Seeing Me for Me

A/N:Whooo… it's been um… 8 months I think… that's terrible! O.O I'm sooo sorry that I've neglected this story… but I think I even forgot I had it… (blush blush,… . ). So, I apologize.. I really do! I hope that this chapter (even though it's waaay over due) makes up for the long wait. Thanks to everyone who reviewed!! I LOVE you guys soooo much! But, I've decided to stop with the shout-outs cuz they take up a lot of time and space… and it's gotten hard to keep track of 8mos' worth of reviews… --… so yea… thanx so much you guys!! I promised WaFF or Fluff (does FLUFF stand for anything like Waff= Warm and fuzzy feelings…?, just wanna know). I also had to reread all five chapters to rehash the plot to myself… just so I could remember where I was going with this fic (I ended up really straying from the original plot… this is more "cute" than I planned so this chapter may be a bit dark… who knows?). It's been so long… that maybe you'll notice my writing style has changed? And if I have a lot of typos, please excuse me, I'm using a keyboard that isn't mine (which is weird, but a lot of keyboards feel different… really weird) so it makes typing pretty difficult… . Enjoy!

-Love lots, Princess Kai .-


The night of the Homecoming Dance… Kagome thought to herself gloomily, while staring at her reflection in the mirror.

Even though her mother had numerously reassured her that she looked "wonderful", Kagome did not believe it.

This would be her first homecoming dance… and the first one with a boy she had strong feelings for.

But… that was the source of her discontent, in fact.

She knew Inuyasha "cared" for her… but only as a friend. He was the personification of the detested "brotherly-love" syndrome.

She liked Inuyasha… she really liked him. She loved his beautiful silky hair, his gorgeous amber-eyes, and his gruff, yet sweet personality. He was someone she wouldn't mind spending her life with.

She blushed softly at this thought.

But he wasn't interested in her like that; she was painfully aware of that.

For some reason… she could see that Inuyasha was skeptical about her. She felt like he was afraid to trust her… like he was afraid of getting hurt.

She knew he had been hurt by that girl, Kikyo, but she didn't know how or why.
Although, it's not like she could have ever asked him. By the way Miroku had described the relationship, she could tell that this "Kikyo" had been the love of his life. She didn't imagine she could ever replace her and she found no reason to bring up old and painful memories.

But with Kikyo still in the picture, at least in his heart, there's no room for me… she thought dismally.

"Kagome!" she heard her mother call from downstairs.

The girl in question blinked in surprise.

She was still standing in front of her mirror, with that same displeased little frown on her face.

I look… "ok"… Don't I? she asked herself self-consciously.

She was wearing a spaghetti-strapped knee-length black dress. It had an asymmetrical cut with a ruffled border, which had the left hem reaching some where around her mid-calf and the right side reaching above her knee.

She blushed, as she turned sideways to get a profile view in the mirror.

The dress accentuated her curves, and she noticed as she turned back, facing the mirror forward, that it showed off a little more cleavage than she was used to, as well.

When she and Sango had gone dress shopping, she had been uncomfortable looking for an "attention-getter" dress, as Sango had put it.

Sango's philosophy was that if she wanted to grab her date's attention…and keep it, she had to look like someone he would like to give attention to.

When she had seen it, she had stopped in her place.

She had bought the dress with Inuyasha in mind even though she couldn't picture him actually gawking over her appearance but… it was a nice thought.

"Kagome!!" her mother called again, this time with more annoyance in her voice.

Kagome's eyes widened, guiltily.

"Coming, ma!!" she called as she ran over to her bed and pulled out her strappy heels from underneath her bed.

"It's minutes to eight, hun, Inuyasha will be here any minute! It'd be terrible of you to make that nice boy wait." Her mom called up the stairs.

"I know, I know… I'll be down in a minute! I promise." She called back.

Kagome stood up once she finished buckling the shoes.

She had to hold back a grin when she saw herself.

She did look good.

The shoes added an extra two-inches to her 5'3" making her look very leggy.

"Go, Kagome!" she cheered herself on.

She stopped and stuck her tongue out at her reflection.

"You're so silly…" she complained of herself.

"Kagome!!" her mother's aggravated voice called from downstairs, but Kagome just rolled her eyes.

"I'm coming, I'm coming!" she called down. "I swear… just five more seconds!"

As Kagome turned to head for her door she heard something hard bounce against the windowpane. She stopped and glanced towards her window.

