(A/N) Here is chapter 4. Can anyone guess what's going to happen? This chapter is probably going to be a little shorter than the last one because man, that was long. And it took me forever to think up all that stuff lmao. Ok so here it is! ~AmSam Malfoy~

Last time:

"Rory, you can't leave me." Jess pleaded.

Rory had tears streaming down her face. "I don't want to leave you. But I will if I have to. I have to know what you're in this for. I have to know if you love me enough."

"I do love you Rory." Jess said, obviously upset.

"Then we are going home tomorrow. Pack you're stuff up. I'm leaving here tomorrow at 8. Goodnight. And if you aren't coming with me... Then I guess this is goodbye." She said sadly before turning to go to bed.


Chapter 4: We Mourn the Loss of 1000 Gummi Bears

Rory awoke the next morning to the sound of her miniature alarm clock at 6:30 AM. She took a shower, dressed and finished packing her bags. She decided to leave a quick note to Jimmy.

'Dear Jimmy and Sasha,

Thank you so much for your hospitality. I appreciate it so much. Unfortunately I have to leave to go home and I'm sorry I didn't get to say goodbye before I left. OK, well once again, thank you!

Sincerely, Rory Gilmore'

She left this on the breakfast table. She set her bags down by the door. She didn't want to look for Jess. He needed to come on his own. So she waited at the door. But was 7:58 rolled around, she was beginning to think that he wasn't coming. At 8, he still wasn't there. She couldn't leave. She knew she should but she couldn't bring herself to it without at least seeing him one more time. She tiptoed to his room and opened the door just enough to see his empty bed. He was gone.


Rory cried the whole way to the airport. He was gone. Gone. She had given him options and he had chosen to leave her. She couldn't believe she had almost... She would have given him anything. But he threw it all away.

Her cab pulled up at about 8:25 to the airport and she went inside. She miraculously caught a 9 o'clock flight to Hartford. She boarded. She slept. She made the meticulous trip back home to face life without Jess. She let her mind wander but didn't like the place it took her. She was sitting there imagining all possible reasons for Jess not to have been there. She could only think of bad things. 'He never really loved me.' She didn't want this to be true.

She studied the people on board this boring plane with her. Most people seemed plain enough, of course there were a few exceptions. One woman with extraordinarily large hair, a balding man who was tinkering with a laptop, and a girl who appeared to be about Rory's age who, like Rory, was crying. She wondered what the girl was crying about. Probably something more significant than a boy. Maybe her grandfather had died. Maybe she didn't get accepted into her college. Or just maybe, she was crying because she too, had just lost the love of her life. Of course, Rory would never know because the girl went to the bathroom and just a few minutes later they landed.

But just knowing that maybe... maybe she wasn't alone... made Rory feel somewhat better.


"Mom, it's me." She spoke into her cell phone.

"Rory! Hey how are you doing?"

"Badly. Can you come and pick me up? I'm in Hartford..." Rory said dismally.

"Oh hun... Yea I'll be there in half an hour." She said empathetically.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome. OK I'm gonna go..."

"Mom... I love you."

"I love you too hun."

They hung up. Rory walked around the terminal, stopping to look in bookstores. She went into a candy store and bought a pound of gummi bears. By the time Lorelai arrived there were about 10 left. Lorelai walked up to her daughter seeing the bag of nearly empty gummi bears.

"How many bears have you eaten?" She asked.

"About a thousand. I bought a pound. And now... I don't feel too good."

"Well I wouldn't think the bears are feeling too hot right now either." Rory smiled meekly at her mothers' humor, but couldn't bring herself to laugh. "So... what happened?"

"I went crazy. He tried to do what I've been telling him to do. He was trying to talk to me. And I freaked and... I told him that I needed to come home. And if he didn't come with me that it was over."

"Rory... is that what you want? Do you want it to be over with him?"

"No." Rory broke down. "I love him. I just want to make everyone happy. I needed you to..."

"Rory, you have to just... forget about me for once. Do what you want. Don't worry about what everyone thinks or says. It's not fair of anyone to make you feel like that. Just... follow your heart." Rory was sobbing and heavily embraced her mother.

"Mom, I'm just so scared that I'll... make the wrong decision. I don't want to disappoint you." Lorelai shook her head.

"Rory, you could never disappoint me. And sometimes... the wrong decisions are what make life interesting. You can't be afraid of being wrong or you may never be right."

