A/N: Okay, so this is way out of my comfort zone. I just hope I can do it the justice it deserves because in my head it was glorious and amazing. We always write about Jane going with Maura to all kinds of fund raisers, galas and various other events.
But…did you ever wonder why Maura actually invited Jane as her plus one all the time, when they were not a couple? What if the reason was more complicated than mere companionship? What if it was a way to satisfy the unrequited love? I have to tell you…this idea got into my head and just wouldn't go away. It put a total stop to another story I have been working on. So this is the product of me giving in and putting it down on paper.
Warning: it's steamy…or at least I hope it reads that way. Very M rated. I'm breaking this fic into two chapters just because I think it makes it easier to read. I hope to get both of them up tonight as a Valentine's Day gift to all of you.
I don't have a Beta so all errors are my mine and my cat's, who was less than cooperative during the process of editing.
I own nothing related to the Rizzoli & Isles show. Unfortunately, that honor belongs to many others. I can only claim the stories that I write in an attempt to satisfy my heart and sail my rizzles ship into actually being something real.
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Chapter 1
Jane had agreed to attend as Maura's plus one to yet another of the annual fund raisers the Medical Examiner has been invited to.
Jane enters Maura's in sweats and a tee shirt carrying one of her black dresses over one shoulder and an overnight bag hanging from the other. She was basically ready to go, only needing to put the dress and shoes on minutes before departure. 'And some make-up that Maura will insist she apply' Jane thought.
Knowing her friend and her systematic routine as well as she does after all these years, she knows Maura is already in preparation mode. Jane automatically heads the spare room where she deposits her bag on the floor next to the bed. As she goes to hang her dress in the closet she begins to second guess her choice for the evening. Maybe she should have brought the other two options as well. The busy week they had didn't give them time to discuss the evening's attire prior to this so now she was wondering, maybe even doubting her selection. Deciding the best option was to get the honey blondes final approval now just in case she needed to run back home to get one of the other choices.
At the master bedroom door she yells out, "Hey Maur…you in there?
"Yes."
"You decent?"
"I'm getting ready, Jane but I am fully clothed if that is what you are asking."
"It is" she says as she walks into the room. Holding out the dress out in front of her as she asks, "Is this going to be okay for tonight?"
Stepping out of the closet with an arm full of items she looks over at the dress as she begins to lay each item on the bed, "You wore that dress to TJ's christening."
"Yeah, but it not a crime to wear a dress more than once and I haven't worn it since then. Besides…" she shrugs "…no one at this shindig has seen me in it before."
"I was just stating a fact, Jane. You did wear it for TJ's christening. I liked the way it fit you. I feel it is a fitting choice for this evening."
"Thank you" Expelling a sigh of relief, she plops down on her friend's bed hugging the dress to her chest.
Shaking her head, Maura walks over taking the dress from her arms, "If you hold it like that, however, it will be full of wrinkles."
Jane grimaces after being fully chastised. Maura hangs up the dress on the hook hanging from the closet door. Smoothing it out before disappearing back inside the closet.
"So…um…this is a dinner thing right? Not just one of those fro-fro appetizer things?"
A slightly muffled voice comes from the closet, "Yes Jane, a full dinner will be served and will consist of multiple courses. Exactly how many I am not sure."
"Great, because I'm starved." She says rubbing her stomach.
Again walking across the room with another arm full of items Maura says, "We won't be eating for another…" looking up at the clock on the dresser "…three and a half hours, so you might want to have a bite to eat."
Jane nods as she begins to get up off the bed, "Do you know what they're serving?" trying to judge if she should eat a small snack or something more substantial.
"I believe even you will be full after the meal is over, so just eat something light. I'm going to shower now while you eat, then I can help you with your make-up once I'm done."
Nodding, "Okay. I'll be back up here in…" glancing at her watch and smirking, "What…forty-five minutes…an hour?"
Maura furrows her brow not finding humor in her friend's comment, "I do not take that long and we need to leave here in an hour and a half. I will be done in fifteen minutes."
Jane chuckles as she leaves the room thinking, 'Good luck with that'.
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When Maura opens the bathroom doors she is not surprised to see Jane on her bed leaning back against the pillows up near the head board, "Alright…it took me thirty-two minutes. I neglected to add the time required to shave my legs and dry my hair."
