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I remember Jacob Black, my childhood friend.
I remember when I said goodbye to him when we were eight. And I haven't seen him since.
"Jake, my dad said I'm not going to see you anymore." I told him glumly.
"That's crazy! We're best friends!" Jake proclaimed.
"I know but I'm moving with my mom tomorrow. She said I'm not going to come back for a long time." Tears ran down my cheeks.
"It's OK, Bells. We'll see each other soon. I know you'll come back." Jake hugged me.
"Thanks, Jake. But what if I don't? Will you forget me?" I asked.
"No, Bella! I never will! You're my best friend!" Jake recited.
"OK. But just in case..." I gave him my charm bracelet I always wore. It wasn't too girly, so I knew he'd like it. Most of the charms were a gold, but there were a few in a light, lavender blue. I even added a new charm just for him. It said "I Love You" on the front and "Best Friends" on the back. I made those especially for him with a special wood my dad gave me.
Jake, in return, gave me his black braided bracelet he made a couple years ago. It was his favorite, too.
"I'll miss you Jake!" I cried as I hugged him tightly.
"I'll miss you too, Bells. You're my best friend. And you will always be. Forever and always."Jake swore.
"Forever and Always." I promised.
Get back in reality, Bella! I yelled at myself. I slowly packed my things. I was moving back to Forks. Renée, my mom, died a few weeks ago. In a car crash. I was old enough to live alone, but I didn't want to.
I was also scared to go back. What if Jake left? What if he forgot me? No. He couldn't.
I packed all my last minute stuff and drove to the airport. On the whole flight there, I didn't eat, drink, or sleep. I played with the bracelet Jacob gave me. Does he still miss me like I miss him? Is he waiting to see me? I couldn't get in contact with him, so he didn't know I was coming. I just wanted to jump into his arms and never leave.
I wanted to know so bad if we'd ever meet again...
I know it was 10 years ago, but is it wrong that I still miss Bella Swan?
I looked down at the bracelet she had given me. Its almost all I had of her. I had framed a picture she drew of both of us together when we were younger.
I wanted her to knock on my door and jump into my arms. I want to hug her with all I have in me. I wondered if she felt the same. I had friends, yes, but it wasn't the same without Bella. With her laughing at me with her warm smile, the breeze brushing her beautiful, brown hair back.
I wanted to see her so bad. I'd pay anything to have My Bells back. Anything. I mean it.
I was thinking about Jacob and our memories so hard that I didn't notice I was crying.
"Ma'am? Are you OK?" A boy about my age sitting beside me asked.
"Yeah. I'm sorry. I was just thinking. Thanks." I smiled as warmly as I could.
"You can talk to me, you know. I've been through a lot. My parents both died a month ago. I'm going to live with my aunt and uncle." The boy said.
"Thanks. I'm sorry for what happened. I'm going to live with my dad. My mom died not too long ago. My parents divorced when I was young." I said without tears.
"Why were you crying?" He asked.
"Well, I had this friend. I loved him. We said we'd always be together. I haven't seen him in 10 years." The tears finally fell. "He gave me this bracelet. I'm wondering if he misses me or if he forgot me."
"I'm sure he didn't. Even I think I won't forget you. What's your name?" The boy asked.
"I'm Isabella Swan. But you can call me Bella." I smiled.
"Bella. I'm Edward Mason Cullen." He held out his hand.
I shook his hand. "Thank you."
"Anytime. Would it be OK if we still talked to each other? Like texting or calling?" Edward asked.
I smiled. "I'd like that."
We exchanged phone numbers and talked through the flight. When we departed, I hugged him.
"Good Luck!" Edward said.
"Thanks." I smiled.
Edward Mason Cullen gave me the confidence I needed and I knew that Jacob probably does miss me.
I got to Charlie's house and we talked for a while. He was upset about Renée but he was happy I was here. I was cooking up dinner when the doorbell rung.
"I'll get it." I told dad.
"Thanks, Bella." Dad smiled.
I opened the door. I saw a tall, russet skinned man with a white shirt and black pants. I knew who this was! I looked at his wrist and saw my bracelet!
"Jake!" I launched myself in his arms.
"Bells!" Jake shouted.
I wrapped my legs around his waist and kissed his chest repeatedly. Jake hugged me tightly and buried his face in my hair. He kissed my hair while we both cried.
"Jake! I missed you! I love you!" I said into his chest.
