I felt myself waking up from the lull of sleep, the dark and dreamless sleep I had from returning from Voltura had been so heavy, I felt so stiff and started to move to release my aching body. Something cold touches my forehead, fear and anxiety rush through my veins like someone dumped a bucket of cold water over my head. ,

"Bella, my love, it's just me." I opened one of my eyes and peek at the voice, the voice continues to speak,

"You've been asleep for several hours, I've stayed here the whole time, hiding in the closet when necessary when Charlie came to check on you".

My heart rate began to slow and my mind began to catch up, but the thumps were still hard and intense, I took a deep breath through my nose and sat up staring at him. God he looked awful, yet my hallucinations didn't do him justice. His eyes jet black, deep purple bruises the worst I have ever seen, his clothes the same from when he changed in Europe before our flight. He saw me staring and gave me his signature small crooked smile. I narrowed my eyes at him, more upset with myself with how quickly my body responded, his smell, his tousled hair, the way he sat, it filled me with longing, how I missed him. The hole in my chest was throbbing, finally feeling whole after this disastrous six months. His eyes went wide at my reaction, my pulse and blush betraying me, he seemed hesitant, I instantly started preparing myself for when he leaves again.

He reached for my hand, "Is everything okay, love?"

He softly drew circles on the back of my hand and my heart ached, the familiar tingling sensation started at his fingertips and took over my whole body, tears filled my eyes, my breath quickened and I withdrew my hand. I had to be strong now that way when he left again I wouldn't completely fall apart like last time, I wouldn't survive it.

"I'm fine" I lied. Sleep coated my throat, I tried clearing it and swallowing, but it still felt dry and rough.

Honestly, I felt betrayed, the stress of the past few days catching up to me, I felt so guilty instantly when the thought of what I've done to Jacob and Charlie entered my mind.

I pushed it aside, "What time is it?" I asked, looking around. It was so dark out and I wasn't sure how long I'd been asleep. He eyed me cautiously, distancing himself further down my bed, I instantly missed the closeness, frustrated with myself I put my head in my hands and rubbed my eyes.

"It's a little past two in the morning, you've been asleep for 14 hours."

"14 hours?!" Holy crow. I put my hand over my mouth and listened for Charlie, Edward looked to the door and shook his head as Charlie didn't even stir his snores not breaking a beat. My mind drifted back to the color of his eyes, being confined here with us must be so hard for him. "God you must've been so bored, why didn't you go hunt. Aren't you thirsty?" I asked him.

He reached toward me and caressed my cheek, "Always worried about others." He smiled at me softly, his eyes full of emotion even through the blackest of black.

I glowered at him and he chuckled, "Yes it's a blessing and a curse, yet it saved your sorry ass did it not?" My vulgar language surprised even me. His eyes widened at my outburst but he said nothing. Good, my harsh words were nowhere close to the treatment he deserved from me, but I already started feeling guilty for using such language towards him and being so angry.

He put his head in hands, "I will never forgive myself for the hell I have put you through." He looked at me with lost eyes, full of tears that would never fall."You have saved me in more than one way, my sweetest love." He took my face in his hands quickly yet gently I jumped at his sudden movement, I forgot how quick he was.

"Are you sure you don't need to hunt first? I don't want you to be uncomfortable" I asked. Worried that with his thirst and our tough emotions that he would use his nature to leave again.

He chuckled dryly and I felt frustrated again, what is so funny about what I'm saying. "No my dear, I have not been in more control of myself than I am at this moment. I don't plan on leaving your side anytime soon. Though I am breaking Charlie's rules, he said I couldn't step foot through his door again, I came through the window" he stated with a smirk.

"Charlie banned you from the house" anger flushed through my veins and I felt my face turn hot.

"From the torture of these past few months, I'm not surprised Bella. I hurt you in the worst way". His hands dropped to his lap.

"You did." I said dryly. He looked up at me like a scorned child.