Smirking and quirking an eyebrow, "Hey! I didn't say a word."
Shaking her head the honey blonde returns to the bathroom mirror and begins her make-up regimen, "History of repeated occurrences tells me otherwise. It was only a matter of time."
Jane sat quietly watching as the medical examiner worked to apply the foundation to her face with practiced precision. With Maura's movements, the belt on her robe loosened up revealing a portion of her skin as well as her undergarments. Unable to look away at first she noticed the red lace bra and matching panties. Both of which complemented her friend's ivory white skin tone. Finally pulling her eyes away she noticed the other items laying on the end of the king sized bed. Mainly the fancy laced garter belt and black silk stockings lying next to a red dress with black accenting. She pulled the collar of her tee shirt away from her chest looking down at her own simple cream colored bra. 'At least I remembered to match my bra and boy shorts today' she thought.
"Hey Maur? Why you getting so dressed up? I though you said this one was more on the casual side of formal? You planning on get lucky tonight or something?" The brunette said jokingly.
"It has been a while." Maura stated matter-of-factly.
"For me too but…" chuckling nervously not entirely comfortable about this subject or where she was sitting. "You know…you just take care of it yourself and all's good again." She brushed off nonchalantly.
'I'm afraid I'm past the point of self stimulation, Jane. Nothing I have tried as of late has been beneficial in offering the necessary relief required."
"Geez. So what…you're just going to have guy just nail you in the john at the fund raiser?"
"Of course not. I have no intention of achieving an orgasm in the restroom at the Hilton."
It takes Jane a moment to respond, still taken aback by her friend's frankness on the subject of sex after all this time knowing her, "So then why am I going with you if you're just planning on pick-up some random guy tonight? Cuz I know you don't need my help as a wingman…uh…woman to find one" she corrects.
"I rather prefer your company, Jane. I'm not looking for a commitment tonight, just sexual gratification."
"So why did you have me bring my stuff over to spend the night if you planned on dumping me for a one-nighter?"
"I will not be gone the whole night. I will be home with you in the morning as planned."
"So what…we're driving separate then?"
"I hadn't planned to but if you would rather."
"Well…I was planning on drinking at this thing but not if you're planning on dumping me and I have to drive myself home."
"I'm not dumping you."
A thought hits her, "Oh my god! You got a room didn't you?"
Looking sheepishly now over her decision, she looks up into the mirror in her friend's direction, "Well…it is more conducive to my needs."
"So you are dumping me after this thing to go get laid?"
"It's a six hour event. I think you have been to enough of them, in the past, to have the ability to entertain yourself for an hour or so."
"An hour or so?" Jane repeats as her brain connects the dots, "You mean you're dumping me during this thing to get laid?" When no answer came Jane had another thought, "Have you done this at other ones we've went to, Maura?" Seeing her friend's face and the fact that she was now avoiding looking up, "Oh my god…you have!"
"Jane I…"
"So what you're saying is that you take me along and use me as what…an excuse to not get involved past having sex?" Eyes now locked on one another in the mirror Jane shakes her head with disbelief. Feeling cheap and used she snaps out, "Then why don't you just slap a strap-on on me so I could take care of you and we could skip the middle man?" ignoring all the thoughts now swimming around in her head of her wearing a strap-on to be the man.
Maura stopped what she was doing and turned to face Jane, "Really?"
"Really? No…not really." The woman on the bed waves.
Seeing her friend deflate right in front of her Jane asked, "Wait…you'd want that? For me to…you know?" She gestures at her crotch and jerking her hips up.
"I need a release, Jane. I need to feel skin on skin contact. I need deep penetration."
"So you need a man or are you saying you don't care if it's from a man or woman as long as they give you what you need?"
"I will repeat for your clarification. I need to feel skin against my skin. I need deep penetration. Human contact."
Confusion coming in loads over this new found information Jane just sits there on her best friend's bed. Maura thinking the conversation is over goes back to applying her make-up.
She is almost done when Jane finally speaks, "So you've been with women before?"
The honey blonde turns again to face her friend, "Will it bother you if I say, yes?"
"No. I just never thought."
"You assumed that I had to be heterosexual? That there was no way I could be bisexual or even pansexual?"
"I guess I never put any thought to it at all. You've always been with men or so I thought so I never thought to question it."