"So how can I fix this again?" Rory asked.

"Well, we're gonna need a pretty big toolbox."


Rory was signing online. First step, apology. It was lame to do it online, but Jess hadn't been answering the phone and when Rory did finally get through Sasha had picked up.

"He says he's not here doll." She had said, rather annoyed with Jess.

"What...? So he really is there he just told you to tell me that he wasn't there?" Rory inquired.


"Oh... OK well thank you..."

"No problem." She turned around to see Jess on the couch, before whispering, "Hey, give it time, he'll come around."

"I don't know that he ever will." Rory said sadly. Sasha just sighed. "I have to go. if he asks. just tell him I'm trying to say I'm sorry." She hung up the phone and sat numbly on her bed.

Rory decided that it was probably time to go to Phase 2: Groveling.

Back in California, Sasha walks in to the living room, where Jess is sitting on the couch watching the news.

"You need to talk to her." She said sitting down next to him, taking the remote from his hands.

"It's not that simple. All I tried to do was talk to her before. She always tells me that we should talk about things. So I finally did and she just. she."

"She's called 4 times in the last 12 hours. She's just trying to tell you that she's sorry."

"And how would you know that? Are you suddenly inhabited by her mind?" Jess asked mockingly.

"Because she just told me so you little shit. So lose the attitude." Jess looked stunned. Usually Sasha was laid back and apathetic. Her sudden change in demeanor was surprising to say the least. After he got over the initial shock of her outburst though, he realized what she had said. Rory was trying to apologize. He wanted to talk to her so badly, to hear the sound of her voice. But. Jess went over every excuse in his head. Each sounded completely logical, but somehow fell short of making him call her.


"Ror, maybe. maybe he just won't talk. I think you'll have to communicate in other ways." Lorelai said, taking a sip of her giant coffee mug.

"Like what? Send him flowers?" The sarcasm in her voice was completely missed by Lorelai whose eyes widened.

"Exactly! Send him flowers. It will get him thinking about you even more and will probably make him laugh and then he'll have no choice but to call you!"

"Of course he'll have a choice. He could just throw away the flowers and not call me." She said.

"But he won't."

"And why won't he?" Rory asked.

"Because he still loves you."

"If he loves me so damn much then why hasn't he answered my calls or emails? How come he told Sasha to tell me he wasn't there when I finally did get through? He was sitting right next to the phone I know he wasn't gone. But he won't let me in. And it's all my fault." She ranted until she was out of breath.

"Whoa, calm it down. Lets take a chill shot."

"Its chill pill mother. Pill."

"No, they no longer come in pill form, it is now a shot." Rory rolled her eyes at the things her mother found humorous.

"Ok, I've taken a chill shot."

"Good, because when you are all worked up like that, it makes mommy crazy too."

"We are so weird."

"No everyone else in the world is weird. We my girl, are the dictionary's definition of 'normal'."

"Ok, we're normal. So, as a normal person, should I send him flowers?" Rory asked trying very hard to fight the laughter that so obviously needed to accompany that statement.

"Yes. Send. daisies."

"Why daisies?"

"Why are you still questioning me?"

"Sending daisies."

"Good girl."

Rory just shook her head before picking up the phone. She called one of those delivery services. They sent a dozen daisies to Jess with a card attached which read 'Please call me. I love you. -Rory'. Rory was strangely satisfied that she had done this. At least he would see that she still loved him. She just hoped it would work.


"I have a delivery for Jess Mariano." The man said, holding a bouquet of flowers.

"Uh. OK." Jimmy said as he took the flowers the man handed over. "Am I supposed to like. sign something?"

"Yes sir, could you sign on the dotted line please?" He shoved a clipboard in Jimmy's face.

"Sure." He signed his name and the delivery guy left. When he closed the door he went to the living room. "Hey Jess, flowers."

Jess looked at him like he was crazy. "I see there are flowers."

"They're for you."


"That's what I thought. But look there's a card and everything." He picked up the card from the clip that attached it to the flowers. "It says, 'Please ball me, I lug you. -Roarie'. What in the hell."

"Let me see that." Jess said, snatching the note from Jimmy. He read it over. Finally he laughed. "Well it's from Rory obviously. But the rest is very. cryptic." Jess kept eyeing the card, trying to decipher its meaning. 'Please ball me.' Was that supposed to mean. no she would never say that. HA. 'I lug you.' That was just downright strange. He decided to email her. ******************************************

From: TheJstr@yahoo.com To: ilovecoffee@hotmail.com Subject: Flowers.