"But I promise I will never leave you again..." he started to rant and I held up my hand.

"So what's the story?"

"I beg your pardon?" He asked, confused.

"The story? The story I have to tell Charlie"

"Ah well I was hoping you would come up with something." He chuckled and smiled at me, I closed my eyes, preventing him from dazzling me. I took deep steady breaths to calm myself, trying to ignore the response of my heart and the blush on my face.

"Great." I opened my eyes, avoiding his. "Do you have a timeline or a plan for when I need to be changed?" I pulled the sheets back and sat on the edge of the bed. "I'd like to take care of my unfinished business." I stood and stretched. He appeared in front of me in a flash.

"No" he nearly growled, my eyes knit together.

"Do I need to plan that too?" I asked, hearing how detached my voice sounded.

He grabbed my shoulder and made me look at him, "There is no need for that. I will not let anyone hurt you" he looked wild, his eyes dark full of hidden rage. A lump formed in my throat and I shrugged his hand off me.

"What about the Volturi? Or Vi-Victoria?" My voice stuttered on her name.

"There are ways to avoid the Volturi and as for Victoria, I have plans for her" he looked dangerous and amused.

"These plans?" I asked

"Hunt her down and kill her." I stared at him in disbelief. How is hunting down Victoria the same as staying here? Panic started to consume me and I caught myself so I wouldn't break down again, I wrapped one arm around my middle as if to hold myself together and asked the very question on my mind, "How is hunting her down and killing her you staying? It sounds like you're already planning on leaving again." I could feel the tears collecting behind my eyes.

"Trust me" he said, sitting down on the bed and taking my hands in his. My body and soul ached, missing his contact. "I'm not planning on leaving you again, I learned my lesson. You are the air to my lungs, the color to my world, I can not be without you." He trailed his fingers across my cheek bones and I turned away. "Can I ask you something?" I nodded and looked down at the floor and focused on controlling my breathing and emotions, "is it too late? Did I hurt you too much? Is there someone else? Ever since Volterra you've been so guarded."

I looked at him then, I could see the vulnerability it took to ask me that, he eyes pleading and searching my face for answers. I looked into his eyes, oh how I missed his eyes. I let my gaze search over him, his crazy bronze hair, the arch of his nose, I stopped myself at his lips and felt myself blush. Stupid emotions. He gave me a small smile and I took a deep breath, trying to remember what he asked me "I don't know, how can I trust you're here for good. That you won't leave me again" the pain punched me in the chest. I closed my eyes,"Why did you leave me in the first place?" I felt tears brimming in my eyes. Edward looked panicked and pulled me to him. I sat there and breathed him in, missing the simple things like how he felt when he held me, how he smelled, god his smell was so comforting. Yet even though the hole in my chest felt whole, I still felt it burn, my body felt the baggage of these past few months.

"I thought I was doing the right thing, giving you a chance at a normal life. Giving you memories you could cherish when I was gone, something to tell your kids about. I was putting you in danger, after your disaster of a birthday party I knew it was time." He placed his lips on the top of my head and played with the strands of my hair. "But I will not make the same mistake twice, I cannot live without you." His grip tightened almost painfully.

I thought about his words, I started to forgive him, but pulled my head back and looked up at him, "You mean to tell me this was all premeditated?" I was in shock, my head was spinning, the pain was throbbing, my breathing fast.

He started rubbing my back and said,"Calm down my love, I just wanted to give you a chance at a better life. I know I don't deserve this second chance, but I can't be without you. Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark but there were stars, points of reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

"Your eyes will adjust" I rolled my eyes

"That's the thing, they can't. You can't imagine the agony I faced without you." I looked at him dumbfounded and started to try and pry myself off his lap, I put my hands on his chest and after some wiggling he let me go.

"Excuse me? I can't imagine it? Me, I- I" I started to have another panic attack and began pacing. He stood up with his hands out as caution.

