Masked

Disclaimer: Inuyasha and friends belong to their respective owners.

Note: First published April 26th, 2003. Song lyrics removed May 14th, 2005 to comply with new policy. The fic itself sucks regardless, and will be de-suckified once I'm done with this cold/school/bout of writers block/all of the above.

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Inuyasha.

Strong, brave Inuyasha.

Inuyasha: he's above petty human feelings such as pain, loneliness, love...

But that's just a mask. And when you've known him as long as I have, it's pretty easy to see through.

I know he feels pain, regret, hope, loneliness, fear, love...just like the rest of us.

He can save us all from the worst kinds of demons imaginable...but he wouldn't be able to save himself from, well, himself, even if his life depended on it.

And what will he do when he finally realizes that?

He likes to think no one can see inside. Most of the time, I'll humor him, pretend I don't know what he feels or thinks. And sometimes, he's so confusing I honestly don't know what he's thinking. Inuyasha likes to be brave on the outside, but it's obvious sometimes he's terrified of the unknown - just like us.

He thinks no one can hear his silent screams.

But I can.

Someday it will become too much, enough to break even Inuyasha.

And who will be there when that happens?

What about me, Inuyasha? I know that compared to Kikyo, I'm nothing...but I want to be more to you than just a shard-detector...

You can't let go of the pain until you recognize it...

I want to help you, Inuyasha; won't you please let me?

You're not even speaking and I can hear you clear as day, but you wouldn't be able to hear me if I screamed in your face.

Is it clear enough that you can't live your whole life all alone?

You can't keep running, Inuyasha. Because someday, it will all catch up to you. And you'll be left with no one.

I understand that you're scared of being hurt again. But that's no reason to shut out everyone...

You have no one, Inuyasha. There is not one who will save you from yourself. No one understands you, hears you, wants to save you, protect you...

No one...except me.