With an eyebrow raised she made her way towards her bay window and couldn't contain her gasp when she saw who was waiting for her outside.

Inuyasha waited impatiently on the ground outside Kagome's window.

He was nervous. And he felt really stupid.

He didn't know why he had chosen to come here of all places… looking like this of all things. He could've gone to Miroku… he could've stayed home. But right now, all he wanted was to be with Kagome.

He glanced up when he heard Kagome's windows open.

"Inuyasha?!" she called down in surprise. He also detected a bit of anger in her voice.

Kagome's so hot-tempered. He thought with a smile, but he almost immediately regretted that when he winced at the pain in his cheek.

"What are you doing down there??" she asked a bit louder.

"K-Kagome… can you come out here?" he asked, a bit hesitantly.

Kagome gave him a look of disbelief, but when she realized he was serious she sighed.

She leaned out the window as far as she could so she could get a better look at him.

It was dark, and all she could really see was his silver colored hair and his glowing amber eyes. She could barely make out some type of black ensemble, which was most likely, a suit.

Her features softened as she watched him avert his eyes and look down.

He had moods like this… where he would revert into himself and act as if he wanted nothing to do with the rest of the world, but all he really wanted was someone to care about him.

"What's wrong…. Inuyasha?" she asked, but then faltered when she saw him look up at her fiercely.

"Kagome… please, it's important." He pleaded.

"Ok, ok… I'll be out in a second. Although, I don't know how I'm going to get past my family." She said leaning out some more so she wouldn't have to whisper so loudly.

Inuyasha was sidetracked for a moment when he allowed his gaze to linger on the extra cleavage Kagome's dress was showing off.

He hadn't allowed himself to really appreciate her attire, and even though he could only see half of it, due to the window, he knew she looked beautiful.

"Inuyasha?" she asked again.

He blushed and quickly looked up.

"Ummm, sorry… don't bother with that. Just come through the window." He offered.

She gave him another look of disbelief.

He moved forward and stretched out his arms.

"I'll catch you." He whispered.

Kagome almost blanched at the thought.

"What?!" she whispered harshly.

"Come on, Kagome, please…" he asked.

Kagome sighed and gave in.

"Alright, alright... but I'm gonna climb out myself… just be prepared to catch me if I start to plummet… ok?" she asked as she pulled off her shoes and stuck one leg out the window.

"And you better not look up my dress either!" she warned.

Inuyasha couldn't help but chuckle at that as he averted his eyes.

Kagome struggled her way out of the window and actually made it down to the ground on her own.

As she landed on the ground, she dropped her shoes on the cool grasp.

"Now what's up--?" Kagome trailed off as she looked into his face.

Her eyes widened in horror.

"Inuyasha! Oh my god! What happened to your face?!" she asked as she stepped closer to him.

He recoiled backwards almost instantly.

A hurt looked crossed her face.

"Kagome… um… this is what I wanted to talk about." He mumbled as he averted his eyes.

Kagome looked at him in remorse.

He had a huge dark bruise stretching from his forehead on the left side of his face, encompassing his eye, and down to his cheek.

"Well you'd better explain this! Cuz if you were in a fight or something stupid like that…I'll beat you up myself!" she warned, even though she had a sickening feeling that these injuries didn't come from a simple childish scuffle.

"I was being stupid…. And it's my fault." He told her.

"Inuyasha…" she trailed off.

He still wouldn't look her in the face.

"Tell me what happened… who did this?" she asked softly.

"Sesshomaru… m-my brother."

Kagome couldn't contain the gasp as he admitted his assailant.

She forced herself to wait, quietly, as he prepared himself to tell his story.

Inuyasha winced just thinking back on how this whole mess started in the first place.


Inuyasha had been looking forward to the Homecoming dance for days now and had made his excitement clear everyday.

He was feeling pretty confident and maybe even a little too reckless.

For the past few days he had been blatantly going against Sesshomaru's wishes and antagonizing his irritable brother.

So, it shouldn't have come as a surprise that on Homecoming night Sesshomaru would be in a less than generous mood…

"I'll be leaving for the dance soon." Inuyasha muttered as he came out of the bathroom tucking his wine-red shirt into his pants.

He still had about three hours but he wanted to pick Kagome up some flowers and he had to go over to Miroku's to borrow a black suit jacket.

