Good 4 You

Well good for you, I guess you moved on really easily
You found a new girl and it only took a couple weeks

Amber had been sure that their breakup was only temporary. Alfie and her were meant to be together! He was her bloody soulmate! When he had originally broached the topic of breaking up, she was sure that he had simply been joking. Alfie always played such strange pranks... but he had been serious.

Remember when you said that you wanted to give me the world

Amber had been shocked when she realized that he had been serious! This was Alfie! He adored her!

He was the same sweet little boy who had shared his ice cream with her when Mara had knocked Amber's onto the ground. The same boy who wrote her funny rap songs to feel better. The boy who played the role King Tut and took her to the Prom! He didn't love her anymore?!

And good for you, I guess that you've been working on yourself
I guess that therapist I found for you, she really helped

After everything that had happened last year with his hospitalization and the cult, Amber recommended that Alfie see a therapist. She had been seeing one since she was seven and her parents divorced. She knew the benefits of talking to someone and wanted to help Alfie get better.

Now you can be a better man for your brand new girl

Who the fuck was Piper?!

Well good for you
You look happy and healthy, not me

Amber wasn't suffering under the delusion that she was taking the breakup well. Which was a good thing, since her shrink was busy enough with her other trauma already.

If you ever cared to ask

It hurt that Alfie wanted to distance himself from her. Even in Sibuna meetings he would stick close to Patricia and avoid Amber at all costs.

Good for you
You're doing great out there without me, baby
God, I wish that I could do that

Amber knew that it would be so much easier to just find a new boy. She had tried that before though and knew it wouldn't help her in the long run. After James was Philip, then Adam and then Mick. Amber had never really been single before, and she didn't like it. This time hurt more though... she guessed because the love had actually been real.

I've lost my mind
I've spent the night
Crying on the floor of my bathroom

Nina was a godsend. If it wasn't for her Amber was sure that she would have never gotten up off the bathroom floor the first time Alfie had pushed the issue. She had taken her bag back from him and had tossed a teasing "no" over her shoulder, all the while keeping up a carefree charade as her heart raced uncontrollably.

She made a break for the nearest bathroom once she was out of his sight and collapsed in shock and despair.

But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it
But I guess good for you

How could he be so ok? Didn't he miss her?

Well good for you, I guess you're getting everything you want
You bought a new car and your career's really taking off
It's like we never even happened, baby
What the fuck is up with that?

Alfie was somehow able to play off like everything was fine. His magic tricks delighted the house, and he got the solo in choir. Amber was happy that his talent was finally being recognized, she just wished she was able to celebrate with him!

And good for you, it's like you never even met me
Remember when you swore to God I was the only
Person who ever got you
Well, screw that and screw you
You will never have to hurt the way you know that I do

She wasn't mean enough to wish her pain on him... but this just fucking sucked. She swore that she had cried more in these past few weeks than she had ever cried over Mick and the boys before.

Well good for you
You look happy and healthy, not me
If you ever cared to ask
Good for you
You're doing great out there without me, baby
God, I wish that I could do that

Was it really so bad that she wanted to be loved? Why did everyone leave her... her mother, father, nannies, boyfriends. Alfie had promised to never hurt her, but it seems that promises were made to be broken.

I've lost my mind
I've spent the night
Crying on the floor of my bathroom
But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it
But I guess good for you

She didn't want to see him cry, but gods! Would it kill him to show a little emotion?!

Maybe I'm too emotional
But your apathy's like a wound in salt

It burned to see him with Piper as if she had never existed at all. What did Patricia 2.0 have that she didn't?

Maybe I'm too emotional
Or maybe you never cared at all

What she feared the most was that their relationship meant nothing to him. They had been friends before they dated... right? She thought longingly about sharing ice cream and sleeping bag races and Sibuna camp outs. Why wouldn't he acknowledge her?

Maybe I'm too emotional
Your apathy's like a wound in salt
Maybe I'm too emotional
Or maybe you never cared at all

She was clearly just interchangeable to Alfie... and Piper had taken her place.

Well good for you
You look happy and healthy, not me
If you ever cared to ask
Good for you
You're doing great out there without me, baby
Like a damn sociopath

He wasn't even acting like he was happy to be "free" of her. He just went about his everyday life.

Well good for you, I guess you moved on really easily

"Alfie you're on in five minutes" called Amber, bursting into Patricia's bedroom where he had been getting ready. The sight that greeted her would haunt Amber's dreams for ages. Alfie pulled away from where he was kissing Piper. "I'm sorry. Am I interrupting something?" she muttered as the final pieces of her heart shattered.


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