I used to live alone
Author: Pammie, Pasta
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Spoilers: Tok'ra 1 & 2
Season: two
Rating: G
Summary: Jacob's thoughts on living with the Tok'ra
Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me. I make no money from them and am just borrowing them from MGM.

I used to live alone.

I had peace and quiet all the time instead of people passing my room—with no door to keep out the noise—at all hours.

Heck, even in the hospital I could at least close the door and get some quiet. I am used to the lack of privacy because of the hospital. Nurses came in at all hours.

"Good morning, General. I hope you had a good rest. Time for your medicine."

"I need to take your vitals, General."

"I need to take some blood, General."

Lack of privacy is one thing, but the noise! Not a second goes by without someone making noise outside my room. And at all hours!

Another noise out in the hall makes me pull the pillow over my head with a groan. Selmak offers her help in getting me to sleep but I decline. I used to live alone there as well.

I get up and walk to the wide doorway and watch them walk back and forth for several minutes. The crystal walls reverberate with their voices.

How can they stand it!

I run a hand over my head, trying to block out the noise.

I'll just have to get used to it.

But now, oh! I'll never get any sleep!

Back in the bed, I curl up and close my eyes. With a sparkle of laughter at my predicament, Selmak offers once again to help me sleep. This time I take her up on the offer. As I drift off, the noise still reverberates with Selmak's gentle voice in my head.

I don't think I'll ever get used to the noise.

To think, I chose this life.

To think, I used to live alone.