It isn't fair. I guess I waited too long. She wanted me since she joined the Masque, but I was too obsessed with Seska, and after I found out she was a Cardasian agent, I hid inside myself for so long. And now, it's too late. Because she is in love with _him_ of all people.

Tom Paris.

He has always been a thorn in my sight since the day I met him in that bar and recruited him. He was the type to do anything, as long as you paid his bar tab. Which was substantially high, even for a pilot as good as he.

Granted, he is getting better, more honest and trustworthy.

But I never thought he would be the one to take B'Elanna away from me.

I guess it was egotistical of me to assume that she would wait until I pulled my head out of my butt and finally approach her. And maybe she did for a time. Hell, I know she did. I just took too damn long. So she moved on.

And now I have to be happy for her, because I have the honor of giving her away on her wedding day. And I -am- happy. Well, as happy as I can be.

Don't get me wrong, I do want her to be happy. And I wish her a long and happy marriage.

Happy, happy, happy!

I only have one other wish.

I wish it were me instead of him.

God, how I love her.

I want to scream it at the top of my lungs;