Dancing in the Flames

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Looking out the window she could see him leaving. He couldn't see her peering from the dark room, but she knew he knew she was still there. She closed her eyes, and slid to the floor gently, her forehead against the wall. She couldn't face him, face the fact he knew any longer. But she couldn't stop either and she still did love him. But that wasn't her whole problem. She looked at the golden rings on the bed table sadly a few seconds. Engagement and Wedding ring. Side by side, and yet alone on the table. Someone was knocked at the door across the pitch-black room. She could hear it in the background over all of her thoughts just faintly.

"hmmm? One moment. I'm coming."

She stood up in the shadows that were left with the sunshine starting to fall away since it was late evening now and pull on a night gown and shuffled the blanket aside. Forgetting the robe even, she lay her hands on her stomach. The fabric was silk, a gift from him on their wedding night. It barely concealed anything but at this moment, she was so far from caring about it. Everything inside was hurt and it was so dark. She opened the door and her breath caught in her through. It was him. Not her husband. Not the man who just ran out on her-- old lover and now friend-- even her confidant every once in a while. In the faintest now she could hear a car powering up and driving off, and she looked up to meet his eyes. Such beauty, such feral and such danger in his, and she tried to state blankly, but whispered sadly, her voice lost and broken;

"He's gone."

Arms enclosed her softly. First she tried to push away but then she let herself fall into them, the pain starting to overwhelm her. She had the faint realization of burying her face in his flannel before the tears started to fall.

"He shouldn't ta' done that. He shouldn't run you when ya' need him most."

The words were supposed to be comforting, as he stroked her hair softly and let her cry on his shoulder, but they were angry. It was more like a growl in the silence that was surrounding the room, but he knew he was saying the truth. He couldn't believe Scott had just left her here in their room, just left her in this darkness. She was crying. He'd left her here like this.

"Shhh, shhh, It's okay, Darlin'"

He stroked her hair and shoulder softly, setting his mind from the reactions of his hand touching the silk that barely kept him from touching her skin. She was rambling into his shirt and starting to shiver in the cold air.

"He-he didn't understand-he couldn't understand. He can't understand me. It's so quiet- so dark- I'm so alone."

He tilted her chin gently looking into her eyes and he almost melted there but fought against it. He took her hand and led her back to her bed, sitting her down and he kneeled half halfway by her. He reached for a blanket and wrapped it around her lightly, his hand lightly grazing her skin. He stopped a second, froze, holding back his reaction for her- to her- to just being near her. Again. But he snapped out of it and took her hands gently, looked at her trying to seem comforting, since it was breaking him to see her this way.

"It'll be okay, Jeanie. Ya' know he'll come back ta ya'. It's just overloading him. He doesn't know how ta' deal with it."

But inside the words were different. Angry. Furios. Untamed. (You don't deserve this from him. You don't deserve this pain. That Asshole doesn't deserve you.)

"I'll never be okay. I never be okay, again. It's so quiet in my mind now. I'll never be me, again. No one needs me........wants me, anymore."

As they were spoken they broke his heart and he grabbed her and clutched her to his chest in a tight hug.

"Don't ya' ever believe that. We all need ya'. "

She didn't pull away but nestled in against him, tears falling silently, still and then looked up at him. He looked down into her eyes silently, as she studied him without moving at all. Her beautiful eyes were filled with sadness, but for more than just for Cyclops leaving and he knew it. This was finally for loosing her powers because of the Psi-War and this was for the Professor, both interigal and important parts of her life and heart. And now, too, because Cyclops couldn't understand her irrational acting because she had lost part of herself and was pushing away and needing her own space. Her green eyes were broken and lost, and her lips were trembling and he hated now that he couldn't solve everything for her.

"Do you need me? Do you want me here?"

The words so soft, so small, so fragile peirced everything he had within him.

(Need her? Didn't she know she was the only thing that kept him from being a beast forever? Want her? Did she realize he had to hold himself away from her he wanted her so bad? That he always had and always would no matter what happened or who she chose over him? God, didn't she know his blood was burning in his veins at her touch- at her being so near?)

He hugged her lightly, his words soft and gentle, picked carefully.

