I Swear


There's a darkness
Out there
Used to live in our tower

It's sinister,
I've heard
But the gods know I'm no coward

I've scaled this brick
Hoping
This misery of mine shall end

What I found
Might've been a trick:
A soul that I could mend

She was scared,
Alone,
Innocent?
If I had known...

A friend, she said
Perhaps a friend indeed

A flower, hidden
Is what we both would need

I'd never come back for her
At least I thought
I wouldn't

How could I be so cruel?
Not to her,
Not to anyone

I've scaled this brick
Once more
The gods know I'm no saint

The flower, I'd present
But that wasn't her intent

She took me
By the heart
Blinded by the spark

I knew
I'd made it right
But I was blinded in her dark

She was no immaculate
No flaws? No tricks?
Oh, what did I expect?

I'm human, no less
I'm flawed
I've been tricked
And I'm to blame myself,
Who else?

But me
It's me
The gods know I'm no saint

But it's me
It's my fault
So what if I'm no saint?

I'm no monster
I wouldn't leave her
She hasn't seen
A life in forever!

I'm no monster
I swear
But I've never been
So careless

What was this?
A price to pay?
For what?
For why?
I've made no mistake!

What was this?
A ploy?
That cunning little witch!
I was aiding her!
Now I'm the one she'll ditch?!

What was this?
What did I do?
What was this?
Oh, what was this?

I hear —

What was —

Is there —

Gods, no...

What's this?
Answer, witch!
What's this?
Oh, what's this?

A child?

It's sinister,
I've heard
It's sinister...

There's a child

Oh, gods,
I can't —
Wait!

Oh, no
Oh, no,
The witch has left the tower

I —

Gods...

I'm no monster
I swear
But I've never been
So careless

I swear

I swear...

I'm no monster
I can't leave her...

No, I'm no monster
I won't leave her

But wait
What's this?
I've never had this feeling

Wait
What's this?
Am I frightened?

I've never had this feeling
What's this?

Someone —
I need someone!
Help!
Someone!
I need —

What do I need?
No, I've never needed anyone

What do I need?
What do I need?
What do I —

The child
A girl
The child —
Is she mine?
I —

I put a hand on her crib...
Oh, what should I do?
She's crying
It's deafening —

She grips my finger and —
I can't breathe —
The crying stops
And she won't let go

I pry her grasp from mine —
She's crying again
Oh, what should I do?
I kneel beside her and —

I hum a little tune
She grips my finger
And the crying stops
Gods, she's beautiful

Her hand, so small
Her eyes, so blue
I hum a little tune
Oh, gods, she's beautiful

The voice in my head
Keeps repeating one word
She's mine,
It says
She's mine

Mine

Little girl, mine
Hush now
You'll be fine
I promise

Perhaps I'll be her saint
For I'm no monster
I swear
Perhaps I'll be her saint...

Perhaps I'll be her saint
Yes!
I'll leave the pirate's life
Leave no restraint
I'll cut my ties

It might be time
It might be mine

I'm human, no less
I'm flawed
I've been tricked

But all that's dead
And all that's gone
And all that's left
Is a child forgone

By her own mother
Well, not by her father
Not today
No, not ever!

There's a darkness
Out there
Leapt from the window

She's sinister,
I know
But the gods know I'm no coward

I'll raise this child as mine
And I will free her in time
This I swear
I swear

I will find a way
I swear

I've scaled this brick
Hoping
This misery of mine shall end

Though what I found
Might've been a trick,
There's a soul that I shall tend

This child,
Unnamed
My child, my daughter

A flower, hidden
Perhaps you're what I need

A flower, yes, you are
Took me by the heart

I'm here, child
I'm here
I'll never leave,
I promise

I'll never leave,
I promise

I promise,
Alice


~ Killian