It has been more than a year since I lasted updated on this website. It is partially due to the strange (and worse) posting system of FFN as I have started off posting on AO3 and was more familiar with it. However, there was a bigger issue that I kept silent for this long period of time, and I would finally like to share with all of you today.
This is the first ever fanfiction that I have ever written, and it is purely driven by my love of Harry Potter and Tsume Yuki's wonderful story. I, like most fanfiction writers, do this at our own leisure without any compensation except for 1) the fulfillment of putting our thoughts on paper and 2) receiving feedback from readers.
Since the very first chapter, I have moderated my comments. It was for my own sake to not have extremely rude, insulting, and unproductive reviews to appear on my story. And most of the time, the reviews were positive or filled with constructive criticisms - both of which I love. However, as I posted more chapters and gained a larger readership, the darker part of the internet reared its ugly head.
I accept that there are flaws in my writing. In fact, there were many reviews that critiqued my writing in a harsh but fair manner (and there were plenty of those) upon which I had matured and grown as a writer. Of course, the words stung my pride when I first read them, but I always learnt to appreciate them upon subsequent reads. I also never deleted any of those comments because a bruised amateur writer's ego was not grounds to delete a fair comment.
However, there were other reviews that none of you had ever seen except for me. They were hurtful and deeply personal remarks against me or my work. It was bothering me enough that I started to lose interest in writing. At the end, it was such a burden that I asked my friends to filter through the reviews on my behalf so I would not have to read them.
I write because I like to write, and I did not sign up for all this toxicity. So I ultimately decided to withdraw from FFN and remove myself from this negative environment.
Some might say this is such a snowflake behaviour, but to put it bluntly, I don't owe anyone anything. I am a centred person with a fulfilling life who happens to take up writing as a hobby and also happens to share it with the internet. To stop posting on FFN was never going to be a loss for me, and it wasn't.
To all the loyal readers who have been let down by my unannounced absence, I would like to sincerely apologize and thank you for your unwavering support. I know you are the majority of my readership and I do treasure your support and love for this story. The fact that a fringe, vocal minority spoiled this rapport continues to sadden me. But I had to do what was best for me at the time and I hope you will understand.
And finally, thank you for reading to the end of this message. I did (and will) continue to update on my AO3 and Chapter 55 is the newest update under the same title and username. I will never be updating here again but I would love to have those of you who love this story to continue your journey with me at AO3.