"Course I do, Jeanie. I'll always need ya', because ya'r a wonderful strong, wise, an' beautiful person and I'll always be here to repay ya'r for everything ya've ever given me."

She seem to settle a bit in his arms, still looking at him. She was calming finally. Her pale face seemingly normal again aside from faint fatigue and strain.

"Free me, then........"

He looked at her suddenly. Confused at her words. (Damned, I'd have freed you long before if I knew how), he said;

"What?"

She moved within his arms, and her face met the level of his.

"Free me from the darkness just for a moment."

He was growing more confused she could tell but it was the only way. The only choice left. She knew at least on his count. On Scott's there was a link to reassure her, but that was gone. With Logan it had always been know. That was the past, but atleast it had no doubts. They'd never needed words, never needed to think even. It was just know.

"Jeanie, ya'r going ta' have ta' be clearer. Free ya'? how?"

She slid off the bed completely and out of the blanket and let her knees finally touch the ground lowering totally to where he was. She put her hands lightly on the sides of his face and kissed him.

He jumped slightly and held her a bit away now. A kiss? What the hell did a kiss have to do with freedom? He looked at her shocked, the words were flying in his mind and the blood rushing through him had gone from burning ache to a scorching fire but his mouth was empty, it was the one thing filled completely with shock. Her face had gone from pale to flush suddenly. Hopelessness leaving and only want and need seeping in and filling her eyes now.

"Free me, Logan. Free me from the silence and the darkness, please."

His brows furrowed and he stayed silently, she wondered painfully what was running through his brain right now. She would have thought he'd react different. Secretly hoped he would. He had reacted to the kiss for a brief second before the control came back. Only a few seconds; but she'd felt it. It was still there.

"Jean.....don't......ya' got him."

The words were strained. It was obvious he was tightly controlling it all now.

"He doesn't understand, and he's gone. He doubts me and I doubt his love - now. The silence stops him and I, but Logan..........Logan. please."

He stared at her blankly, his emotion on wild now. His heart was going so fast. How many times had he dreamt of this? How many times had he wished this could be true? God, but not like this ever! Couldn't say yes, didn't want to say no.

"We always knew - we didn't need words or thoughts to prove it - there were no doubts.

There was always the knowing- it filled the silence then."

"Stop this.........ya' know we-I can't........ya' got him..........we all adjusted ta' that, Jeanie."

His voice was rigid and she knew he was on the edge. She knew that well enough without her lost abilities. She reached up gently and stroked one of his cheeks silently. He pulled away as if her hand had caused him pain, but not enough to have her hand taken away from it. She sat up and kissed him, gently at first. Her hands falling lightly upon his shoulders, pulling him closer and he came.

He kissed her passionately, letting the first wall of his will fall away in her embrace. The kiss was silent and needful. It was sweet and forbidden. He wrapped his arms around her small frame at the end of the kiss, tucking her head under his chin, his breath heaving in his chest, trying to push it all away still.

"We...we can't do this, Jeanie.....we can't."

She moved a small bit away looking at him. Her bright green eyes had a fire in them now. They had need and passion and a will now, but they also pleaded with him. Her fingers lightly ran through his hair.

"Stop pushing me away. Show me how you feel, now. Stop talking, just feel......please, Logan, if you care at all."

She leaned and kissed him. Heated. Passionate. All the reasons were falling away suddenly. He had them and they were vanishing. He tightened his grasp on her, his hands on the small of her back, pulling him to her and matched her kisses with a sudden fury; with anger and with passion. She moaned bearly audibly under the kiss, arching against him, her finger clasping on his shoulders.

All resistance in him snapped suddenly and drained away.

He swept her up in his arms, unto his lap, not stopping kissing her for a moment even. She didn't resist it. They were both running without thought anymore, it was only emotion and need now. His hands ran down her sides gently, as he made himself control alittle bit, running them lightly over the silk and dragging it along her skin. It was short enough already; the small silverish negligee barely came down far enough to completely conceal her bottom and front anyway. Now it teased her skin as he moved it and she couldn't help but move and jump slightly as it did and he smiled, enjoying it.