Sesshomaru was sitting in the living room perusing a publication made specifically for the youkai population.

Inuyasha flinched when he heard a threatening growl coming from his brother's direction.

His hair stood on end, and that would be sign enough for any inu-youkai to back off… but Inuyasha wasn't a normal hanyou.

"What makes you think you're going to that dance, you little bastard?" Sesshomaru said flatly.

Inuyasha didn't think he had heard him correctly.

"Excuse me?" he asked.

"You heard me you little idiot. You're not going to that dance." He said just as calmly as before.

"What the fuck do you mean I'm not going??" Inuyasha asked, against better judgement. "Who the fuck do you think you are? Huh? You can't stop me if I want to go." With that said, he turned on his heel to head towards his room

The next thing he knew, his face was being slammed into the wall by the powerful force of his brother's hand.

"Hmm… who the fuck do you think you are?" Sesshomaru asked, with only a bit of his restrained anger seeping into his voice.

"You think you're something big now? Do you think you're special? Now that you've got that little human whore you want to prance around this house like you're the tai-youkai?! I'm going to teach you your place… if I have to kill you to do so." Sesshomaru warned as he pulled Inuyasha's face from the wall.

Inuyasha groaned in pain and struggled to get out of his brother's vice-like grip in his hair but it was futile.

Inuyasha gingerly tried to open his eyes and looked up into his brother's angry face.

He tried to repress the shiver of fear that went down his spine when he saw Sesshomaru's red-tinged eyes.

Getting into a physical fight with his older brother wasn't anything new. He'd act cocky and rude and Sesshomaru would knock him around a little to put him back in his place. There was usually no real harm done and Sesshomaru rarely ever got genuinely mad. Annoyed, sure, all the time. But mad… when he was mad, and his youkai took over, that was when Inuyasha was scared. Because that meant Sesshomaru really could kill him and he would hardly think twice about it. But… he couldn't understand why Sesshomaru got so easily angry today. Regardless, he'd have to be on guard to survive this fight.

Sesshomaru threw him on the ground and reared his arm back preparing to attack.

Inuyasha recognized his "poison claws" and rolled out of the way as his brother made his attack.

His brother was his superior in speed, accuracy, strength, and battle.

Inuyasha didn't see how he was going to get out of this one alive.

"Sesshomaru!" Inuyasha pleaded as his brother lunged for him again.

"Shut your mouth, halfbreed. I'll kill you this time. You won't ever think to disrespect me again." Sesshomaru growled as he punched Inuyasha, solidly, in the stomach.

The breath was knocked out of him for a while and he crumpled to the ground.

"S-Sesshomaru… you promised father…" Inuyasha pleaded as his brother grabbed him by the hair again.

"Stop with that nonsense. Father must have bee mad when he mated your disgusting human mother and you were the ill-fated result of that union. I'll be doing the world a favor right now if I were to get rid of you." Sesshomaru growled out.

Inuyasha looked up and noticed with a sigh of relief that his brother's eyes had faded back to white… but he still looked pissed as hell.

Inuyasha groaned loudly as his brother's fist landed in his face.

He was thrown on the ground again and his brother landed a few more good punches and kicks before he was satisfied and left Inuyasha curled up on the ground.

"Shit…" Inuyasha mumbled as he tried to assess his injuries and how fast they would be able to heal.

He got to his knees, ignoring the burning stabs of pain, and crawled to his room.

He collapsed onto his bed and grabbed the phone.

He contemplated calling Kagome to cancel… but he didn't want that, and he didn't want Kagome to be sad and without a date on Homecoming night.

So, he dialed Miroku.

His friend picked up after two rings.

"Yo, man… what's up?" was Miroku's answer.

"I got into a bit of a situation with Sesshomaru." Inuyasha explained.

Miroku understood right away.

"How bad is it, and don't tell me you won't be coming to the dance…" Miroku asked.

"Um… I'd say it's bad. He flipped out this time. But, I'll be coming to the dance anyway. I just… need some time to recover. So, I'm gonna take a nap or something and I'll be by your house at 7:30 to get the jacket." Inuyasha mumbled as he could feel his consciousness slipping from him.

"Hey man…don't force yourself. If you're really messed up, I'm sure Kagome'll understand." Miroku said.

"No… I'm not gonna do that to her. Besides, you think she'll understand a story about my "psychotic, demon half-brother trying to kill me"? It's just not worth it all. Just make sure you call me to wake me up ok, man?" Inuyasha muttered.