"No my darling, Bella please, I didn't mean it like that. I just mean I too suffered." He stepped towards me and I stepped back, tripping on something on the floor, I caught myself on the chair to my desk and righted myself straight.

"Oh my god, do they know?"

"Does who know what?" He asked, confused. Watching me like I was the wild animal, that I was the dangerous one.

"Do they know that you planned to lea-leave me?" My voice caught in my throat but I pressed on. "Oh my god, does Jasper know that this isn't his fault?!" I was overwhelmed. I began searching the room for my shoes, careless to the sounds I was making in the dark.

"What are you looking for, let me help you"

I ignored him and got down on my hands and knees and looked under my bed. Reaching for my shoes as soon as many hands should have come in contact with them, they were gone. I sat up on my feet frustrated looking for where he went. He was sitting there on my bed with my shoes in his hands playing with the laces. I held out my hand and he punched the bridge of his nose,"Where are you trying to go?"

"To your house. Jasper needs to know this wasn't his fault and we need a plan and a cover story. I gotta tell Charlie something and we need a timeline on when I'm to be changed." Anxiety coated my voice.

"Don't worry about that, I plan on you having a very long life. Time for the Volturi is different, you might be 30 before they even think of you."

Tears sprung up in my eyes and I felt my bottom lip push out in a pout, I bit it to keep it from quivering like a child. Did he just say 30, he still doesn't want to be with me forever. I sniffled and tucked my hair behind my ear. "Well unfortunately for you, this isn't all about you. This involves them too, they should be included," I emphasized the word,"about the plan, whatever it is." I snatched my shoes from him and began to put them on.

"And how are you going to get there? Your truck will wake Charlie." He stated.

"Well I'm probably already grounded for the rest of my life, so what more harm could it do." I told him I grabbed my keys and my bag and started for the door. In a flash I was seated on the bed him next to me my hand in his. "Do you have a better idea?" I asked him with a scowl on my face, my cheeks still felt hot, and my hand tingled from the electricity between us.

"Stay" he simply said and began tracing the inside of my palm with his opposite hands. He looked up and stared deep into my eyes. He was trying to dazzle me.

I pulled my hand back and shook my head. "Don't dazzle me" I narrowed my eyes at him.

"I don't know what you're talking about" he smiled that earth shattering crooked smile, be still my heart.

"Fine if you don't want to go, feel free to stay but I'm going." I stood up. And walked to the door and then he appeared in front of me. I turned to the window, he made it look easy, I could do it, it wasn't that far down. He grabbed my wrist and I looked back at him.

"Alright, alright man I forgot how stubborn you can be" All I heard is he forgot. Suddenly I'm in his arms bridal style and he smiled at me. "I missed this." He said breathy, leaned forward, and kissed my temple. Staring into my eyes he then leaps from the window, we land as if he only took a step. He puts me down and walks in front of me, "Alright hope on" he says almost reluctantly. I wrapped my arms around his neck and climbed up his back, I wrapped my feet around him and I felt my heart rate accelerate, he tilted his ear towards me and I could see the smile on his face. "Hold on tight" he says and he takes off, I keep my eyes open this time, crazy to think this used to scare me. It's strange the things I missed. After a couple minutes Edward starts to slow down to a walk. "We're here" he says. As I climb off him and move to stand at his side he grabs my hand, I look down at our hands and squeeze his hand, he stares down at me with so much emotion I feel like I'm floating.

"BELLA!" Emmetts loud voice cuts our moment and Edward's head snaps in his direction with a scowl. He mutters something so fast my human ears couldn't hear it. Emmetts chuckles and ignores him and instantly appears before me, picking me up in a bear hug and swinging my feet off the ground.

"Hi. Em. Can't. Breathe." I manage to choke out.

His booming laugh echoed through the trees. Edward scowled at him, shoving Emmett and pulled me close gently, stroking my cheek with his thumb,"Are you okay my love?"

