last chapter! i'm sorry. i know u already hate me enough over killing

off jess. im sorry! but i had to do it. don't worry, this chapter will

make u feel better, i promise.


disclaimer: i don't own gilmore girls now, and i never will. *teardrops*


chapter 19: You Learn a Lot Up There


Rory crossed the cemetery to Jess' grave. It was drizzling outside,

but Rory didn't have either an umbrella or a hood to keep her dry. But

those were the least of her worries.

It had been more than a week since he had died, and Rory felt

horrible about the way they had left things between them.

She had just come from Lori's funeral, which had been held several

days after Jess', and she felt like she needed to say goodbye to Jess

privately, without hundreds of people crowding the small plot.

"Jess," she said softly, kneeling down on the ground, wincing

at the realization of how fresh the grave was. "I miss you so much.

Waking up every day, and going to Luke's, it just isn't the same. All

the people that had always claimed not to like you, well, the town is

grieving for you Jess. We all loved you so much."

Rory started to cry and she put her head in her hands.

"Stop crying, Ror," a familiar voice said.

Her head shot up, and she saw Jess sitting on his headstone. Or,

a faint image of Jess rather.

"Jess?" she asked, not believing her own eyes.

"Yah, its me," he answered. "Listen, I've only got about five

minutes, so we gotta make this fast."

"Jess, I-" Rory said walking towards him.

"Stop! Don't touch me, I've got the whole Casper the friendly

ghost thing going on. Actually its kinda fun. I can walk through walls

and everything!"

Rory couldn't help but smile at his dark humor. "I've missed you

so much Jess," she said.

"I know, I've been looking out on you," he said.

"I'm so sorry that we left things the way that we did," she said.

"No worries," he replied. "Listen, I'm the one that should be

apologizing. After all, I pretty much screwed up your own life as well.

I can't help but think-"

"It doesn't matter now," Rory said, putting a hand up to silence

him. "All that matters is that I still love you Jess, and I always will.

I'm so sorry that my sister caught you in her traps."

"She's not all that bad," Jess answered. "I've been spending

some time with her, Up There," he said, pointing to the sky. "She's hard

to handle. I know that. But I cracked the surface of her, and she admitted

that she loves you and that she feels horrible for everything she ever

did to you. She just wants you to live your life in peace and happiness,

Lori free, the way things were supposed to always be. I know that

you're mad at her now, and believe me, I was too. But there's no

point holding a grudge. Whatever happened, happened, and there's nothing

anyone can do to change that. If you just forgive her and let go, I

guarentee you will feel ten times better."

Rory smiled. "You think so?"

"I know so. You learn a lot Up There," Jess said, pointing again.

"Ah, and about this Tristan dude. You have my blessing. You deserve to

be happy with him, and he can make you happy. But, if he ever does anything

to make you cry, just know, he'll be dealing with me."

Rory laughed. "Really?"

"I'm watching over you Rory, and so is your sister. We'll take

care of you," he said, taking her hand.

"I thought you were see through," she said.

"It comes and goes," he admitted, kissing her forehead protectively.

"Tell Lori I love her too," Rory said, sensing that their time

was running short. "And I love you, and I always will."

"Right back at ya," Jess said. "I'm happy up there, and I want

you to be happy to. Remember what I said, one wrong move from him, and

he's dealing with me."

"I will Jess. Thank you."

"Bye Ror."

"Bye," she said. She blinked, and he was gone. She stood there

for a long while, smiling and feeling like so much had been lifted off

her shoulders.

"Hey," Tristan said softly, coming up behind her.

"Hey," she said, not hesitating to get comfortable in his arms.

"I've been looking for you. How are you holding up?"

"Right now, I feel really peaceful," she said truthfully.

"So you're okay?" he asked.

"I'm better than okay. I can just feel them looking over me right

now, smiling down at us."

"At us?" Tristan asked, wondering what had changed her mood.

"We go good together Tris," she said. "And I think they know it

and are happy for us."

"So there definitely is an us?"

"Always and Forever," Rory said, smiling as she noticed a rainbow

being cast down from the sky. And she knew that Jess and Lori had sent

it to her, a symbol of their approval of Tristan and love for her.


a/n: i suppose that's the end. thanks for all the reviews, you guys

have been awesome. sorry if i didn't make everyone happy, but that's

what happens in love triangles. sorry!