Okay, here's another chapter. I really am sorry guys about my lack of uploading. Its just sooooo busy. I can't wait for spring break. Six days of freedom! Yay! And some more writing too? Maybe.
Things are just so busy, have been for a while. Plus I have like two or three other stories I'm writing, not all Harry Potter though. With that and singing, and my groups( two of 'em!) lessons, and stuff I have very very little time.
See, my voice teacher is planning a trip to Europe and guess who is one of the singers? Me! Unfortunately that means lots and lots of practice. But it's fun. So again, I really have to say sorry about the time it's taking to get this done.
Btw, somebody please tell me how they likes the new Cassiopeia. The one with the twins as teens. Sort of. And as soon as I hear from you, I'll get started in changing this story too. Or I might wait till it's done. I dunno. Anyway, thanks so much for your reviews and your support. Bye!
Sirius: Don't I get to say bye too?
Sure, how about this? Bye Sirius! Please don't come back!
Sirius: can't get rid of me that easily. * cackles evilly*
Somebody help me, please.
The next morning when Harry, Ron, Hermione, and Cassi came down three seats at the head table were empty. James, Remus and Sirius's seats.
They approached Dumbledore.
"Ah, Harry, Cassi, I need to speak with you."
He took them to a small side room; the same one Harry had been taken when the Goblet of fire drew his name last year.
"Last night Sirius was attacked." Cassi gasped and her hands flew to her mouth.
"Da? Is he okay?"
"Yes, he's fine now. But he was caught with a suffigtis curse. Do you know what that is?"
"Yes. It's a curse that cuts off air to the lungs. Much like when someone is suffocating." Cassi said softly.
"He thinks it was Wormtail. We have no proof. But we found out this morning that Peter Pettigrew escaped from Azkaban last week. I'm telling you this so that you may be on the look out. If you see anything, and I mean anything , come see me immediately."
"Yes, Professor." Harry said in a monotone voice. It was the third year in a row people had been telling him that.
"May I go see him?" Cassi asked.
"I don't see why not. I will tell Professor Sprout."
"Thank you." And Cassi and Harry walked out of the great hall and to the infirmary. It isn't a problem, he thought, if you can find him.
"I'm fine!" Sirius insisted as he dug through the stacks of food for the feed for the Pegasus.
"Padfoot, do you know what the word fine means?" James asked.
"You were almost killed last night!" Remus said.
"That's nice, Moony."
"Sirius, this is seri-" Remus stopped himself before he said the thing that Sirius hated most. "I mean this is not a game. Peter tried to kill you last night. You should be in bed, being protected and guarded. You should not be out here in the open, teaching!"
"I have been guarded and watched for the past fourteen years! Do you think you even know what it was like for me in there? Do you know how every day I prayed for death? How much my guilt and pain surrounded me? How much it hurt to wake up and remember that this isn't some horrible dream? It took me two years to realize it but when it did, it hit me like a ton of bricks, worse than when I was sentenced. I was there for life. For the rest of my life, Moony! " Sirius sat down weakly on a box. James and Remus watched him. He buried him head in his hands. " I tried to kill myself, oh God knows how many times. But I never could. I could never do it. Just shows how much of a coward I was. I could take my best friends lives, but I couldn't take my own. You don't know, Moony. You don't know." He finished softly.
James and Remus sat next to him.
"I'm glad you didn't, Padfoot. If not, who would watch over my son?"
"Yeah, who would be there for Harry when no one else was?"
"You're not a coward because you couldn't. I would think you were a coward if you did." Remus said. Sirius said nothing.
"And you're right. I can't know and to tell you the truth, I don't really want to." He continued. " I've had my own private hell I went through and I can imagine it was just as bad in some ways as yours. I was the only one left. Two of my friend's dead and the other a traitor. Plus the whole fact that I was a werewolf. My idea of dealing with it was to run. I ran away from everybody. I couldn't be around anyone. Especially not Addi. She reminded me of what I had lost. Of you. I was alone. For the first time in my life, I was completely alone. And you can't know how hard that was."
"There's one more thing." Sirius said, shakily. " You know, no matter what we do, no matter what we say, there's always going to be some one.
Sirius shook his head. James frowned. All these things his friends had gone through were because of him. They had cried and hurt and been wronged all for him.
"It's not because of you, Prongs." Sirius said as if reading James's thoughts. "It's because of Peter. He betrayed us. He was the reason you died." James nodded.
"At least one thing hasn't changed." He said.
"Really? And what is that?" Remus asked.
"Sirius is still an idiot." He and Remus laughed at Sirius's confused face and his reply of "hey!"
This, of course, resulted in Sirius throwing a handful of hay at Remus and him ducking and it hitting James. James retaliated by grabbing his own fistful and throwing it, only to have it hit Remus. Remus decided that both of his best friends must suffer and threw a bucket of water over both of them. This went on for quite a while.
They walked in much later, wet, and covered from head to toe with mud and straw, only to find breakfast over and Madam Pomfrey very angry with Sirius.
It was maybe two weeks later when Remus and Addi came bursting into the room where James and Sirius were attempting to play chess. Nether was very good and the winner usually was helped by Remus's tips.
"You guys!" Remus shouted.
"What is it, Moony?" James said, not looking up from where Sirius had his knight cornered.
"I'm pregnant!" Addi cried. James instantly got up and hugged the ecstatic couple. Sirius stared at his sister in shock.
"Yes!' she cried throwing her arms around him. He laughed and pulled her into a big hug. He then gave Remus a bear hug that reviled, well, a bear.
"When did you find out?" Sirius asked.
"Just confirmed it with Madam Pomfrey. She says the baby is healthy and is coming along just fine." Addi then joined the ranks with Mari. Both girls were protected and worried over by all three men and Lily. Needless to say, they got quite annoyed.