I gave him a small smile and blushed,"I'm okay, he's just Emmett" I brushed it off, I didn't actually get hurt.

"The blush! Oh how I missed the blush! Try not to leave her again Eddie, I missed my lil sister." He fluffed my hair. I felt pain in my chest and my eyebrows knit together. Again? The throbbing pain in my chest was back and my head started to spin. I took calming breaths and Edward looked as if he could cry if he could.

"Don't. Call. Me. That. And can you shut up." He looked at me and then Emmett and Emmett made a soundless "sorry" and then resumed his trademark grin.

"Bel-LA" a sing-song voice called, I looked up to see Alice standing in the doorway hands held together rocking on her feet.

"Hey Alice." I smiled and tucked my hair behind my ear and let go of Edward to go and hug her. She wrapped her arm around my waist and her and Edward exchanged glances and he looked away with a face of frustration.

"Everyone is ready Bella" Alice gave me a small squeeze as she led me into the dinning room with their unused grand mahogany table. Everyone else was seated, Carlisle to the the right of the head of the table, he smiled at me and held his hand out to point to the head of the table as signaling for me to take a seat. Suddenly I felt nervous, but then a calming wave hit me, sighing. I looked around and I made eye contact with Jasper and gave him a grateful smile. But jasper just looked at me with remorse. I took my seat followed by Edward, Alice, and Emmett who wrapped his arm around Rosalie. I put my hands on the table and fiddled with my fingers nervously.

"The floor is yours Bella" Carlisle smiled at me encouragingly.

"So I assumed Alice has filled you in?" I said looking around. Everyone nodded.

"She did." Carlisle smiled and looked at Alice.

I followed his gaze and looked and looked at her,"and on the way back?"

"Everything." She smiled with all her teeth, I couldn't help but smile back.

"Thank you." I told her. "So first things first, I'd like to clear some things up, since I was given new information tonight" I said looking at Edward out of the corner of eye. He just looked up seemingly deep in thought. I rolled my eyes,"Jasper." I met his eyes, trying to convey my emotions clearly. I was feeling so many things at once, but I wanted my sincerity to pull through.

"Before you begin Bella, I just want to apologize for everything that happened. If I was able to control myself maybe none of this would have happened. I should've-" I put my hand up and looked at him and shook my head. I could see how hard this was for him. He stopped and let me interrupt him.

"All is forgiven Jasper, I don't hold you accountable for anything, and I don't feel any ill will towards you. Which I hope you can tell. I know you're new to this lifestyle and I can understand. It would be like me being in a room with pop tarts and being not only able to feel my hunger but everyone else's as well. I can't imagine the strength it takes to resist. But later maybe we can discuss a way for us to coexist. I don't want to make any of you uncomfortable in your own home. I'm so glad you're all back." I said looking at them all individually. "Maybe leaving something with my scent here at home all the time to get you desensitized or even me not coming here anymore"

"But" Edward and Alice said at the same time looking at me with pleading eyes. I placed my hand on Edwards and smiled gently at Alice. "I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable and I want to make it easier for you, Jasper," I said, turning my attention back to him. "To be around me that is. Alice and I were-are" I said, correcting myself and I saw the hurt on Alice's face at my slip up, but I didn't know if we could get back to our normal relationship after she left me too."best friends. It must be hard to have your mate wanting to have her friend as a snack" I laughed. Jasper and Emmett chuckled as well. And Edward pinched the bridge of his nose, I have no idea how his nose hasn't snapped off with all his pinching.

"I appreciate your understanding and I'm grateful for your forgiveness" Jasper responded with his Texan twang and he smiled at me and I smiled back.

"Now to the new information" I said taking back my hand from Edward and he reached out as if to take my hand back but he didn't. "It seems our Edward here." I said using my left thumb to point at him, "planned to leave me before Jasper even-well you know the whole birthday party fiasco. It was just an excuse. So Jasper I would like to apologize for us both" I said giving Edward a disapproving look. "For you feeling that this whole ordeal was your fault."

