Damia - "Another story, I know, I need to finish the others first. Well, you know you love me. I No own, you no sue, please read and enjoy. 10 reviews = another chap,"


Chapter one


"If I told you my real name, I'd probably have to kill you, it's not something I talk about that often. I have my secrets, just like everyone else. The problem is, I don't want the secrets and lies and deceit. I want love and happiness and to feel safe in a mans arms. I haven't felt that way for a long time. I know what your all thinking now, and you are correct in the assumption. Rape.

"A rather stark word, isn't it. Makes you stop in slight shock. That is what it is though. It happened often. I was a spy sent by a man with a metal claw in place of a hand. His name was Dr. J. during the first war, he sent me to infiltrate Oz. I did it. In fact I did it often. It was my job to get information for the gundum pilots to use. Unfortunately for me, a man that worked with us decided to lust after me. I didn't want him. I repudiated him quite often and finally he blew. He informed Oz of my next mission and signed on with their team.

"Don't you dare feel pity for me. I had been trained for the abuse. Trained in a way that only the doctors could think of. They themselves had abused me, starting at a very young age. That was how they made me last through torture. That was their plan. They were right, it worked . . . up to a point. Sooner or later everyone cracks. It's the way the game is played.

"Didn't I tell you not to feel sorry for me? So what if I cracked under the pressure. You would have cracked a long time before me. Every single bone in my body had been broken, and I was a mass of swollen tissue. I didn't mind the physical pain so much. It was the mental pain that hurt me. Dr. J and his colleagues had forced me to bottle my emotions so that they would not get in the way during a mission. well that bottle broke while I was there. It shattered into so many pieces that I don't think I'll ever be able to put that bottle back together again.

"The doctors had thought me ready. They were wrong, I was anything but ready for what happened. Despite my education, despite abilities and experiences, I was still an innocent. I have nightmares every time I close my eyes, I am afraid of everything, though I hide it rather well.

"What can I say? I am a master of disguise. I can mask anything . . . I hope. My worst fear, is that someone will find me crying alone, and that they will leave me be. You may not understand the meaning of that statement, but that's not really important. Not really.

"The doctors sensed a change in me after I came back. Then again, Oz had me for five months and then just let me go after the war ended. Now they are sending me to some school in the Sanq kingdom. Peacecraft Academy I believe it's called. A place where I can feel like the average girl my age. Please, what other girl of 16 has gone through what I have? If there is one, I would like to meet her, maybe she would understand. Then again, she might be just like me, and to clammed up in herself to be any good to any one at all. it's just a thought, before I leave. For this is the last entry I will make in this log. This is the end f my stay on the base. I leave tonight at four. If someone ever discovers these tapes, congratulations. You deserve whatever you get. Do not feel pity for me. I may actually be getting the chance to be a normal girl for once," The beautiful girl reached forward and turned off the monitor. She was leaving the base for Earth in less than an hour. She was packed and ready. Her weapons together and guns strapped on. Someone knocked on her door.

"Enter," She said. The door opened and Dr. J came in.

"Hello my dear. Ready for your trip?" He asked. She nodded. "Good. I want to let you know right now that the gundum pilots go to that school. They have a very good record with the dean. Miss Relena Peacecraft often indulges them in their strange whims. She will do so for you as well. Your folder is a matter of public record," She looked at him sharply.

"I didn't know that," She said in an accusatory tone.

"Let me rephrase that, part of your folder is public record," He said with a smile.

"What parts?" She asked, eyes narrowed.

"You look like a cat when you do that," He told her with a smile.

"You're evading the question," She accused.

"No, merely making an observation about your appearance. Your public record shows that you were a fighter for the cause and a guest of the Oz torture chambers for five months until the war ended," He told her.

"That's all?" She asked with a glare.

"Your age, height, hair," He said with a shrug.

"Aliases?" She asked.

"No," He told her,

"Good, I wont have to kill you," She said with a shrug.

"You would not," He told her. She glared at the old man before picking up her bags and walking out with them. Her long Violet black hair swishing behind her and her violet purple eyes glaring at any that looked at her twice.

She pulled the bags up and dropped them on the floor of the carrier that was moving her. She sat on a seat and cracked her neck.

"Let's move," She ordered the pilots.

"We aren't supposed to leave for another ten minutes Miss Hino," One of them told her.

"Are you under the mistaken idea that I care?" She asked with a raised eyebrow, "I want to leave now," She stalked to the seat he was in and pressed the communication button.

"Land Crew," A voice answered.