"I don't label myself."
"I don't care you know. Whatever you are…I mean. You are still my friend…no matter what."
"Thank you" she says appreciatively.
"So you'd really do it with me?"
"Only if you were comfortable in doing so. I would never expect..."
Cutting her off Jane says, "I think I offered. Well…I guess, in a round-about way I did anyway."
"Jane…why would you even consider going through with this endeavor and having intercourse with me if your statement was made as an off-handed comment?"
Cringing at Maura's usage of 'intercourse' and not exactly sure herself why she was even entertaining the idea. There was just something about knowing her friend was going to hook-up with some random 'person' while she was on a date with her. 'No. Not a date' Jane was the 'plus one' and that was why they were attending this function together after all. So why did this just feel wrong on so many levels? Why did she all of a sudden feel like puking?
"I dunno. I just think if it's just a sex thing then maybe I could help. That way you wouldn't have to involve some other…I don't even know what to call them."
"Would you really be alright in having intercourse with me?" Maura questioned not wanting to get her hopes up.
Shivering, "Not if you keep calling it that…then I couldn't…" she shivers again leaving her words hanging. The reality of the situation hitting her, "I…uh…I've never done anything like that before."
"You've never had inter…I mean, been with a woman before?"
"None of it. Never been with a woman before. Never used a strap-on before. And well…I guess those two things alone say I've never done anything like this with a friend…especially not my best friend."
"Jane…you don't have to do this." She sighed, "You clearly seem uncomfortable with the idea of it so why would you?"
It was time to be honest about how she was feeling before they went any further. If they were going to do this, "I'm not sure what is going on with me right now, Maura. I think I'm more upset finding out that you took me to other things then snuck off and did…you know…with someone then came back all…I don't know…like nothing happened."
"I did not sneak off. I just took advantage of the opportunities when they arose. This is the first time I am going with an interest in mind."
"You mean you have a plan to hook up with someone in particular? Is that why you got a room ahead of time?"
"No….I'm not sure who will all be in attendance. It's just an interest out of need. My current situation has begun to interrupt my train of thought. I have never went this long before or become this distracted. The need for release has become overwhelming."
"Wow! Okay…I guess I've never been that desperate before."
"I have never been in this situation before either…hence the…oh for heaven sakes…yes, that is why I reserved a room for the night."
"So…um…when were you thinking?" Getting no response Jane prompted, "Come on, Maura. I know you and you thought this through thoroughly. I'm even willing to bet that you made a list and worked out how to go about this…plan of yours."
Finally giving up on completing the last of her make-up, she went over to sit next to Jane on the edge of the bed, "I figured we would arrive and get settled."
Chuckling, "And by settled…you mean get me settled?"
"Yes, in a manner of speaking. Once we had a drink and mingled for a while knowing you met enough people to strike up conversations I planned to excuse myself and go check in. Once I returned then I would begin actively looking."
"Do a little shopping and if you find one that fits you can go get it over with before dinner then?"
"You make it sound like I am buying shoes. I merely figured it might take me a while to find someone I would be satisfied with and once I had, we would arrange to meet after the meal was over."
"Aha…get me liquored up and happy then slip of to do the deed. You are such a cheating woman Maura Isles."
"Jane."
"What…you were planning to sneak off behind my back and get a good fucking."
"Must you be so crass?"
Letting out a full belly laugh this time, "Maura, you yourself all but said the same thing. Only you may have described the actions instead of calling it what it is…deep penetration my ass. You want a good fucking…admit it. And for the record…it wouldn't take very long to find a group of willing guys once they knew you were interested. I'm guessing plenty of women too."
"You are too kind but it is much lower than you would think."
"Nah, it's true. You never seem to notice all the guys drooling over you, just waiting for the chance to get with you. You Maura Isles are considered a major score."
"The same could be said about you, Jane Rizzoli."
Ignoring the complement Jane tapped her temple, "What I can't figure is how you planned to sneak back in this time. I mean…after doing what you want to have done to you."
"What do you mean? I can be and am very discreet when necessary."
"Oh…but this time my dear Maura…you are talking about having the hot and sweaty kind of sex. Face it…you get stressed if you have extra wrinkles in your outfit. How exactly do you plan on coming back after that type of activity and think no one will notice?"
