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(Chapter 1 – A Selfish Sacrifice)

Grissom detected a presence in his doorway and looked up to find Catherine standing there. He wasn't sure if it was hurt or anger in her eyes. Or maybe it was both. What he was sure of was the reason for her being here. "Hey."

"I just spoke with the Sheriff."

"Catherine...I'm sorry."

"So it's true. You agreed with him that I should be the one who takes over Ecklie's spot."

"I can't think of a more deserving person." He stood up, suddenly feeling very awkward behind his desk.

"You know what this means, right?" She laughed and shook her head, not allowing him a chance to answer, "Who am I kidding? Of course you know what this means. Grissom, if you wanted me out of here, you could've just asked. You didn't have to go behind my back."

"It's better this way."

"For who?" She looked at him and gave him a chance to respond this time, but he didn't. "Goodnight Gil."

He watched helplessly as she turned to leave his office, "Catherine, I have reasons for doing what I do."

Turning back to look at him, all the energy seemed to have drained out of her, "I know. I just wish you would share some of those reasons with me."

Not having anything else to say, he watched her disappear out into the hallway. How could he tell her his reason for pushing her away? How would she ever understand how much it hurt him to have her around? To be with her all the time and not be able to touch her? To hold her?

Even if it was completely on a selfish level, he knew this was one sacrifice he had to make.

*To be continued*