I took a pregnancy test and it says...


Its so nice to see that word.. no lines to interpret, just that one little word. How can it contain such joy? And such fear?

Needless to say I didn't sleep at all last night.. Poor Trent, I kept waking him up with all my tossing and turning and asking him "How can you sleep? We are PREGNANT!"

Then I rushed off this morning to RMA for a Beta. I won't know the results until late this afternoon, which makes for a very very long day.

I do want to go back to yesterday though.

I came home from acupuncture expecting some sort of romantic greeting (flowers would have been nice honey) and instead Trent is sitting on the couch with his laptop on his lap and doesn't even get up to hug me.

When I was like "Uh, hello? I'm pregnant, can I get a little celebratory reaction here?" he kept saying that he wouldn't believe it until the doctor said it was true.. he was half joking, but not really. He doesn't know/understand the accuracy of HPTs, what the hell a Beta is, why it needs to double, he's just so in the dark that I think he's scared to be excited too soon.

So all in all, there was no tender "you're going to be a daddy" hallmark moment for me.

Back to the present..

I am really not feeling many symptoms at all. Some random tightening cramps, constipation of course and increased appetite (already?). I ate two eggs for breakfast this morning and I normally barely eat breakfast. Then, by 10:30 I was starving.

But in general, I am the happiest I've ever been.. not in a giddy sort of way, but in a "I have the best secret in the world" sort of way.

Next steps?

1 )Wait for Beta this afternoon.

2) Pray for Beta to double over the weekend and go back for 2nd Beta Monday.

3) Learn about pregnancy. Seriously, I know about as much as an RE about infertility, but when it comes to actually being pregnant? I'm like a fish out of water.