She hands kneed his shoulders tightly her finger nails dig against his shirt lightly and her hands went down suddenly and pulled his shirt up, up and over his head. She ran her fingertips and her nails down his chest lightly. He was watching her but it was wonderful. She leaned down and pressed kisses lightly to his breastbone. Suddenly, he shivered lightly, and she ran her tongue lightly across his skin, again, nipping at his nipples lightly with her teeth too.

He growled lowly. Fire was spreading through him like wild, and her touches were burning him almost as if there was no heat already. She was going to drive him crazy. This had to be a dream. He crushed her to him again suddenly his face buried into her hair now and he breathed in. Such a sweet scent. Such heavenly beautiful eyes and passion. He kissed her harshly, claiming her. She was beautiful, she was his dream and his need.

He ran his hand all the way down her sides again, catching the end of her nightgown in his hand and pulling it over slowly, dragging it slowly over her skin. She was moaning lightly as the fabric increased teasing her stomach with it, then her breasts and nipples with the end of the fabric. And then pulled it all the way over her.

"Jean......."

She watched him as his gaze followed the length of her unclothed body. She trembled lightly. She wanted this- had wanted it so long. His lips fell from her lips traveling across her cheek and down her throat slowly and then down her shoulder. They left a trail of heat in her blood as he went so slowly, driving her senses completely nuts. She gasped suddenly as his lips lightly touched her right nipple and she was shocked by a rush of emotions through her as he switched to the other nipple now doing the same thing to it, too.

"Logan......"

She moaned and her hands landed on the back of his head as he was nipping at it lightly with his teeth and nibbling it now too. He was holding her tightly, even though she was squirming lightly in his arms. Her nipple puckered in his teeth as he bit it lightly. Her hand against his head were pushing him closer even though he couldn't come much closer to her and he began to suckle her entire breast and she moaned more loudly right next to his ear.

Hands running lightly down her held her to him tightly a moment, her bottom in his two hands kissing her deeply without an end or a caution and then lay her back on the floor looking at her a second. Hair in an aura of almost a halo around her head and her fire green eyes dilated from pleasure. Such a vision of completely beauty and awe. His hand came down gently and moved her thin, well-toned legs apart, pulling her gently a little towards him. He lowered his head slowly, letting her watch his every move even how far into the pleasure she already was.

"Ohh."

He started kissing the inside of her tights gently, nipping at the skin lightly and then more roughly. then on the other side, too. Then he brought his head straight down centered kissing her thatch of soft dawny hair sweetly, she ached a bit at this needing, wanting. She gasped suddenly as his tongue ran down the lips of her virgina and she wriggled in pleasure. She was already wet and slippery, already ready for him. He licked it away slowly, tantalizing the edges of her opening with his tongue gently. Lightly he began to push the skin, and she arched against him pushing it alittle further in. He nipped at the sides of her hole causing her to moan in pleasure and then stuck his tongue in, suckling all of her. She moaned turning and turning against him now and he moved back, sitting up and pushing a finger into her gently into her. It slid in perfectly. He trust it in and out slowly dragging them lightly against her thrusts.

"OOH!"

She was reaching her climax. He could tell. She was meeting each trust with more force. He pulled the finger out again and trust in with two. She gasped completely taken away but her body arched up to him. He began thrusting and thrusting. Her hips rose meeting each trust with the same force until the orgasm hit and then she stopped, groaning ever so heavily, her breathing hot and slow a look of such exquisite pleasure on her face.

He climbed up beside her kissing her gently as she came back from it. She kissed with more and more fire each time and she reaching down. Unbuttoning his pant and pulling them down. Seeming to find them a bother to her, he stood and shucked them aside along with his boxers and lowered himself back down into her arms and her kisses, which were becoming as passionate again. She ran her fingers lightly down his chest and then his stomach. Her fingers splaying lightly over his balls and he groaned/growled lightly into the silence around them that had fallen again. Her fingers slowly wrapped themselves around him. Squeezing and releasing in a pattern almost.

God, she was going to melt everything inside him. She was creating such a fire with her gentle touches. It was scorching him completely. He wasn't going to be able to wait much longer. He lowered himself over her as she relaxed her hands and kissed him again. He slid it in slowly gently at first and then faster and faster as she began to arch meeting him thrust for thrust. Faster and faster and faster. And deeper and harder and deeper and harder.