"Land crew, this is Rei Hino on carrier LL592. I want to leave now, clear it,"

"Yes Miss Hino," The voice answered quickly. she went back and sat down.

"You really should be nice to the crew, they work hard," Dr. J said from the landing platform. She gave him a glare like Heero's and slammed her hand on the 'close door' button. It slid shut just as her ship got the ok to leave. She shrugged down into the seat, not bothering to strap in. No one reminded her either.

Everyone on the base knew who she was. She had grown up on the hidden base, a pleasure all over. At least until she was captured by Oz. Now she was a terror. She was completely reckless and seemed not to fear anything at all. They all remembered how she had looked when she had been brought in from the place where she had been kept for five months. They were giving her lee-way time. It had been a little over a month since she had been brought back. There was no way she could get over everything that had happened to her that quickly. So they let her do as she pleased.

Four hours later they arrived in the Sanq kingdom. She got off the carrier with her bags and walked to the transport that was supposed to take her to the school. She wore a black flared chino's and a blood red button up shirt with a black tie. Her black trench coat was of the same material as her pants and her black boots matched them well. She tossed the bags in the transport and stared broodingly out the window. Ten minutes later they came to the gates of the school. She sighed and rubbed her forehead with a hand.

As the car pulled up to the front, someone came out of the school. Actually it was seven someone's. She stepped out of the car warily. She looked at them with what she hoped was calm acceptance. One of the seven, an older man, hurried forward and took her bags. She arched a single eyebrow at him and looked at the rest. There was a girl about her own age with honey blonde hair and cornflower blue eyes and a peaceful countenance. The five boys with her were a different matter. One seemed nice enough, he had extremely friendly aqua blue eyes and platinum blonde hair. The others were much worse. One seemed rather locked in on himself. Kind of like she felt. He had dangerous prussian blue eyes and messy chocolate brown hair. His face was set in a fierce mask. Another had jet black hair that was tied into a tight ponytail at the base of his skull. His eyes were a deep black color as he looked at her as if she were the lowest thing on earth. That made him seem like a dangerous person indeed. The tallest had brown hair in a strange style. It fell in a large bang over one eye. The eye that she could see was a brilliant green and seemed to study her as if she were a completely new creature. The last, in her mind, looked the most dangerous. He had violet eyes and a long chestnut braid that reached to mid-thigh. The thing that made him look so scary was the look of instant attraction in his eyes. Those sparkling orbs roamed all over her body. So she did what she always did when she was afraid of it. She faced it head on.

"Could you do me the favor of removing your eyes from my person?" She asked icily. He gave her a surprised glance.

"Huh?" He asked.

"Duo, refrain from the drool-festival for at least a few moments," Relena said with a sigh. Rei turned her attention back to the girl.

"You must be Relena Peacecraft," Rei said with a nod.

"And you are Rei Hino," Relena said with a smile.

"That is correct," Rei said.

"Then follow me, I will lead you to your room. It is in the coed dorm as your Guardian requested," She told her with a smile. Rei felt a jolt of fear at that, but quickly squashed the feeling and feigned a small smile. Relena moved into the building, the boys taking point around her. Rei noted that in her mind. She already had the inkling that theses were the gundum pilots.

Relena led her to the top floor and down the hall. She stopped outside a door and motioned for The tallest to open the door. He did so and then held it open for everyone. Rei slid past him quickly. He noted, but did not comment on it.

"This is your room. You have the same classes as these boys, so they will be your guides. Dr. J tells us that you fought in the war?" Relena asked. this last part. Rei opted for the immediate shield reaction. Her face went impassive and her eyes went blank.

"That is correct," She said quietly.

"You will have to tell us all some time," Relena said with a smile. Rei frowned slightly.

"I prefer not to," She said, the shield still in place.

"Oh come on, none could understand better than us," The one referred to as Duo commented. Her jaw locked as she shook her head slightly.

"No, I'm afraid that's not possible. I'm very tired, if you would please show me to my room?" She asked. The dorms were more like tiny apartments. A bathroom, two bedrooms, a small kitchen, and a living room.

"Oh, where are my manners" Relena cried, "You must be absolutely exhausted. These are Trowa barton, Wufei Chang, Quatre Raberba Winner, Heero Yui, and Duo Maxwell. That is your room," and with that Relena shooed everyone out of the little place and closed the door behind her. Rei sighed and walked to the room she was to be in. Her bags were on the floor. She unpacked them quickly and changed into pajama's, climbed into bed and cried herself to sleep.