What might have been
Warnings/notes : Nakago/Tamahome, AU (duh!)
Disclaimer : I don't own Fushigi Yugi.
written at 18th march 2003, by Misura
"Don't you ever wonder what might have been?"
"If we hadn't met, you mean?"
"Well, more or less."
"Let me rephrase that then : if we hadn't became lovers?"
"Yes, that's what I meant to ask."
"Why, you're blushing! Don't tell me you're still not quite sure about us!"
"I am, I am! Only ... "
"What would the others say if they knew I was well ... "
"Sleeping with the enemy?"
"In love with a guy."
"Does my gender really bother you that much? More than who I am?"
"No, but ... wouldn't it bother them?"
"Why would it? Did any of them ever say something to make you think that?"
"No. That doesn't mean anything though."
"Does anyone of them have a girlfriend? ... You're blushing again. Was my question that embarrassing? I didn't think it would be."
"It's not that. It's just that only now I realize I hardly know the people I fight side to side with. I have no idea if any of them has that kind of attachment."
"Hmm. Well, if it's any comfort, the same goes for me. If Soi ever got a steady boyfriend I'm sure I'd be the last to know. I almost hope she does."
"Why? You said you didn't care about her!"
"Correction : I said I had no romantic feelings for her. That's not the same. Caring about a person doesn't mean being in love with that person. I mean, you care about Tasuki, Chichiro and the others, right?"
"Yeah, but that's different."
"Because Soi happens to be female?"
"But why her, in particular?"
"Because of all people I know, Soi is the one who has fewest chances in life, and least love."
"Hm. I stil don't like her, though."
"Liking her is not required of you. Just don't envy her for something she doesn't even have."
"I've seen her looking at you."
"As I have seen Miaka looking at you."
"It's not the same."
"She was ... is my Miko."
"But seriously, do you ever wonder what might have been if we had remained enemies?"
"I would have killed you and your friends and my Miko would have been victorious over yours. Then - "
"What?! You never would have won!"
"No! My side is much stronger than yours. And we are good, while you are evil. The good always win, everybody knows that."
"Tamahome ... "
"Nakago ... "
"I love you. Let's not argue over this."
"I was only asking."
"Don't think that what may be is more important than what might have been?"
"You always want to be right, don't you?"
"That's because I usually *am*."
"Not in this. If we wouldn't have fallen in love, I would have killed you."
"All by yourself?"
"With help from my friends."
"Then I suppose I should count myself lucky."
"So am I. Having you makes me the luckiest person in the world."
Tamahome sighed, then smiled as he turned his head to look at Nakago.
As their heads came closer together and their lips touched, he felt all thoughts of the present that might have been slipping from his mind.
It was enough to have present that was.
~OWARI [I think it is anyway]~