"Sure man… get better, and fast." Miroku joked, knowing of Inuyasha's advanced healing.

"Sure thing." Inuyasha said as he hung up.

----End Flashback­---

All had gone as planned, he even got the chance to pick up the flowers for Kagome.

But… he was still in pretty bad shape.

And he had had to sneak through his window to get by Sesshomaru. Not that Sesshomaru was paying much attention to him, anyways… he had probably gone out, but he still had to be cautious.

So, here he was standing in front of Kagome looking beat up and scared.

"Don't worry about it ok. I said some stupid stuff and me and my brother got into a fight." He explained huffily to the anxious girl.

"B-but… isn't he supposed to be your guardian or something? He's an adult, isn't he? Don't you think it's really immature to get into a fight like that?" Kagome asked.

She felt he was telling the partial truth…. But what was so bad that he couldn't tell her the whole one?

Inuyasha forced a smile.

"Keh, don't worry yourself so much. I just didn't want you to freak out when you saw me ok." He explained.

"But… your bruises—" she started.

"Are healing as we speak. I'm a real quick healer. So, they might not even be that noticeable when we get to the dance… it'll be dark there if you're worried about being seen with me looking like this. Or… is it that you don't want to go anymore?" he asked, as a second though.

Kagome looked at his wide, amber eyes and saw the pain and anxiousness reflected there; saw that he was expecting rejection.

"Don't be stupid." She said as she smiled, "I still want to go to the dance with you. But what do I tell my family? Everyone's expecting you to show up at the door…" Kagome gasped as she remembered something. "I'm surprised my mother isn't in my room searching for me right now!"

Inuyasha cocked an eyebrow.

"I can still show up at the door if you want…" he offered.

"Kagome!!" they heard her mother's voice call from her window.

The two teens looked up at the window, guiltily.

Mrs. Higurashi looked down at them with a slightly amused expression.

"Kagome, Inuyasha… I can't even begin to fathom what you two are doing down there… but I'm assuming, and hoping, it's something important. Whenever you two finish what it is that you were discussing, feel free to leave for the dance. You don't have to check in with me. Kagome, dearest, I trust you and want you to have a good night." She said to her 16-year-old daughter and then trained her gaze on the silver-haired hanyou. "And Inuyasha, I'm trusting youto take care of my baby girl and have her back here by no later than 12. Is that understood?"

"Y-yes ma'am…" Inuyasha stuttered out, still a bit fazed by her seemingly out-of-the-blue appearance.

Mrs. Higurashi smiled warmly, waved at them, then pulled her head back in the window and exited Kagome's room.

"Do you… do you think she heard what we were saying?" Inuyasha asked, his eyes averted again.

"Nah… and if she did, Mom's good at keeping secrets. So, she'd never let on that she knew… and what we don't know, won't hurt us right… you know, as the old saying goes?" Kagome asked with an embarrassed giggle.

Inuyasha took her hand in his and led her towards the car, oblivious to the fact that Kagome was blushing the whole time.

When he got to the passenger-seat side he stopped with his back turned towards her.

"Kagome…" he started.

Kagome had been intently concentrating on the warm, safe feeling of having Inuyasha large, strong hand wrapped around her smaller one and the one, rough word that he uttered snapped her out of her reverie.

"Um… huh?" she asked, blush coming back ten-fold.

"I… um… I want to say thanks for being here for me. You're a really good friend, you know? Even though there are a lot of things about me that you can't stand… that you probably hate, because I know that a lot of people feel the same way… I'm glad that you've stuck by me for so long. And even with me being kind of shady about my past with you, even though you've been so open about yours with me… cuz Kagome there're some things that I just can't tell you… regardless of that, you still trust and care about me so much… it means so much to me… and I just want to say thanks, thanks for being here and… thanks for being my friend." He muttered.

Kagome couldn't help but feel a small pang of pain in her heart at his words.

She knew that she should be feeling ecstatic that Inuyasha was open enough with his feelings for her tonight that he would admit that he cared for her… even as a friend.

But that was what hurt so much… he had said "friend". He had clearly defined that he only thought of her as a friend… and that hurt too much to bear.

But Kagome wasn't going to let him know that; she'd never want Inuyasha to be hurt, even if it meant she'd have to be hurt instead.