Hey Rory. I got the flowers today. Um yea, that was interesting. What's up with the card? It's kind of confusing.

I guess I'm gonna go. -Jess


He almost ended it with 'Love, Jess' but decided against it. He held his breath as he hit the 'Send' button. He and Rory hadn't spoken since the night before she left. Not that she hadn't tried. Maybe he had worded it too harshly. It was too late now though. All he could do was wait.


"Mom! Come read this!" Rory shouted, having received Jess' email.

"What. Are. You. Screaming. About!?" Lorelai asked. She had been woken from her power nap by Rory yelling.

"Jess emailed me."

"Oh. Move over, let momma see." She booted Rory out of the chair. "What's that supposed to mean? 'Its kind of confusing.' What did you say? Was it in Chinese? 'Cuz you know, that would make it kind of confusing."

"I said, 'Please call me, I love you.'"

"Wow, I thought you said he was smart."

"I don't understand. How could he not get that?"

"Maybe you should ask him."

"How? He won't answer my calls. Flowers are definitely out. Email is so lame."

"LUKE!" Rory turned around, thinking Luke must be there. But when he was nowhere in sight she turned back to face her mother.

"Mom. I think maybe YOU should take a chill shot." Lorelai shook her head.

"No, no, no child. We use Luke to get to Jess. He calls him about something. and when Jess is on the phone he puts you on."

"What if he hangs up on me?"

"He won't."

"And why not?"

"Because he loves you."

"That sounds strangely familiar." But Lorelai didn't pay attention; she was already pulling on her shoes. She grabbed Rory's hand and they made their way to Luke's Diner.


"LUKE! We need mondo coffee and a mondo favor!"

"Lorelai, can't you ever come in quietly?" Luke asked as he poured two mugs of very strong coffee.

"Of course we can't, the Gilmore's have to make good entries." Rory said, taking a gulp of her coffee.

"So you got your coffee, what might I ask is this 'mondo favor'?" Luke asked.

"Well you see Luke, since you love us so much, you are going to be our pawn." Lorelai said grinning.

"No." Luke answered. He turned around to head for the kitchen.

"But it's for Rory!" Lorelai screeched. Luke stopped and turned around.

"Give him the puppy eyes baby." Lorelai prodded Rory. She gave Luke the cute eyes and puffed out her bottom lip.

"I'm listening." He said finally. Rory smiled again and Lorelai continued to divulge the plan. After Luke took it all in, he nodded.

"So I just call him and then say something like 'Oh wait a sec.' and hand the phone over to Rory?"

"Exactly." Rory said while Lorelai nodded eagerly.

"We are good plan makers. We could take over the world and make all the rivers run with coffee instead of water. How exciting!!"

"Chill shot, mom."

"Oh yea. Calming down." But she still laughed giddily as Luke began to dial Jess' number in California.

"Hey Jess, it's Luke." He waited while Jess spoke on the other end. "Uh huh yea I was just gonna ask you. Ah, wait just a second. Yea hold on." He put his hand over the receiver and beckoned Rory over.

"Hi Jess." Rory said tentatively.

"Rory. You uh. Hi. I'm confused. Wasn't I just talking to Luke?"

"Yea, he's our pawn."


"I got your email."

"Oh yea. I uh."

"What didn't you understand? I thought I made everything pretty clear. And still no call, no letter, no fruit basket, and no smoke signal. That's what you said huh?" Rory said, anger rising up in her.

"Rory, I had no idea what that meant."

"You don't understand the words 'I love you'? I thought at least 'Please call me' was in your vocabulary range." Jess just started laughing hysterically. Rory was on the verge of tears. "What is your problem?" The people in Luke's were starting to stare.

"Oh Rory. There must have been some kind of mistake. The letter I got didn't say anything like that!"

"Well what did it say then?" She asked.

"It said. 'Please ball me. I lug you. Roarie, spelled R-O-A-R-I-E." He continued to laugh the entire time he said this and afterwards as well.

"Oh. I guess that would be kind of." But she didn't finish her sentence because she too started to laugh.

"Rory. what's so funny? Clue me in!!" Lorelai asked impatiently.

"Jess. I'm so sorry. I. I just." She saw Lorelai eyeing her, awaiting her words. "Hey can I call you back, I'm standing in the diner and my mom is breathing down my neck."

