When edward left me i wasn't sure what i would do anymore my whole world disappeared and i couldn't breathe. Alice, Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie , Esme, Carlisle were gone and never coming back.

My knees must have started to shake, because the trees were suddenly wobbling. I could hear the blood

pounding faster than normal behind my ears. His voice sounded farther away.

"I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."

i laid in the forest all alone and terrified i knew i was gonna die .i could hear people's voices but i couldn't all or even speak.

i just wanted to be left alone on the forest floor so i would not bother anyone anymore because i knew i was a burden and no one wanted me around .

edward said so.

i suddenly felt someone arms around me picking me up from the cold wet forest floor.

i knew who's arms they were. it was my childhood best friends jacobs arms around me telling me he was there and i was okay .

i didn't know why he was here or how he found me. i didnt want him there i wanted to die alone and quickly. i was so damanged and felt like my shiffted .i couldnt breath i felt so cold and numb i was crying and screaming to him to just leave me there alone to die .

"jake put me down let me go ,i dont want to be alive anymore i want the pain to stop please just leave me alone"

He just carried me out of the forest walking me to the ambulance that was waiting for me i saw almost the whole town around us.

the emt's gave me some medicine to calm me down as me jake and Charlie rode to the hospital i was still so numb all the details of everything going on felt fuzzy like they werent real at all.

Jacobs POV

charlie called my dad panicking that Bella left with Edward and hasn't been back yet and it's been hours.

her phone was in her room so me and the guys went out searching for her all over the forest suddenly i saw a ball in the forest Floor looking very pale and very cold.

she was shivering crying and screaming for me to leave her there to die. she didn't want to live anymore and that broke my heart .we were friends for years as kids we lost touch but I still Cared about her.

I remember all the times we were little kids and we made mud pies and played outside at my house. when billy and charlie hung out she was my best friend and I hoped we got to become friends again.

when I got her to the ambulance the EMT's gave her some.meds to calm her down so she would stop shaking so much . Charlie asked if I would go with him I could see the hurt in his eyes when he saw his daughter looking like I agreed.

all bella kept saying was that he was gone over and over again .

4 months later

Bella pov

I was still trying to cope with the thought of Edward and his family being gone forever I never thought he would leave and it felt like a giant hole in my chest but Jacob was there for me and so was his friend Paul they were always there when I needed them but i was still having nightmares almost every night.

I checked my phone and saw a message from Paul asking if I wanted to come hang out .I replied and sat on the edge of my bed trying not to breakdown I was on medication for my anexity and deperison sometimes it helped sometimes it didn't .

my phone went off again

what time are you coming over me and Jake need to talk to you - Paul

is it something bad ? - Bella

Not really it just matters how you look at it bumblebee okay it be fine just come over to Jakes place and we will talk I love you Jake also says he loves you okay - Paul

okay I love you guys too I be over there shortly - bella

I threw my phone down and changed my clothes into a pair of denim shorts and a long sleeve black shirt to cover up my scars .I threw on my vans and picked up my phone and headed downstairs.

'Dad I shouted I am going over to Jakes house I don't know when I be home but I'll call you if I spend the night '

'okay bells be safe out there there been a lot of bear attacks lately love you'

'love you too dad '

I went to my truck and started it up and headed to the reservation. very nervous of what they wanted to talk to me about .I felt like this was gonna end like me and Edward did .

it took me two hours to get there the drive was very slow and I was getting more nervous as the time went on .I pulled into the driveway where tweedle Dee and Tweedledum we're waiting for me.

Jacob pulled me into a big hug and kissed me with so much passion I couldn't feel anything my whole body felt like it was on fire .he set me down very carefully and

Paul then picked me up and kissed me deeply I couldn't tell what the boys wanted to tell me as they both grabbed my hands and walked me inside .I could feel and hear my heart beat in my head.