I stood staring at my reflection from the mirror in the Master Bedroom of the Cullen's mansion. I couldn't believe that the woman that was being reflected back at me, was me. I felt like she was a carbon copy. Not me, but at the same time she was. It was a little unnerving honestly to stare at the reflection, and not see myself within it. I felt like a plastic recreation of myself, and I didn't like the feeling one bit. I felt like I was trying so hard to be something I wasn't. Which brought a slew of feelings that I didn't particularly want to feel. Especially on what was supposed to be the happiest day of my life, but the simple truth was that the feelings weren't just stemmed from today. They had been flourishing since the day I had first met the Cullen's.
I knew that I shouldn't be feeling this way, and I knew I could just blame them on pre-wedding nervousness, but I couldn't help but feel that it was something more than that. That the feelings that wouldn't leave my mind and heart were telling me not to go through with this. Which brought even more confusion to my already confused mind. Why wouldn't I want to go through with this. I love Edward and he loves me. We were mates. We were destined to be together, but the feelings still remained. I felt like two sides of myself were fighting for purchase, and would not give up until the other was destroyed completely. I sighed and rubbed my temples trying to alleviate my growing headache. I didn't know why but I felt like I had just unlocked something from within myself. Something that had been fighting for air for a long time. I just didn't know what it was... yet.
I focused back onto my reflection in the mirror, and once again got a twisted feeling in my gut. I didn't like all the make-up that was on my face. Or the dress that looked to be to expensive for its own good. I once again got the feeling of being something I wasn't, and it made me slightly angry. I stared into my reflection and I felt like punching the mirror. Like it was showing me a lie and not a painful truth, but even though I tried to deny it I knew that painful truth. That I had changed, and not in a good way. I had changed for them, not for me. I had bent myself to fit their perfection, all the while I was losing who I really was. I became so codependent on them that I forgot how to live without them. The last thought brought me back to when they had actually left me, and I had become so depressed that I looked like I was in a comatose state. Disgust filled my heart at that. I couldn't believe that I had become so needy for them.
I looked into the mirror and saw not my own reflection, but of that of a perfectly made doll. Made for their own needs and I felt like I actually was a life sized Barbie doll. Which once again brought an unbridled anger coursing through my body, but before I could get revenge on the mirror I heard a knock on the door. I quickly composed myself before putting on a faux smile.
"Come in," I said with fake enthusiasm that I hoped sounded real.
"Oh Bella you look so amazing," Alice squealed as she rushed into the room, and I just kept the smile on my face.
"You really think so?" I asked with a raised eyebrow, and Alice immediately nodded her head.
"Of course I do, but me wanting to see your dress isn't the only reason why I came to see you," Alice said with a rather large smile, and I immediately frowned.
"What is it Al?" I asked with a tilt of my head.
"Our cousins have just arrived, and they want to meet you," Alice said with an overly happy tone, and I immediately raised my eyebrow.
"Alright," I said simply not knowing what else to say, and Alice not deterred once again grinned before disappearing out the door. I once again was brought to my reflection, and I once again wanted to punch the mirror, but quickly decided against it because I would soon meet people I have never met before. I closed my eyes and sighed. I had to get my feelings under control. Especially since I would soon be around Jasper, and I didn't want him to see my doubts. I could feel another headache coming on or it was probably the same one becoming stronger again. I heard another knock at the door and I once again composed myself, and put on a fake smile.
Alice appeared once again in the room with three beautiful blondes. I examined them from left to right. The first had long, curly, strawberry blonde hair and she stood around 5'5" tall. Her beautiful porcelain skin seemed to shine in the light (more so than normal due to the minimum lighting), and she looked a lot more mature than the younger Cullen's. The next I noticed was taller than other two. She had the golden eyes of a vegetarian vampire, like the other two. She also has hair that is long, pale blond, straight as corn silk and she is around 5'6" tall. While the last but certainly not the least. Her hair was pale, a pale blonde that was almost silver. It hung straight as a ruler to a blunt edge at her chin, parted evenly down the center, and she stood at around 5'2". I knew for a fact I had never seen anyone as beautiful as they were. They all seemed to exude confidence but it was so natural that it couldn't even be mistaken as arrogance. I smiled at them and they all smiled back.