"Good point. I…I hadn't thought of a scenario like that."
"Oh my god…you are such a planner. How many different scenarios did you come up with? Never mind…I don't think I want to know."
"Well, the point is mute anyway if you are willing to assist me. Are you willing?"
"Um…I can't believe I'm saying this but…yeah. You are going to have to tell me what you want me to do though and I'll do my best to satisfy your…um…need." Emphasizing the last word.
As she attempted to refrain from showing her full excitement, the smile growing on her face was enough for Jane, "Where did you want to do this?" She patted her bed, "Here? Or would you be more comfortable in the spare room?" with the shaking of wild raven locks Maura hesitantly asked, "Your place then?"
"God no… definitely not my place…that would be just too weird. How about the hotel room you booked? That's a neutral place. If we did it here I'm afraid Ma would come over or I'd be thinking about that the happening the whole time."
Maura nodded, "The hotel it is. I'll have to pack a few things then."
Jane smiled in an attempt to reassure Maura but it didn't quite reach her eyes, "Hey…what do you say to you going and finishing your make-up." she pointed to Maura's lack of eyeliner on one eye, "Then pack your overnight bag and we'll go to the hotel and finish getting ready? Um…maybe add some clothes too because that open robe is…well?"
Maura looked down quickly pulling it closed, "Yes…I'll get dressed." Standing up she said, "It's going to take me a few minutes to get ready and while I do would you mind pulling out the Lexus out of the garage?"
After Maura headed back toward the bathroom Jane got off the bed, "Yeah sure…can I drive it tonight?"
"Smiling into the mirror she answered, "Yes." With the thoughts of 'and I hope you will be driving a whole lot more than that tonight'.
Jane fist pumped the air as she exited the room. No more than a second later she returned, "You have…?" she gestured around her hips, "I only have a basic vibrator."
"Yes. I have a phall…dildo and harness."
"Okay…good. Yeah…alright then…I'll get the car out and take my stuff down."
Maura made quick work of packing her overnight case while trying to not put much thought into what would happen if Jane changed her mind and wasn't comfortable in going through with this agreement. She packed nightwear and clothes for the next day as well as her personal essentials. Then she packed her goody bag of pleasure items and in doing so caused every part of her body to tingle. Failing to fight it any longer her thoughts turned to the woman of her dreams. They were going to have intercourse tonight. This is something she had wanted for years but was too afraid to ever hope for. That very raven haired beauty was the main reason she found herself in this predicament in the first place. She hadn't been able to satisfy herself even when her fantasies turned to a certain tall and lanky detective. Making matters worse, she had not found anyone who could fill the void she felt or satisfy the sexual hunger that was threatening to consume her.
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Jane had returned dancing around and chanting about driving her precious Lexus just as she was closing her suitcase. They were on their way in less than a half hour.
Thankfully they had not run into traffic on the way because their conversation and change of plans would have them cutting it very close.
The ride over to the Hilton was a quiet one because the truth was, neither knew what to say to the other. Maura checked them in and it was a whirlwind of activity once they were escorted to the room. Maura did Jane's make-up. They both touched up their hair. Maura re-adjusted Jane's hair. Jane dressed in the bathroom and Maura dressed in the room.
It wasn't until they were on the elevator on their way down to the ball room that Jane broke the silence, "Please tell me that what we are going to do later won't ruin our friendship?"
All her fears coming to a head as Maura turned to face her friend. Fighting to keep her tears at bay and breathing normal she said what needed to be said. To give Jane an out if need be, "Jane, I hope you know I would never force you into a situation that truly made uncomfortable. I will understand if you change your mind and choose to do nothing with me. My friendship with you is sacred to me as well and I wouldn't want this to ruin what we have either. So what we do, or do not do is up to you. The ball is in your field."
"Court. It's the ball is in your court, Maura."
Nodding, "I will follow your lead whatever you decide."
Jane nodded too, "Okay then."
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The evening moved along smoother than either of them anticipated. There was no real awkwardness between them. They arrived down in the ballroom, according to Maura, in the acceptable time range of fashionably late. They mingled for a bit before getting drinks. Once things got flowing they both relaxed a bit and went into their normal banter. Dinner was just as Maura had said it would be. Jane was able to stuff herself with enough 'normal' food to fill herself up, but not to the point of being miserable.
