"Stop your primping or we'll never get there" Nick said from the bottom of the stairs. He and his twin brother Christian and I had just gotten back from spending a year abroad. Upon coming home I had moved in with my other cousin Monica their sister near my real father and sister Charlie and Bella Swan. Charlie was the chief of police in Forks , we found out he was my father not long after my parents moved the family here. That was when I met Jacob Black, he was eighteen when I met him while I was twelve. I thought he was the most handsome man I had ever seen, and always did from then on.

He had always been sweet , when I tagged along with my brother Ryan and the twins he didn't mind and I would help in the garage or with snacks in the house. We weren't close then , not till I was a little older . When I was fifteen was when we grew closer, a dance and losing my mom and brother. He held me tight while I screamed for them forgetting his own pain to help me with mine. The twins took over looking after me for awhile after that and that to more time with Jake , he knew my pain all to well after loosing his own mother long before I ever met him.

Then a few months after their deaths dad picked me up from school with all of our things packed and moved us in with his brother and family in Montana. After about four months he wasn't getting any better so he ran off .We all tried to contact him , but never got through. It wasn't until just before the trip overseas that we finally found out about him , and the news wasn't good. He was very sick in a hospital in San Diego California dying . He had quit literally drunk himself to death and did drugs too. But he died reconciled with me and his brother who came along when I went to see him before I left. I almost didn't go , but he told me not to put it off to do it for him, for mom and Ryan. He told me how sorry he was for not being there for me , that he was proud of who I had become , and that like always I looked so much like mom and that she would be proud too. I cried when he died and held his hand . When we got back the twins were waiting for me with my bags and we left from there going all over .

I missed Jake terribly while I was away, and was heartbroken both when he was married and when she died. He had already had enough heartbreak to last a lifetime , we both had.

With a sigh I stopped primping as the toadies put it and shrugged on my light tan leather jacket over my v-neck grey t-shirt I had paired with dark skinny jeans and grey del Rey sneakers . My hair J shoulder blade length and with a few layers dark brown with caramel bayalage highlights and my glasses medium green and wide framed geek chic. They didn't exactly match my eyes but I liked them . I put on my rose gold iwatch and my rose gold heart necklace and ring . My ears adorned with four earrings starting at the lobe and a little up the shell starting with a blue shimmery mermaid scale one , then a feather ,a dark blue stud , and a shell.Deeming myself ready I jogged downstairs and met my cousins in the hall.

"You finally ready princess" Christian smirked making kissing noises . I shoved him in the shoulder with an eye roll "as a matter a fact I am jerkface" I told him primly and went out the door with them following me. "You know we may not see him at all , we're going to the beach not his house or even anyone he knows" Nick pointed out. "You never know Nicki , we might just get lucky" I quipped winking . We piled into my nineteen ninety nine Black Jeep Wrangler and I blasted my favorite classic rock station and headed for the beach.

When we got there I was happy to see that it wasn't crowded and put on my grey lens aviator sunglasses folding my regulars in my shirt collar. As we walked I put my iPhone X in my back pocket .

There were a few small gatherings as we walked along, you'd have to be stupid to not take advantage of a nicer day around here. Further along I saw some locals , a few sat on driftwood that had been placed around fire pits others tossed around a football. I went to some drift wood not far from them when my cousins decided to go flirt with some girls further down and decided to watch the waves for a bit and took my jacket off.

"Whatcha doing over here all by yourself Sweetheart?" A deep familiar voice asked running a warm finger slowly down my arm. "Sweetheart? How many girls have heard that line Embry Call"I said turning to smile at him. His eyes widened and he looked as though he hadn't changed much other than packing on some muscle to his more lithe frame. "Andy?" He asked shocked as he looked for fifteen year old me in my older features. "In the flesh" I smiled and he hugged me making me laugh as he swung me around "put me down , you big oaf!"I chuckled , and he did and took my arm "come on wait till Jake sees you" he said walking me over to his group of friends. "Hey guys look who came home" he said and chuckled when Quil spun me around like he just had "Hi Quilicious , How've you been" I joked . He chuckled "good to see you to Andy"he grinned in his impish way. "Andy?" A voice I'd know anywhere asked .