"You must be Isabella Swan," The strawberry blonde said with a slight purr in her voice. I immediately had to fight the need to blush. Reminding myself that I was soon going to be married to the love of my life.
"Yes I am and you are?" I asked with what I hoped was a charming smile. It seemed to be because the strawberry blonde smile grew.
"I am Tanya Denali," She said and I immediately remembered Edward talking about her. I couldn't help but piece what he had said to the woman that was standing before me. Every story he had told me about her didn't seem to fit her, but what would I know? I had just met her and her sisters. I glanced at the other two blondes who smiled at me.
"I am Kate Denali," The taller blonde introduced herself and I immediately smiled at her confident tone.
"And, I am Irina Denali," The last blonde said and I once again smiled.
"It's very nice to meet all of you," I said in a polite tone, and Kate smirked. I couldn't help but get the feeling that she was undressing me with her eyes. So I turned to Alice trying to keep the blush down. She seemed to be watching the three of us with what looked like barely hidden sadness in her eyes. When she saw me looking at her she smiled.
"Bella I hear Charlie calling for you. Go and meet him I'll catch up. Okay?" Alice said and I immediately got the feeling that she was dismissing me, but I decided not to call her on it. Instead I nodded with a tight smile, and nodded towards the Denali's and left the room in search of my father.
Back In The Master Bedroom/Changing Room (3rd Person)
The minute that the door closed behind Bella the Three Denali sisters turned towards the pixie like girl. They all had matching frowns, and they all looked pissed.
"What we have believed has been proven factual. What are we supposed to do when our mate is marrying your brother," Tanya snarled her eyes darkening even more with her rage. Alice immediately winced at the tone that had been used towards her, and she stared at them with sadness.
"I'm so sorry Tanya. My visions have showed Bella and Edward being together as vampires, and not until you three arrived did I see who Bella's true mate or mates rather were. I'm so sorry," Alice said.
"So what you're saying is that we can do nothing, and we have to watch our mate get married to someone else," Irina hissed her eyes flashing dangerously, and once again Alice winced.
"Yes, I'm sorry but once Bella is changed she will feel the pull towards you three," Alice said, but that enraged the three sisters more.
"So not only will we have to watch our mate get married to someone else. We also have to sit by as someone else's venom courses through her," Kate snarled and Tanya and Irina growled.
"Yes. Unfortunately there is no other way," Alice said her voice pained.
"We can cancel the wedding, and explain to her that we are her mates. Not that overgrown child," Irina said a desperate tone entering her voice.
"That would only confuse her, and it could possibly send her deeper into Edward's arms," Alice said with a shake of her head.
"We can't do nothing!" Tanya exclaimed her anger rising.
"Unfortunately that is exactly what you have to do. Doing anything will result in Bella becoming confused or threatened by you three. Which will give Edward a leeway into her heart more, but hopefully they won't be together long. I saw her respond to all of you, which hopefully means that Edward won't claim her fully," Alice said, her last words causing the sisters to growl.
"Alright we will stand by and let Bella get married to the boy, but don't blame us if we do any minimal thing to show that she is ours, and we are hers," Tanya said and Alice grinned.
"I wouldn't expect anything less from you Tanya," Alice said and the three sisters nodded before leaving the room in search of their other coven mates. Once the door was closed Alice closed her eyes and sighed. She hoped with all of her heart that Bella would find the Denali sisters. She just hoped the vision that she had just had wouldn't happen. Knowing if it did chaos would ensure. With another more heavy sigh Alice left the room in search of her own mate.
The Reception, Bella's P.O.V./
As I danced with Charlie I couldn't help but shake the feeling that this was all wrong. That what I had just done would result in a greater pain of some sort, but I shook those feelings aside. I didn't want to dwell on them because they would only prove to confuse me more, and I didn't want that. I glanced at Edward who was talking and laughing with Emmett, but I once again got a twisted feeling in my gut. I had noticed relatively early in the Reception that he seemed more possessive of me. Especially when he was around the Denali's. I also noticed that Tanya, Kate, and Irina would always growl softly when he did. I heard in the back of my mind that the music stopped, and I smiled at Charlie who smiled back. He kissed my cheek softly and I stepped out of his arms, and walked towards where the Pack was sitting. Or more importantly, Jake.