Jane did, however, examine each person closely as she watched her friend's interactions with everyone throughout evening. Maybe looking for a sign and wondering if her friend was regretting the decision they had made earlier. She wasn't sure why she felt saddened over the thought, she only knew that she did. Four hours in the detective bit the bullet and decided she needed to give the woman she was accompanying an out. After all she sort of cock-blocked the woman plan of getting what she so desperately wanted or needed. Her insecurities were also getting the better of her and making her question if she could even do what was needed to be done in order to get this wonderful woman off.
With two hours of the fund raiser left Jane went to the bar and got two glasses of wine. She made her way over to where the honey blonde was currently talking with a group of people. She had meet them earlier and knew they were just raving over everyone's attire so she knew she wouldn't be interrupting anything important.
She sidled up and offered up one of the glasses, "Oh thank you Jane. I was just saying I wanted to go get another glass of wine."
"Well, you're welcome then." She listened for a bit as Maura gushed with the two other women about several dresses they had seen. The gentleman and Jane just kept nodding along until they both realized they had no real interest in fashion. They started up a conversation about the Sox and before Jane knew it a half an hour had passed by. It was when two more gentlemen joined the group that Jane used it as her opportunity to pull the Medical Examiner away. Tapping Maura's arm to get her attention first she asked the group, "Would you excuse us for one moment?"
After polite apologies were made Maura followed Jane over to a vacant table, "Are you alright?"
"Yeah…I'm good." After a moment of fidgeting by rubbing her scars she jumped in with both feet, "Look…I'm not backing out or anything but I kind of feel like I boxed you in at the house earlier. Listen Maura…if you saw someone you'd like to…you know, then I can just head home and leave you to it."
Attempting to not let her disappointment show Maura asked, "Would you rather I found someone else for the evening?"
"No. I just didn't want you to feel like I was stopping you from anything. I just…what if I can't do it for you?"
Wanting to scream 'You already do it for me Jane!' she place her hands on the brunette's biceps and instead said, "I have faith that with your muscular tone and stature you are more than capable in assisting me in achieving an orgasm."
Looking around the room while turning three shades of red Jane whispered, "Why must you say things like that? Every other time you used relief or release…now…here…you use that word?"
Smiling at the woman she has come to love for her own type of quirks, she laughed, "Really Jane? You are afraid of that word?"
"Well…when people like this are around. You know…people with class?"
Laughing harder now she adds, "I can assure you Jane, they know that word and I am even willing to surmise that a large number of them use it freely."
"Okay…I suppose you're right."
Stopping the detective from rubbing her scars raw she asked, "Is it that particular word being used, here in public, that bothers you so much…or is it the fact that that 'word' if it were to be overheard in our conversation could lead to someone assuming to know what we were thinking of doing in the privacy of our hotel room? Are you ashamed of what we are thinking of doing, Jane? About being with a woman?"
"No Maura…I'm not ashamed to be with a woman. It's you for god sakes…how could I be ashamed to be with you…ever. It's just…it's something private…you know? It's just between the two of us."
Looking around the room one more time Jane added, "Look…there are a lot of people around here that you could choose from and I just wanted you to know that you don't have to pick me. Buuut…if you still want too, then tell me before it's time to head up to the room. I'm nervous and way out of my depth here so tell me if you want me to go home so you can be with someone else. If not then do you want to go up first and take a few minutes to get ready or should we go up and get ready together? I'm babbling now, right?"
"Jane, I don't need time to decide. I don't want you to feel pressured into this. I just want you to understand that I am ready and willing if you are. And for the record, I would like us to go up together if that's okay with you?"
"Okay then…alright." She nods to assure them both, "We're doing this."
They spent the next hour socializing with various people around the hall. That is until Maura couldn't stand it any longer. Not sure whether Jane was conscious of what she was doing or not, but her attentiveness and extra touching all evening had Maura overly horny and ready to attack. Fear setting in knowing that if she didn't calm herself down and dial it back a notch she would scare the brunette away before they even got started.
No longer caring if it was proper or even close to polite Maura leaned over in mid conversation whispering, "I'm ready to go if you are, Jane?"
Slightly shocked, Jane just nodded. They said their goodbyes and headed for the elevator.
Again, neither knowing what to do with themselves or in this situation, they both remained quiet all the way back to the room.