I turned around and saw him , the years had only made him more handsome than the last . And like the other two he had packed on muscle to his tall frame . "Yeah it's me Jake" I said nervously . He looked at me like he had never seen me before , his eyes looking over me searching for my childish features with shocked eyes "well aren't you gonna give me a hug" I chuckled pushing my sunglasses up unto my head . He snapped out of it and smiled bringing me into a hug and spinning me around "Oh Andy , I missed you around here" he whispered into my hair by my ear. "Missed you to Jake , and I'm sorry I wasn't here" I whispered back , he held me a little tighter putting the his chin on my collar bone so his lips were close to my neck . I fought the urge to shiver , he didn't need that now. "Me too honey, I heard about your dad" he told me . He held me for a little more letting out a sigh before letting me go .

"Jeeze Andy you grew up on me " he said smiling brighter . "Not that much by you sky scrapers, what's in the water down here" I quipped . "It's all in the genes Tinker Bell" he chuckled making me roll my eyes. "But seriously you really grew up Andy" he said , "I'll say" Embry leered with a smirk and raised brows. "Watch it Casanova" I smacked looking around Jake's torso to glare at him. "She's not as dainty and feminine as she looks man" I heard Christian say and spun around "screw you, you butt faced miscreant. I'm dainty as ever!"I said shoving his arm. Jake chuckled grabbing my waist and towed me away "woah there cowgirl" he laughed "sheesh your still such a spitfire" . "I just grew up Jake , I didn't change much otherwise" I told him softly . "Yeah I'm starting to see that" he told me softly .

We ended up joining their little get together. I was pulled from Jake's side "Andy!"I heard three guys say from around me as I was lifted high in the air and spun around. I shrieked and laughed clutching at the broad shoulders of whoever held me captive. "Put her down Clearwater and give me a turn" one of the guys said. "Seth?" I laughed as he set me down keeping a hold on my waist . "The one and only" he chuckled , the next to spin me around was Brady who just picked me up while Collin Jake's cousin and the same age as me spun me around and snuck a sneaky smooch to my jaw making me blush and laugh in shock. "Glad to see you haven't changed much Colli" I chuckled , it was good to see my three best buddy's.

Nick mysteriously came back with my guitar I had put in the Jeep in hopes of meeting up . I ended up tucked between Chris and Collin at first while Jake hung out with Nick and Embry. Pulling out my guitar I thought of the song I wanted to play and smiled before starting.

Take a seat

Right over there, sat on the stairs

Stay or leave

The cabinets are bare and I'm unaware

Of just how we got into this mess

Got so aggressive

I know we meant

All good intentions

So pull me closer

Why don't you pull me close

Why don't you come on over

I can't just let you go

Oh baby

Why don't you just meet me in the middle

I'm losing my mind just a little

So why don't you just meet me in the middle

In the middle

Baby

Why don't you just meet me in the middle

I'm losing my mind just a little

So why don't you just meet me in the middle

In the middle

Take a step

Back for a minute, into the kitchen

Floors are wet

And taps are still running, dishes are broken

How did we get into this mess

Got so aggressive

I know we meant

All good intentions

So pull me closer

Why don't you pull me close

Why don't you come on over

I can't just let you go

Baby

Why don't you just meet me in the middle

I'm losing my mind just a little

So why don't you just meet me in the middle

In the middle

Looking at you I can't lie

Just pouring out admission

Regardless my objection

And it's not about my pride

I need you on my skin just

Come over, pull me in just

Oh, Baby

Why don't you just meet me in the middle

I'm losing my mind just a little

So why don't you just meet me in the middle

In the middle, no no

Baby

Why don't you just meet me in the middle

I'm losing my mind just a little

So why don't you just meet me in the middle

In the middle

Baby

Why don't you just meet me in the middle

Baby, I'm losing my mind just a little

So why don't you just meet me in the middle, middle

In the middle, middle

I could feel everyone's eyes on me as I sang, but I could only think of one person that this song was for . He in question looked at me like I had grown a third head or something , I thought he'd known I could sing ; I always have . Or maybe it was my voice change , I sure as heck didn't sound like the fifteen year old who sang to old rock and pop songs in his garage. Seth came next out of no where with an old CD player declaring me off duty in favor of being able to dance.