There were hushed whispers my human ears couldn't pick up. Esme looked at me with pitiful eyes and looked at Edward and seemed to be scolding him in her thoughts and he looked down at his hands.

"Again Bella, the bane of my existence" he stroked the side of my face with his fingers and drug his thumb lightly over my bottom lip. I felt my cheeks burn and cleared my throat. I turned my head away separating myself from his hands and gaze.

"So that brings us to the next thing" I said ignoring the looks and what Edward thought was an apology for the past 6 months. Which to me, it wasn't, he hasn't even said he's sorry. He placed his hand on my forearm, I supposed to calm me. "I'd like to put my immorality up for a vote." The shock on everyone's faces, except for Alice, was concerning yet entertaining, only I could keep a house full of indestructible vampires on their toes. "Alice promised the Volturi that I would be one of you, they said they would be sending someone to check, which sounds like a bad thing- something I am sure we would all like to avoid. So now this involves all of us, it now involves you and I am so sorry for that." I took a calming breath and began again, "But if you don't want me, I am not going to force myself on you or this family, whether Alice is willing or not" Esme started to reassure me, but I held up my hand to stop her, "I am sorry, but can I finish? I am trying to keep it together to get through this." I felt a lump in my throat and the hole in my chest crying out. Jasper turned his gaze towards Edward and I tried ignoring whatever silent conversation they must be having. I tried to turn my emotions off, but I was scared of what that would turn me into again. I was here on a mission, a discussion on my immortality, get it together Bella.

"Of course dear, please finish" Esme looked at me with compassion and patience.

"Well you all know what I want, and I am sure you know what Edward thinks too. However it isn't about what either of us want anymore. This is about safety. Mine, yours, Charlie, the town. We can't have the Volturi coming here. The only thing that seems fair is to put it to a vote. If you decide that you don't want me then... I guess I can go back to Italy alone. I can't have them coming here." Edward growled next to me, I turned to look at him and shook my head and whispered "shh," I heard Emmett chuckle, but I continued to end my speech, "Taking into account, then,that I won't put any of you in danger either way, I want you to vote yes or no on the issue of me becoming a vampire." I half smiled, still uncomfortable with that word, but I have to get comfortable with it, especially if that is what I am to become. I tuned and motioned for Carlisle to begin, but Edward interrupted before Carlisle could even speak.

"Just a minute." I gave him a dirty look, but he ignored me and squeezed my hand. "I have something to add before we vote." I sighed in resignation. "About the danger Bella's referring to, I don't think we need to be overly anxious. You see, there was more than one reason why I didn't want to shake Aro's hand there at the end," he said. "There's something they didn't think of, and I didn't want to clue them in." Edward smiled as he looked around the table at everyone. He seemed rather proud of himself.

"Which was?" Alice asked doubtfully.

"The Volturi are overconfident, and with good reason. When they decide to find someone, it's not really a problem. Do you remember Demetri?" He directed his question to me. I felt the blood leave my face and turn white, a shudder ran through my body. Unfortunately I remember him all too well. I closed my eyes and tried to forget the cloaks and red eyes. "He finds people—that's his talent, why they keep him," He told me. "Now, the whole time we were with any of them, I was picking their brains for anything that might save us, getting as much information as possible. So I saw how Demetri's talent works. He's a tracker—a tracker a thousand times more gifted than James was. His ability is loosely related to what I do, or what Aro does. He catches the...flavor? I don't know how to describe it...the tenor...of someone's mind, and then he follows that. It works over immense distances. But after Aro's little experiments, well..." He thinks he can outsmart Demetri.

"You think he won't be able to find me," I said evenly as I could.

Edward grinned. "I'm sure of it. He relies totally on that other sense. When it doesn't work with you, they'll all be blind."

