Taste of captivity

Warnings/notes : Treize/Wufei, Treize pov

Disclaimer : I don't own Gundam Wing.

written at 13th april 2003, by Misura

written after watching the episode in which Treize faces the Romefeller-council on the matter of the mobile dolls, pleading they souldn't be used to fight the war.

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Don't you think it is ironic?

The two of us, both imprisoned by the same persons.

A pity we are so far apart ; maybe a shared captivity would have given us some opportunity to talk and get to know eachother a little better.

Though your fellow pilots might not have agreed to that.

I have heard about them.

One of them seems to have gone missing, a heavy loss to you no doubt.

Do not think I mock you if I say I understand how you are feeling.

I too have lost friends, comrades to this war.

I have grieved for them, at the proper time and comforted those they had left behind, as is my duty as the commander who gave them their last orders.

Now, on my own, with too much time on my hands, I wonder how they remember me.

Could I ever truly take some of their own sadness away?

Did the words I spoke sound sincere to them?

I consider myself reasonably talented with words. And yet I failed in this one thing that might be quite important to the future of Earth, OZ and everything else.

Did it amuse you when you heard of my imprisonment?

Did it bring a small smile to your lips perhaps?

You didn't struck me as the kind of person to smile often.

I cannot deny though that the thought of having made you do so means something to me.

An accomplishment, however small.

Perhaps the last thing of any importance I will do.

I have become a liability now that I am no longer useful as the leader of their army.

Now that they have dolls to replace human soldiers.

They will twist everything.

They will destroy all that humankind has created over the centuries.

My words couldn't stop them, while I was convinced they would.

Arrogance, my downfall.

Is this what you would call Justice?

Do you think your own captivity a punishment for something you have done?

I prefer to see it as the result of a failure.

I failed to convince Romefeller of my right and you failed to keep from being captured.

Neither of us should accept that.

Personally I have little opportunity to do anything about it, but you, with your friends should be able to find a way out.

It's good to have friends, even if you risk dragging them down with you if you ever fall.

I did that, you know.

I wished I could have told them not to do it, to let go of me.

I failed, so the price is mine to pay also. Not theirs.

I will grieve for those who have died because of me.

Somehow their loss weighs heavier on me than any previous loss.

Perhaps that is because of the uselessness of their deaths.

Should you ever die, make sure it is for a cause.

I will try to, but I'm not sure if I will be given the chance.

Sorry if that sounded a bit bitter ; it must be the weather around here.

Yes, I admit my mood has been rather depressed recently.

Like you, I have never been a person to smile very often.

I promise you one thing though.

On the day I hear of your escape I will smile.

And on that day, if I never do so again, I will believe in Justice.

~OWARI [I think it is anyway]~