"Yea. Whatever." Jess said, mood changing.

"I'm sorry. Please just hold on OK? I'll call you back in just a second."

"I dunno Rory."

"Jess please."

"I'll talk to you in a minute."

"Thank you." They hung up. Rory walked over to her mother. "Details later. I have to talk to him first though."

"Fine. I see how it is, freeze me out!"

"Oh please, you will so be over it when I pour you another cup of coffee." She picked up the pot and poured it up to the brim of her mothers' mug.

"OK. But make it snappy!" She said taking a sip.

"Luke!" She called into the kitchen. He poked his head out. "Can I go upstairs?" Luke nodded and she turned and almost ran up the stairs. She reached the top and opened the door to the apartment. She pulled out her cell phone and dialed Jess' number. He picked up after a couple of rings.



"So uh."


"We are the King and Queen of monosyllaby." Rory said.

"I don't think that's a word."

"Well, you know what I mean."

"Rory, why did you leave?"

Rory froze. She didn't know how to answer. But finally decided that honesty was the only way to go here. "I was scared."

"Of what?"

"Of you. I was scared that I might give into something that. I want but I'm not sure if I'm ready yet."

"I'm not trying to pressure you Rory. I just, I didn't know how you felt about it."

"I know. You didn't do anything wrong. I ran away."

"I wish you hadn't."

"Me too."

"I'm pretty dumb you know? I kept avoiding you. I missed you like crazy, I would dream about you. but I wouldn't let myself be near you. I kept trying to tell myself that that's what I had to do to fix it."

"No of course not. But ya know, I didn't do such a great job of that either." Jess laughed.

"Now that we have trashed ourselves and we both know how we are complete idiots, how about we just forgive and forget."

"I would very much so like that." Rory said. "The only thing that would make it better was if you were here so I could kiss you."

"Don't tease me with such thoughts." They laughed. Rory walked over and layed down on Jess' bed.

"You're bed is very comfortable." She said.


"Your bed at Luke's, its really comfortable." Jess raised his eyebrows.

"You're laying in my bed?"


"That's kind of a turn on." Rory laughed.

"Oh really?"

"Big time."

"Well it is for me too." She said. She hugged his pillow close to her. It smelled like him. This was second best to actually being next to him.

"You are such a tease." Jess said, thinking about Rory, lying in his bed. If only he was too.

"Yea well, I do try." Rory just wished and wished that Jess could be here, lying next to her. "I want you Jess." This had come out in a huskier voice that she anticipated.

"Whoa. Rory."

"That came out wrong. I meant, I want you here. with me. ok umm."

"Its ok Rory, I know what you mean."

"Come home. And then we can lie here together instead of having to talk to each other on the phone, just wishing for it."

"I don't belong there." Jess said.

"Who says so? I think this is exactly where you belong, surrounded by the people you love and who love you back."

"OK. I'll come home."

"Jess really, come on, you cant stay in California forever!" Rory said.

"Rory, I just said that I was going to come home."

"Oh. Right. My bad." He laughed at her persistence, he admired it so much.

"I'll be on a plane and back home in 6 hours."

"I don't want to wait that long."

"Well I can't get there any faster!" He said jokingly.

"I know. I just want you here now." There was longing in her voice.

"I am going to pack now. I'll call you when I get back."

"How about I pick you up." She suggested.

"If you want to."

"Oh trust me I do. 6 hours?"


"OK then. I Love you." Rory lost her breath when he said these words. He did still love her.

"I love you too." She said softly as she hung up. Only six hours until she could see Jess once again. Only six hours until she could feel the warmth of his body against hers again. Just an hour before, she thought she might never see him again. But now she was going to pick him up from the airport in just a few more hours. But for now, she would just stay in his bed, taking in his scent, taking in the comfort of that fact that he had inhabited this bed, that he had dreamed about her in it. So this is what love really felt like.


(A/N) The end of ch. 4! So much for it being shorter that the last chapter. Its less words but more pages I think. I think ch. 5 is going to be the last chapter! Expect it at the end of this week, hopefully. Sorry if I stole anyone's emails there. and once again a reminder that I own NOTHING! I start school on Monday, Joy. Yea right. Alright so REVIEW! And thanks sooo much to everyone who has reviewed so far! Hope you liked! And I am OFFICIALLY 15 NOW! Yes :-D ~AmSam Malfoy~