I looked around for any sign of my best friend, but didn't see him. I frowned slightly wondering where he could have gone. I turned around and almost screamed when I saw him standing behind me.
"Jake that's not funny," I said but my laugh made it lose its seriousness.
"Sorry Bells," He said softly looking at the tree behind me. My smile immediately slipped off of my face at his attitude.
"Jake what is it?" I asked.
"I just wanted to see you for one last time while you're human," He replied and I immediately got a sinking feeling in my stomach.
"Jake I'm going to be fine. Edward would never intentionally harm me," I said trying to placate him, but even to my own ears it sounded hollow.
"You know that's bullshit Bella. He has hurt you countless times, and I don't want to see my best friend hurt," Jake snarled and I knew he was right, but something inside of me, my stubbornness perhaps, was telling me to contradict him.
"He's my husband now Jake. We love each other, he wouldn't harm me," I once again say, and I feel like a broken record.
"Bells I can see it in your eyes that you feel that this is wrong. Please I am begging you leave with me. I can take you to a place that they would never find you in. Please Bella I can't see him hurt you again," Jake begged his eyes pleading.
"Jake we're married now there's nothing I can do. It's to late to run now," I said softly, sadness etched into my tone that surprised me.
Immediately Jake was standing in front of me. He gripped my shoulders and stared at me with compassionate eyes. "No Bells you know that's not true. I would do anything to protect you, and it's not to late. Even though you are married to that leech doesn't mean that you can't go on an impromptu honeymoon with me," Jake said and I raised my eyebrows at his last words. Which he noticed and immediately fixed. "I mean you know without all that lovey dovey stuff."
I laughed slightly at his words, but I couldn't help but feel like he was right. I did feel like what I did was wrong, but I didn't want to hurt Edward. I was then reminded of how he had hurt me in the past, and how he was acting now. How he seemed to be flaunting our relationship in others faces, and I didn't like that at all. I also didn't understand why he would leave me alone with the Denali's or why he seemed set to make sure I was always in his sight. I didn't like the feeling that I was being owned, and that I had no decision in the relationship. I also didn't understand why I was beginning to feel myself start to slowly resent Edward. Only a day before I had been head over heels for him, but now I didn't think I could spend 5 minutes with him let alone my entire life. So I looked at Jake and then glanced at the party behind me. I saw that Edward was starting to look for me, and I once again got the feeling that I was just a possession to him. Not his mate or wife. I turned my attention back to Jake who had a grin on his face.
"I think you're right Jake," I said softly, and Jake's grin grew.
"I knew you would agree," He said and before I could even blink he was in his wolf form. I could tell what he wanted me to do, and I quickly got onto his back. I held on tightly as he started to run, and I looked back at the party, and saw the Denali sisters looking for me as well. I saw their fear and anguish at my disappearance, and I immediately wanted to go comfort them, but before I could even really think of it they were out of my sight. I saw nothing else but trees and felt nothing else but the wind. I looked forward and I didn't think of my past or the downfall this could cause. I didn't think of the feelings of guilt as the wind hit my face. I didn't think of what could happen next as I looked out onto the expanse of forest to come.
No, all I saw in the trees to come was my future, and I couldn't wait to see what happened. And, I couldn't help but feel free because of it.
A/N; I hope you liked the first chapter of A New Chapter (Working Title). And, don't worry Jake is only platonic to Bella like Bella is only platonic to him, but he will be a big part in this story. So if you would like to make a pairing for him that would be great. Also I'm sorry if some of Bella's thoughts didn't make sense, but I promise they will soon.
Also, the Bella in this story is not a weak and pathetic girl. She is strong willed and can think for herself. (Now that she has left Edward) Bella will also be OOC as well as Jake (slightly). I again hope you liked this chapter, and for the ones that read Ascending Darkness and Frozen Moon I am working on the chapters for them now.
Sorry for all the misspelled/missing words.
- The Exiled Queen