So she forced a cheery smile on her face and tried to blink away the tears.

"Oh Inuyasha. Thank you so much. That means so much to me…but, I'm also happy that you trust me so much and decided to come to me with your problems. I want you to always know that you can do that, because I'll always be here for you. You know? I mean, what're friends for, right?" Kagome asked, trying to force back a wince at the words she had just spoken.

Inuyasha smiled at her, the smile that could make her do anything and before she knew what she was doing she had thrown her body against his to envelope him in a tight embrace.

Inuyasha could say he was shocked.

Kagome was comfortable around him… but he could never say she was openly affectionate.

But… despite that this felt too comfortable… too "nice" Inuyasha pushed down all his protests and better judgment and allowed himself to bask in the warmth and softness that was Kagome's body.

He allowed his strong arms to wrap around her back and held her close, inhaling the beautiful, natural scent that was "Kagome".

"Inuyasha… I've told you before." Kagome's muffled voice came from against his shoulder. "No matter what you do… and no matter how much you may try to push me away in the future… I'm gonna stick by your side. I'm going to be with you, always." She promised.

"Kagome…" Inuyasha's pained voice started, but he was silenced by Kagome's slender finger pressing against his lips and shushing him.

"Nuh uh," she said with a wink, "It's best if you say nothing, because we both know that whenever you open your mouth without thinking you always end up saying something stupid or hurtful. I'm happy Inuyasha… I don't want to be hurt tonight. Let's just push all this to the side and go to the Homecoming Dance… ok? We're already pretty late I don't want to miss it." Kagome said with a small smile.

Inuyasha's eyes looked at her with sadness.

He wanted to tell her that she would be hurt; that there'd be no point in getting involved with him. He was a hanyou… someone meant to live a sad, lonesome life.

And because of what he was, his life would be filled with danger, as well.

Kagome had pledged to stay by his side, forever. But, he wouldn't allow her to do so if that meant she'd be in danger.

He cared about her too much… he loved her too much.

His breath caught in his chest and his heart started to beat fast at this revelation.

Shit, he cursed silently to himself as he looked at her smiling face, I love her as a best friend… I love her how a brother would love his sister…that's all… I wouldn't be stupid enough to really love her… would I?

He shook his head to try and clear the thoughts then returned Kagome's smile.

"Yea, ok, let's go. We are pretty late… I kinda forgot all about it." He confessed as he opened the door for her.

"Uh huh." Kagome said as she nodded her head in affirmation and seated herself inside the car. "See, I'm the only one who's aware of time here."

"What would you do without me?" she asked as he closed the door.

Inuyasha smiled stiffly as he made his way to the driver's side and got in.

As he started the car he only had one thought going through his mind: Yea kagome… you're right…now that I've got you… I don't know what I would do without you…

Hey ya'll so that's it! I decide to end it on one of those wispy thoughts… I love it soooo much, so I decided to try my hand at it. Did it come out well…what I really mean is: were you guys pleased with the end of the chapter? I hope so… I'm really trying to be a mature author… but I am only 15 (gasp! Maybe I shouldn't have said that… I hope you guys don't lose your respect for me or something… cowers in a corner, awaiting rejection…) But, I'd expect you guys to already hate me and wanna burn me cuz I've taken so long to update… aww… I'm really sorry! And gasp, school starts the 7th, so if I don't update sumtime next week, don't expect to see an update til the middle of September at the earliest when things have calmed down a bit. It'll be my junior year… I hear that's the most important one, right?

Ohhh also, I wanna know if you guys want me to write about the actual homecoming dance? I want the story to progress a bit faster and if I were to write about the dance, I think it'd be pretty pointless. I haven't planned out a scene for that or anything (I just kinda flowed w/this chapter hee hee) and I can't think of anything important that would happen there so to think of that would take some time, added to my usual update rate= a long time for a stupid chapter… --. I think it'd be better if I just skip writing that, seeing as how I can foresee it being a boring/pointless chapter. But, if you want I can do a bit of a "recap" from the dance at the beginning of chapter 7… but only if you want.. hmm.. I think chapter 7 might also be one of those time gaps… you know… like a month or two has passed… but I'm not exactly sure yet. I wanna bring in some more antagonists. Sesshy's one… but he's not THE major one. He makes strife for Inu… but, alas, we have yet to meet the strife-giver for both Inu and Kagome… so, we shall see.

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