat, the brothers went home, feeling more hopeless than they had before.

Splinter greeted them warmly but when he found out they were unsuccessful in retrieving Donnie's body, his body sagged in defeat and sadness. "Then we must have a funeral without the body," he said.

"We can't have a funeral!" protested Mikey. "Don't you guys get it? If there's no body, maybe Donnie's alive somewhere."

"But if that was the case, he would have contacted us by now," pointed out Leo. "And he wouldn't have left his weapons or gear behind either."

"Maybe he did that to throw us off track," guessed Mikey. "Maybe he's on some secret mission that only he wants to do and so he faked his death so he can carry it out."

"Are you talking about looking for Robyn?" Raph asked him.

Mikey nodded. "Yep. He knew you guys didn't believe him so he decided to go off on his own and decided to fake his death so we wouldn't come after him. That's definitely something he would do."

"No, it isn't, Mikey," said Leo. "Donnie killed himself because he couldn't deal with what was going on. He would never just leave to go on a foolish mission. You have to accept the fact that Donnie's never coming back."

Mikey bristled. "Why do you guys want to believe he's gone? Why can't you hold out the hope that he could be alive?"

"Because he's not alive," said Raph. "I know you want to think that he's alive, little brother, and so do I, but the evidence doesn't lie. Donnie's gone and all we can do is move on."

"Fine!" snapped Mikey. "Be that way! I'm going to keep on hoping that Donnie's okay." And with that, he stormed off to his room.

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The next day, they had a memorial for Donnie and put his gear in a shrine made just for him. Mikey was asked to make something for their brother, but he refused to do so and still held onto the hope that Donnie was still alive somewhere. He just had to be.

"I know you're out there, bro," he said. "I don't care what anyone says. You're not dead and you'll come back to us soon."

A/N: And this chapter has come to a close. I hope you liked it and how Mikey doesn't want to give up the hope that Donnie is still alive somewhere. But is he just saying that to keep hope alive, or is he saying that because he just doesn't want to accept hat his brother is dead? Next chapter will deal with Leo's thoughts on the matter. Feel free to leave a review and have a shelltastic day.