Yet another dark Fushigi Yuugi story. I'm good at these, no? And, since I did it before...and I kinda fooled ya all, I'll tell ya now. Dark HotohoriXNuriko. Go figure...hehe

~Disclaimer~ I do not own Fushigi Yuugi or the bishiness....damns it all to hell.

"Crazy"

~Kidneythieves~

[crazy, I'm crazy for feeling so lonely
I'm crazy, crazy for feeling so blue]

I wish you knew how cold these nights got. You have no idea. Why? Because you've got what you want, and I'm left the loser, alone and forgotten, shunned by the one I care for. You wouldn't know about that, would you? Of course not. Never would you know of the tears I cried and the hatred I built up inside. I mean, why do I feel this way. if it makes you happy, I should embrace it, right? Wrong! I am not that forgiving, and you should know that. But, then, why do I still feel this immense loneliness, this void left by you.

Such depression is a result of you, my dear. Do you know about it? No. Do you want to know about it? No. Do you care? No. Such simple questions, aren't they, all having answers I find more disgusting each time I hear them.

[I knew, you'd love me as long as you wanted
and someday, you'd leave me for somebody new]

You never loved me, did you? Then, why did you pull me along, forming the illusion that there was love between us? Well, even if you did love me, you only left me the minute she came into your life. She, the one who you give all of your attention and affection to. What's so special about her? She, the one I've grown to hate, and yes, hate is a strong word, and that's why I love it so. Still, it can't express the feelings I have for her. After all, she did steal you away from me, didn't she? The one who abuses her gift with men, being able to have them whenever and wherever she pleased.

I comforted you when you were alone, but the minute she came, you vanished from my comforting grip to her lethal lips, her deceiving eyes. I knew she'd lure you into her...

[worry, why do I let myself worry
wondering, what in the world should I do]

Why do I bother? I mean, I can think of a plan to rid myself and you of that wrench, but you would be saddened by her 'sudden' departure, falling into a deep pit of depression with only myself to blame. Why is everything falling on my head? I mean, I want you all to myself, and I can't. The only part of you I can have is my distant memories. I'm so confused....what more can I do? I can either live a life of sadness and hatred, or take action and exterminate the problem.

[crazy for thinking that my love could hold you
I'm crazy for trying, crazy for trying, and I'm crazy for loving you.]

Maybe it was just a mistake to ever fall in love with you, the emperor, one of high power, one who can have whatever he desires, and I guess I was not one to be desired by you. Why? I have such 'expensive' taste, meaning you. In a sense, I have an insanity known as you, and you're an incurable sickness. Tell me why, Hotohori, tell me why you're the one who plagues me. Oh, I'm sorry, 'Emperor' Saihitei, Emperor of the great empire known as Konan. Well, rule it all you want with her by your side, but keep this in mind, oh great Emperor, I won't be there to pick you up when you fall.....