"And how does that solve anything?" I asked him, irritated, unimpressed with cocky attitude and plan. He thinks he can outsmart a member of the Volturi guard. I didn't doubt his ability to keep me alive, but I doubted his plan to outsmart a member of the Volturi's chosen guard.

"Quite obviously, Alice will be able to tell when they're planning a visit, and I'll hide you. They'll be helpless. It will be like looking for a piece of straw in a haystack!" He smiled brightly, Edward seemed to think he had it all worked out. He laughed out loud the grin he had almost contagious, if his plan wasn't completely outrageous.

"But they can find you," I told him, upset and unimpressed with this stupid plan.

"And I can take care of myself." He told me simply.

Emmett laughed. "Excellent plan, my brother," he said and they bumped fists.

Rosalie hissed, "No."

"Absolutely not," I agreed with Rosealie, this seemed unnecessarily risky.

"Nice," said Jasper approvingly.

"Idiots," Alice grumbled. We made eye contact and I looked at her with concern and she waved her hand as if to brush off his plan, I slightly relaxed. Even though Esme was upset, Carlisle didn't seem to side any which way. I was getting more and more upset by this plan, but I fought and kept my cool.

"All right, then. Edward has offered an alternative for you to consider," I said, trying to redirect the conversation, again this was supposed to be my meeting. "Let's vote." I turned and looked at Edward. "Do you want me to join your family?" I pretty much knew his answer, but a girl can dream.

"Not that way. You're staying human." I tried to not react, keep it serious and professional I told myself, I moved on to the next family member.


"Yes." She smiled at me and I smiled back and I continued on.


"Yes. It would be nice not to want to kill you all the time" He chuckled and smiled at me and I laughed back and kept going.


"No," She said after thinking about her vote for a moment, Rosalie quickly began to explain herself, "Let me explain, I first want to apologize for how I have acted towards you, the both of you. I am so thankful that you saved my brother. My no doesn't mean that I have any aversion to you as a sister. It's just that...this is not the life I would have chosen for myself. I wish there had been someone there to vote no for me."

I gave her a small smile, I had expected her answer, "Emmett"

"Hell, yes!" he answered. "We can find some other way to pick a fight with this Demetri."

Edward snarled, but we all ignored him. I turned to Esme and awaited her response.

"Yes, of course, Bella. I already think of you as part of my family."

"Thank you, Esme," I replied gratefully, so happy to have her support in this. But I began to question why if they wanted me in their family, they left me in the first place. They all abandoned me, even Esme. I dont know why they thought I would be better off without them. They all doubted my capability for this life and they all doubted my love for Edward and them. It hurt, but I still had one more vote to obtain. Carlisle's vote seemed to hold the most weight. Looking at Carlisle awaiting his vote he looked past me over to Edward, he seemed to be trying to tell him something. I looked to my lft to Edward or was looking straight ahead ignoring Carlisle and ignoring me. I reached my hand out and grasped his, stroking the back of his hand in hopes of bringing his attention back to us. He held my hand in his and took a deep breath.

"Edward," Carlisle said out loud.

"No," Edward growled.

"It's the only way that makes sense," Carlisle pressed. "You've chosen not to live without her, and that doesn't leave me a choice." Edward dropped my hand and stormed from the room, snarling and growling the whole way. Carlisle ignored his immature outburst, "I guess you know my vote." There was a loud crash in the other room and I tore my face from the direction it came and looked to Carlisle. He gave me a small smile.

I sighed and turned my attention back to the table, "Thank you everyone. I feel the same about all of you. So Alice, when do you want to do this?" I stood up from the chair and Alice's eyes stared back at me in fear.

"No. No. NO. NO" Edward appeared before me in a flash. "Are you insane?!" He yelled, "Have you utterly lost your mind?!" He shouted even louder, I flinched and unconsciously covered my ears, my heart rate quickened, and I fought back the tears in my eyes. I turned from him, trying to see Alice, and he put himself quickly between us.