He took the first turn pulling me out on the sand and held me to his chest , he grew up. I used to braid their hair while watching stupid movies or to get their hair out of the way when working on cars. They were all always taller than me, but now it was even more apparent along with toned lean muscles on them all. "Montana did you some good, gave you some color" Collin told me spinning me away from Seth and into his arms. "Yeah I finally got myself a tan" I chuckled , he looked over my face smiling softly with a chuckle "and even more freckles" he noted eyeing my nose and under my eyes .

Embry took his turn cutting in and spinning me from Collin with a flourish. "Hello again" I laughed as he pulled me in. "So tell me Sweetheart , just how many broken hearts did you leave behind" he asked raising a dark brow. Before I could answer Nick and Christian started " well lets see . There was that English grad student in London, what was his name Andy?" Chris asked me smirking , "Randal, and all he did was get me coffee" I said . Nick rolled his eyes while Chris looked at me dubiously "right ... Then there was Luca in Rome ..." " he was a total sleaze ,I wouldn't have touched him with a ten foot pole" I interrupted. "And Dimitri in Russia" Nick added "Okay I'll give you that one. Dimka was a sweet one" I smiled . Embry raised his brow at me smirking , I rolled my eyes "all he did was show us around a little" . "He gave you a pet name mishka " Chris added making me groan . "And what about Riley in Australia" , "he was just a surf buddy" I said gritting my teeth , "Mhm ... what was that he called her Nick?" Chris asked . Nick grinned widely " Lofty" , "for Peet's sake you two" I sighed emphatically making them shut up. Embry chuckled into the top of my head making me scowl till another pair of hands interrupted.

Jake laughed softly at my expression pulling me close . "Not you too" I groaned, "sounds like your not seeing yourself clearly" he said . I shrugged "or I'm oblivious, but I think their exaggerating a bit" I said "not like any of them would've worked out anyway, we only stayed for a little while in each place" . Jake spun me out and back in "you didn't have anyone in Montana?" He asked frowning, I shook my head "no" I told him quietly . He eyed me carefully making me squirm internally , "I'm just waiting for the right one" I told him. He nodded pulling me close and kissed the top of my head making me swallow hard before passing me to Quil . He chuckled as Quil pulled me up and passed me to Embry. We danced for a while , and I genuinely had a good time ; I just wished for more time with Jake . Patience I told myself wondering if he'd ever let me in.

'Damn Sweetheart you've got it bad" he sighed holding me close . "What?" I asked peering up at his smiling face. "You've been in love with him all this time haven't you?"he asked quietly. I nodded swallowing as I watched the guy in question. "It was really bad Andy, he wasn't Jake anymore for a while. He barely ate, or smiled . He was just a shell of himself going through the motions, and he didn't have fun anymore" he told me and spun me out and back in . "I'm not trying to discourage you ,but I don't want you to get hurt either" he said seriously . "He's been like a brother to me all our lives and I want nothing more than for him to get better". Then he tucked my bangs back from my face, "just don't let him take you down with him if he doesn't get passed this" he told me . "He was there for me every time but my dad. Now it's my turn to be there for him" I said emphatically. He gave me a sad smile "If anyone can do it , it's you" he told me

Not long after our dance it was decided that the party would disperse given the late hour. My iPhone had been passed around so now I had everyone's numbers again. Jake like when I first arrived was one of the last to say goodbye . I smiled over Seth's shoulder at him , and as soon as Seth set me down I was in his arms . I might have been imagining it but I felt his nose at my neck and he breathed deeply hugging me tight with my feet way off the ground .When he set me down we looked at each other smiling softly and I chose the words that I always said "see ya around Jake" I said softly . He chuckled at my choice of words and nodded "see you soon Andy" he told me and waved. And I couldn't stop smiling all the way home.