She found her second orgasm first and he continued to trust as she met him still sending her over and into it, and a few seconds later he found his edge and thrust one last time, as it overcame him too and he spilled into her, falling heavily to her side, half on her, clutching her tightly to him still. The word fell in the silence suddenly of thought and of voice, but distinguished of who's mouth they came from was impossible.

"I never dreamed........"

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He was waking up slowly, she could see him from the window. She smiled faintly thinking a moment over what happened and then the slightest frown also at what she'd done.

"Where tha' hell?"

A shadow crossed over him. Either someone had turned a light on in his room or it was morning and someone was near him whichever it was. He snapped awake and blinked, focusing his eyes. It was Jean standing over him. She dropped down next to him, silently. She was dressed in her uniform, hair held back by her headband. He looked around a second realizing he was in her room and it all came back. They'd made love on the floor in Scott and Jeans' bedroom and then he held her in his arms through the rest of the night. He looked at her a moment. Her expression was almost impossible to read.

"Jeanie--"

His words stopped as she pressed a finger to his lips.

"Don't say anything, Logan. Just leave it where it is."

She smiled lightly and handed him his clothes watching him dress quietly. He stood watching her as she stood and walked back, leaning her back against the window watching him. When he finished he walked to the door quietly and stood there watching her as she walked towards him. She stopped to the side of him and opened the door silently; they stood looking at each other silently as.

"I don't regr---"

She placed a finger to his lips and stood on her toes and placed a kiss on his cheek, soft whisper in his ear.

"The darkness- it's not so silent anymore."

He nodded faintly and looked like he wanted to say something but understood the words held nothing for the moment right now and her backed out quietly, as she shut the door. She walked across the room, picking up the nightgown and the blanket tossing them on the bed. Everything in her kept screaming yes and no in unison and it was driving her insane.

The door suddenly opened behind her. She made her eyes stay on the outside, a faint smile touched her lips, playfully;

"Forget something?"

"Jean, that's harsh you know I wouldn't leave forever; I love you."

She turned around, shocked showed in her face. It was Scott. Her husband. She was suddenly at a loss for words. A complete loss for words.

"I know what I did was wrong and I'm apologizing for it. I know it was wrong to run off last night."

She nodded faintly, part of her going numb in shock still and she turned back to the window, keeping her voice slightly low as to conceal the shock. How much time had actually passed since Logan had left the room? Perhaps five minutes? Or was it less? Maybe only one or two. Or had he seen Logan walk out of the room even? She calmed, trying to concentrate on the conversation.

"It's alright, Scott. It's forgotten. It was good to have some time to myself anyway- to-to think."

Arms wrapped around her lightly from behind her and hugged her from behind holding her safely in them as she watched out the window. Four bodies were walking out side. She watched closely.

"I won't go like that again, Jean. I promise I won't."

She nodded faintly, only half hearing what he said as she felt a kiss on her hair, but her eyes were outside. The four people were talking it seemed. The two first were Gambit and Rogue. Rogue was laughing. Gambit had probably told a joke or something. And then there was energetic Jubilee -- she'd come on a short vacation from the other school -- on her roll skates, skating in circles around..............Logan.

She tried to look at him detachedly not mixing it with the swirl of emotion in her and without trying to guess he might be feeling the same way. He seemed his normal self oddly. Distant and detected from the world completely; accept from the teasing smiles at Jubilee. No one had his heart like her. Jubilee was his partner and they were close as daughter and father. She'd never hurt him and he'd never hurt her. Jubilee was lucky, and she realized just faintly that she envied the kid.

"Jean? Honey, are you alright?"

She snapped out of it realizing Scott was talking to her. What had happened? She'd just slipped too far into thinking, she guessed. She turned around in his arms, forcing a smile, but it came natural after making everyone think she was fine lately. She kissed him and wrapped her arms lightly around his neck and shoulders, burying her face in the nook between his shoulder and neck on one side, forcing her whirling thoughts to calm.

"I'm completely fine, Scott. Don't worry so much."