"Bella! I missed you. So much! I never want to let you go!" Jake said.
"Jake." I kept repeating his name. My Jake. He was really here!
"Bella. Bells. My Bella." Jake said.
"Jake. My Jake. You're here. You're really here." I said.
"Hi, Jake. Uh, am I interrupting something?" We jumped at Charlie's voice.
I got down to my legs, but Jake kept an arm around my waist.
"No. We just missed each other." Jake smiled.
"Want to join us for dinner?" Charlie asked.
"Sure, sure." Jake said, still looking at me.
"Come on in."
We walked in. I continued to cook dinner while Jake watched me. I didn't hate it. Jake and I wanted to make sure we were real.
"You can go upstairs for a while so you can talk." Charlie offered.
Jake and I jumped up and ran to my room. We sat down on my bed in my nearly finished room.
"I missed you, Jake." I sat his his lap, close to his face.
"Bella. My Bella." Jake mumbled before he unexpectedly pressed his lips to mine.
I wrapped my arms around his neck to deepen the kiss. Jake leaned back and pulled me on top of him. I granted his tongue permission to my mouth as Jake put his arms around my waist.
"Bella! I'm sorry! I didn't mean anything! I don't know what came over me." Jake apologized when he pulled away.
"Its OK. I don't know why, but I enjoyed it!" I pressed my lips to his again.
"I did too." He mumbled against my lips.
"Bella! Jake! Dinners ready!" Charlie called.
"We'll be down in a minute!" I shouted down at him.
Jake and I continued kissing for a while longer before I got off of Jake and pulled him downstairs.
When we finished dinner, I decided to ask dad something.
"Dad? Can Jake sleep in my room tonight?" I asked.
"Alright, Bella, but you guys better not have se -"
"Dad! We're friends. Not newlyweds." I cut him off.
"OK. Have a good night." Charlie went to his room. Minutes later, we heard snoring.
"Come on!" I pulled Jake up to my room.
While Bella changed into a small tank top with mini shorts, I stripped down to my boxers. Bella wouldn't mind because we're only sleeping together as friends. I hope it'll soon be more.
I kissed Bella as I pulled her on top of me. We kissed until Bella fell asleep. I stared up at the sky, wondering what I had done to deserve the angel in my arms.
I kissed her neck, along her jaw, and her wrist that held my bracelet while she slept. I looked at the charm bracelet Bells had given me a decade ago. I should've fought harder for her. I should've known Bella meant what she said when she told me she wouldn't come back for a long time. I should've begged Billy to take me to see her. I was too young to understand my love for Bella. Even then, I'm sure I loved her as more than a friend.
"Bella. I love you." I spoke to her softly, knowing she was asleep.
My love for Bella was strong. I felt so stupid for letting her go so easily.
"My Jacob." Bella mumbled in her sleep.
"I'm yours, Bella." I spoke to her.
"I love you." She said in her sleep.
"I love you, too, Bella."
Bella saying my name over and over in her sleep caused me to fall asleep.
When I woke up at 9:30 A.M., I saw Bella, asleep, lying across my chest.
Oh, how I loved this girl.
"Bella." I called to her softly.
"Jake?" She sat up in bed.
"Hey, Bella." I greeted her.
Bella threw herself into my arms and began to cry.
"I wasn't dreaming. You're here." Bella sobbed.
"Shh, Bella. Its OK. Don't cry. I'm never leaving you again. I promise." I held her.
"Thank you." Bella kissed me as she dried her tears.
Bella and I got changed as she cooked up breakfast. It smelled delicious. Then, her phone rang.
"Hello?" I asked.
"Bella?" Edward asked.
"Oh! Hi,Edward!" I answered.
"Hi, Bella! How'd it go with your friend?" Edward asked.
"Good!Thanks! How's your family?" I asked.
"Its good. They're nice and all." Edward said.
"That's good. I hope everything's OK. I actually had an idea." I said.
"What is it?" Edward inquired.
"We should all see each other. You can meet my friend." I said.
"Yeah,thats a good idea. I can't wait to see who's your friend who didn't stay in contact with such a beautiful girl." Edward said.
I giggled. "Be nice."
"Sorry! Should we meet up at the Café at 1?" Edward asked.
"Yes! Bye!" I told him.
"Bye." Edward said softly. I hung up.
"Who was that?" Jake asked.
"A friend. You'll meet him later at one." I said.