"Um, Bella," Alice said nervously. "I don't think I'm ready for that. I'll need to prepare..."

"You promised," I protested, trying to see her around Edward.

"I know, but... Seriously, Bella! I don't have any idea how to not kill you."

"You can do it. I trust you. It doesn't have to be tonight, we just need to plan when. So it is easier for Charlie and easier for our family" Edward snarled and I flinched again, why was he seriously against us being equals and being together forever. Maybe Carlisle could do it instead, he has turned almost every member of the family. "Carlisle?" I asked, stretching to see him from under Edward's arms, trying to calm myself from Edward's dramatic outburst. Edward grabbed my face in one hand and forced me to look at him, he held one hand up to Carlisle to silence him, but Carlisle ignored it.

"I am able to do it," Carlisle replied,"you'd be-"

"Hold on," Edward growled and gave my face a little shake so my eyes would look at him again. "Listen to me, it doesn't-"

That did it, the stress of these past 6 months, thinking Edward was going to die, the Volturi, Victoria, the fact he still didn't want me to be like him. The dam had broke.

"Let go of me" I said with venom, he instantly dropped his hand. "How dare you?" Tears flowed freely and my breath ragged as silent sobs escaped me.

"Wha-?" Edward looked panicked.

Alice and Esme looked worried. Esme instantly pulled me from him, Jasper next to Alice's side and she kept her eyes on me. I could feel Jasper trying to send out calming waves of energy to prevent a fight. Emmett rose from his feet and flashed beside me, even Rose stood and crossed her arms and scowled at Edward. Carlisle put his hand on Edward's shoulder and tried to pull him back but Edward wouldn't budge. I was a blubbering idiot but the emotions wouldn't shut off, Jasper's calming waves did nothing. It felt like I was in my own bubble and the world was crashing down.

Through the sniffles and ragged breath I managed to get out, "I thought I was your mate"

"You-you are" Edward replied quickly and anxiously.

"Have you ever..." I paused. "ever seen your brothers or Carlisle treat their mates this way?" I mindlessly gestured to them. "Huh?" Tears continued to flood my face, soaking my sweater. "You leave me, try to kill yourself, you put yourself, me, and your whole family in danger. You come back to me, don't apologize, don't ask me to forgive you, don't feel sorry for the pain you put me, the pain you put us through.." I was so close to hysteria right now, Rosalie was looking at me with a shocked expression, Esme rubbed my back."you took everyone away from me. I'm trying to fix things and you want to throw a fit. A FIT?! Breaking god knows what because I love you enough to change myself and leave my family and friends behind to be with you forever! And then you come in here and yell at me for it! And grab ahold of me like a child-" my voice broke and Emmett put his hand on my shoulder in support and squared his shoulders at Edward, his face set in a scowl ready for a fight. I took a deep breath and tried to calm down, Edward looked broken, but I was beyond care of his feelings. "How could you embarrass me, embarrass us like this? Do you know how stupid I'm sure I look just taking you back like nothing happened."

"Bella, I'm sor-"

"No" I held my hand up and cut him off. "I'm tired of encouraging this behavior in you. You don't get to leave and then come back and expect me to take you back like nothing happened. When you left I was broken, a shell of a human. You doubted my love for you, you thought I could just move on and forget, you doubted my strength. It was me who helped save you." I took a deep breath finally feeling a weight off my shoulders, "I'm sorry to think we wanted the same things. Don't worry about it. I'll figure out a plan and relay it to one of you so you're in the loop. Can someone please take me home?" my voice was small and broken, tears still flooding over my eyes.

"Emmett and I can take you," Rose called out. Emmett wrapped an arm around me and kept his eyes on Edward. I was too emotionally drained to be surprised at Rosalie's sudden interest in me.

"Thank you" the words came out so quietly but I wasn't worried they didn't hear them.