Hey, guys! So, as most of you know from twitter, the idea for this fanfic came from a thread I created about what I'd like to see happen with JaSam on GH. (If you'd like to check it out, my twitter is inmyjasamfeels). After seeing so much love for that thread and getting so many sweet responses, I asked you guys whether or not you'd be interested in me making a fanfic out of it and I was overwhelmed by all the encouragement I received. This is my first time writing a fanfic like this so I was worried about it, and truthfully, I still am. But because of all the support, I am choosing to give it a shot. So thank you to everyone who gave me the confidence I needed (you know who are). I hope you all enjoy this first chapter. It's just a start to get things set up...I promise the action will come very soon! Comments are always welcomed!
*Disclaimer: I do NOT own any of the characters, and all the rights to them belong to General Hospital*
"I promise once this is all over our lives will go back to normal" Jason reassured his wife, knowing the stress of finding who was responsible for Morgan's death was getting to her.
They just met with Dr. Kelly Lee for another checkup where Dr. Lee told them she could reveal the sex of their baby if they wanted to know. Although Sam had initially said no, Kelly left them with a note that said the gender in a sealed envelope in case they changed their mind. The note was too tempting to refuse so Jason and Sam were just about to open it when Jason got a call from Curtis, saying that they needed to meet up because he had some new information about the case.
Jason noticed Sam's annoyance when his phone rang as she let out a sigh and took a couple steps back.
Sam was never one to complain, but Jason knew her well enough to know that this situation was weighing on her, and stress wasn't good for their baby. When Jason found out Sam was pregnant he was beyond ecstatic. Of course, that turned to worry when Sam explained the possibility of their baby having malaria, but once Sam and the baby were all cleared Jason had silently swore that he would never take his family for granted, and he would protect them with his life. There was no way anyone was going to tear them apart again. He wouldn't let them.
"Jason, I'm okay. I want to find out who's responsible for that car bomb just as much as you. I know you started this search to prove Sonny's innocent, but it's more than that. Morgan was just a kid, he deserved a chance to live out his life but someone stole that away from him.
Sam suddenly got teary eyed as she continued.
"Someone stole that from Carly and Sonny…the chance to see their son live his life and find happiness.
Jason brushed away the single tear that found its way down Sam's face.
The pain of losing a child hit too close to home for both Jason and Sam. That loss is an empty space that can never be filled, no matter what. Sure, life goes on and you find ways to go on too, but reminders are constantly creeping their way into the day. Jason knew Sam was thinking about their daughter, and all he can do was comfort her. He hated that all of this brought back painful memories for her.
"I know babe, I know you want answers, but I can also see that you seem unhappy lately, maybe a little bothered?"
"I don't know what you want me to say, Jason. I told you I understand what needs to be done.
Suddenly getting frustrated at his endless line of questioning, Sam snapped.
"Jason can you please just leave it alone. I really don't need this right now. You should get going, Curtis is waiting for you…"
Unable to stop herself before the words left her mouth Sam added under her breath, "Can't keep him waiting".
Jason didn't miss that last remark, but instead he decided to not comment on it because he didn't want to make things any worse. They were just so happy thinking about their baby a few minutes ago, and now the coldness in the air was palpable. He felt responsible, he had promised Sam a new life in Aurora, something he called a "new normal" for their family, and now he had to backtrack out of that promise. He honestly didn't blame Sam for getting irritated with him. She has always put up with so much for his sake and finally just when she thought things were going to be calmer, their lives got derailed once again.
Sam didn't know what was wrong with her. One minute she was annoyed, the next she was emotional, and now she was overcome with anger. It's not that she blamed Jason, she didn't. She was just tired of everything. It seemed like they couldn't even catch a break for one second anymore. Maybe it was the hormones, she knew she shouldn't have snapped like that. Jason was right, she was stressed. She felt like she was being pulled in so many different directions. Her mother was obviously falling apart, her father was allowed to roam around town freely after trying to kill her mother, the case her, Jason, and Curtis are working on seems to have more dead ends than answers, and on top of it all, she was pregnant.
Sam felt guilty for having these thoughts. She felt like she was being selfish, but was it really selfish to want some peace and happiness with her husband and kids?
"Okay I guess I'll go see what this is all about", Jason said deciding the faster he deals with this, the faster they will find the truth and be able to focus on their life together.
Sam nodded not really knowing what else to say. She felt like she may have said too much already.
Jason grabbed Sam's coat and helped her put it on.
"Thank you", Sam said.
Jason kissed her head and took her hand in his as he began to lead her out the door, but Sam pulled his arm back to stop him.
Jason waited for her to continue.
"I'm sorry. I know I'm not making much sense right now, and I shouldn't take it out on you…"
Jason interrupted her before she could continue.
"Sam, stop. You aren't doing anything wrong, and you have nothing to apologize for. Really it should be me saying I'm sorry. I never want to make you feel neglected, and I hope you know that no matter what I'm working on, you are still and will always be first in my life.
Jason leaned forward and rested his forehead against Sam's.
"I will always choose you."
Sam couldn't stop her eyes from filling with tears listening to Jason's words. She had no doubt about her husband's love for her.
"I know", she whispered.
Sam lifted her head and looked Jason in the eyes.
"We'll get through this, together."
"Together", Jason affirmed.
"And I'm sure I'll get emotional or testy again, especially with my hormones out of whack right now..", Sam continued.
Jason let out a small chuckle at that.
"But that doesn't mean I'm not standing by you and your choices".
"I'll make sure to take note of that", Jason joked, making Sam laugh.
"Come on, let's get going", Jason said but then suddenly remembered the envelope.
"Oh wait, what about the note?"
"Well…I think it could wait, for now", Sam said wanting to hold off until Jason and her were both free and not in a rush.
"As long as your sure…"
"Okay, sounds good."
Jason took Sam's hand in his once again and placed a soft kiss on her lips.
"I love you."
"I love you too", Sam smiled as they walked out the door.