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Hermione quickly disarmed the man in front of her, a man she once trusted, a man she once loved. After the night in June that trust was broken, shattered, and destroyed once he killed Dumbledore. Now all she saw when looking at the man in front of her was a killer, a Death Eater, Lord Voldemort's most trusted servant.

"What do you want? Why did you come here?" Hermione whispered.

"Hermione..." He spoke weakly, he took a cautious step forward and she straightened out her arm.

"DON'T MOVE!" Severus conceded and halted in his spot, but his focus remained on Hermione.

"I am not here to hurt you," Severus raised his hand trying to show her he meant no harm, "I just want to talk, that's all."

"Talk?" She repeated, scrunching up her nose, there was a mixture of emotions surfacing upon her face. Despite her heartbeat, her mind was screaming at her not to trust him and not dare lower her wand against this dark wizard. He was everything, Harry, Sirius and everyone else was saying about him. He wasn't the person she once took him for.

"Yes, just talk. Then you will never have to see me again." He replied, "Please just talk, that's it, please Hermione." There was something different about his voice, it was abnormal and strained. He looked beyond tired then what she saw before.

"Ha, you think I'm an idiot?" Her jaw was clenched, her anger radiated off her like a fire, her eyes that were once so loving and warm were now cold and empty. It put Severus' entire body in a bind. All he could think of was that this is all his fault, he did this to her. He was exactly what he thought himself as: poison. He just destroys everything and everyone he touches, Lily and Hermione. In the end no matter what he did he always destroys someone innocent. He focused himself to look at her, to see what he had done to her, reminding himself that this is his fault.

"As soon as I let you leave, you're going to run to your precious master!" Hermione's outburst scared him into silence, either Harry was on the way or was too far away to hear her. "That's what you're going to do, don't lie to me."

"He doesn't even know I'm here."

"SHUT UP, JUST SHUT UP," she roared, she was losing her strong demeanor. Her wand was now trembling in her grasp, her teeth grinned, her breaths were deep and shaken. Burst of tears came sliding down her face. "You lied to me, to everyone, this entire time. All this time you were playing me, have I meant so little to you?"

"No, Hermione, it's not like that," He plead.

"STOP LYING!

"Hermione, please," Severus' hands were trembling, "I never meant to hurt you."

"Bullshit! I don't want to listen to anymore of your lies!"

"Hermione, please."

"STOP, just stop it you cold heartless bastard. Foul evil monster! Murderous bloody monster, Death Eater bastard!"

Severus stared at her, stumbled forward and collapsed to his knees. The moonlight shining through the forest was enough for Hermione to make out his face. Only Hermione didn't see his trademark snarl of bitterness, but instead it was a face of misery, loneliness and pain. The likes of which Hermione has never seen before.

"Please..." Severus closed his mouth, he couldn't even form words. The pain that was ripping through every bone of his body was far greater than anything that Voldemort has ever done to him in the past. What happened next shocked Hermione to her core, there kneeling not ten feet away was the coldhearted murderer of Albus Dumbledore, now sunken in a heap. Tears brewing through his eyes. In all the whole world there is no more desperate a creature than a person on the verge of losing love.

"Please..." His voice was in utter pain, as Hermione unconsciously lowered her wand. "Please... just please..." He slowly reached out his hand to her, she shuttered at the sight of it and walked back. When he saw her reaction and the look of terror in her eyes from the person he loved, his arm fell lifeless to his side. There was no point, she hated him just like everyone in the world did. He was foolish for believing that there might have been a chance.

Hermione stared blankly at the man in front of her, this has to be an act? But there is something in the way he spoke, the way he looks. She felt in her heart that he was telling the truth, but that's absurd. This man killed Dumbledore, he nearly killed George, he is a Death Eater.

"I'm sorry," Severus spoke as a man who has been through nothing but a thousand years of pain and torment, "You'll never have to see me again." He abruptly turned away from her, his head hung low as he practically crawled away and found his wand not just a few feet away. He struggled to get back up as he slowly walked away from her. He was slowly beginning to get smaller as his body disappeared in the distance. He was too ashamed to look back at her, he just left her without a glance or farewell.

Hermione panicked, he would soon be gone and she'll probably never see him again. She was still deeply hurt and enraged, but a part of her wanted so desperately to trust him. "Wait Severus, wait." Severus halted and his head slowly turned back. Everything in Hermione's head was telling her to make a run for it, get back to Harry and apparated away. She was debating back and forth to either follow him or let him go alone. But instead denied anything her head was screaming at her, she ran to him and fell into his arms as they fell to the ground.

The young witch cried in his embrace, she desperately wanted to cling on to him, but also wanted to yell and hit him.

"Hermione, I need to explain everything," He spoke in a tone more soft and gentle as she ever heard, as he smoothingly held her, "Just please hear me out."