"OK. Want to go to my house for a bit?" Jake asked.
"Yeah." I have him his food. "I'm going to go change."
Jake nodded and began to eat his food.
I went to my room and changed into a silky red t shirt with ripped jeans. I put my hair in a ponytail and put a bit of make up on.
"Bye, Dad! Breakfast is downstairs! I'm going out!" I called out to Charlie.
"You look sexy,Bella." Jake said. He stared at me in awe.
"Thanks, Jake! You do too." I laughed.
Jake walked me to his sparkling white Tesla.
"Jake, are you rich or something? This car looks new." I said.
"I am not rich." He rolled his eyes. "And this is new."
I shrugged and got in.
"So, who am I going to meet?" Jake asked.
"My friend. His name is Edward Mason Cullen." I said.
Jake stiffined when he heard he was meeting a boy I knew.
"Relax, Jake. He's not my boyfriend or anything." I said.
Jake and I hung out at his house for a while. I saw Billy again, saw Jake's cars he was working on, and we even kissed a little. OK! A lot! Then, Jake drove to the café.
"Just so you know, I am not going to introduce you as my boyfriend. He knows you as my Best Friend." I said as I played with the charm bracelet on his wrist.
"Bella!" Jake whined at the fact that I wasn't going to introduce him as my boyfriend.
"Jake. Its too early for us to go out. Be patient." I rubbed his arm soothingly.
"Bella. I've waited 10 fucking years for you to at least kiss me. And yes, i wanted to kiss you when I was 8. I really love you, but I can't wait longer." Jake said.
I sighed and pulled my hands away from him. I put my head in my hands. "I already apologized for being a fucking idiot for leaving with Renée. What else do you want from me? If you want another apology, just ask. Don't bring up my fucking past mistakes. I was an idiot to leave you alone. I don't know what else to do, and it makes it worse when you bring up the time I left you. I could've done something! Anything! But I sat there, acting like the little bitch I am and leaving."
Tears streamed down my cheeks and made my make up run. You could obviously tell I was crying.
"Fuck, Bella. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel bad. I was just upset." Jake apologized.
"Its alright." I said. I still continued to silently cry.
When we arrived, I hugged Edward and kissed him on the cheek. He looked shocked to see me with obvious marks I was crying.
"Edward! This is Jacob Black. Jake, this is Edward Cullen. " I said as enthusiastic as I could.
Jake and Edward shook hands and then Edward faced me.
"Bella? Were you crying?" He asked concerned.
"No!" I said. I got out a mirror and wiped my make up away.
"I did not just see that." Edward rolled his eyes.
"Give me a minute." I said as I rushed to the bathroom to wipe my face off.
"What happened to Bella, Jacob? " Edward asked.
I sighed. "I fucked up."
"What'd you do?" He asked.
"I got into a fight with her and mentioned her leaving with her mom we were 8. It was 10 years ago. She started to cry because she blamed herself for splitting us up. Bella called herself a bitch for not begging her parents to stay with me." I told him.
"You should talk to her." Edward said.
"On her plane ride here, she was crying because she thought you forgot about her. She was staring at bracelet." Edward said.
"I know I missed her badly, too. But what happened is not just her fault. I should've begged my dad to take me and see her in Florida. I should've asked her father for a way to contact her, but I didn't. I was too scared to see if she forgot both made mistakes, but Bella thinks they were all hers."
Bella walked back to the table and sat down.
"Bella, about earlier -"
"Let's not talk about that." She said.
We sat in silence other than when we ordered and received it.
"How's your family been, Edward?" Bella asked.
"Nice. They've helped me a lot. You should go meet them one day." Edward said.
"That sounds nice. I'll tell you when I have a free day."
"Sounds good." Edward said.
Bella looked so hot. I really wanted to kiss her right now. I'd have some time alone with her when she went to go see my family.
Yes, I was also worried about her and Jacob's relationship, but I also wanted to improve ours.
If Bella didn't feel the same way as I did, I wouldn't force her into it. I'd much rather be her friend than nothing.
Bella and I talked with Jacob joining in until it was time for them to go.
"Bye, Edward!" Bella hugged me and kissed my cheek.
"Bye, Bella." I told her. "Bye, Jacob."
I watched Jacob walk away with Bella, with an arm around her waist.
Were they more than friends? Was my chance with Bella gone? I wanted answers to my questions.