Hello. This is my second song fic on here but my only Frodo/Sam fic that isn't a poem. I hope you all enjoy it and I hope that it is as successful as my previous song fic. Thank to everyone who reviewed that for me.
Disclaimer:I own nothing. Zilch. Not a thing. So don't hate me. Frodo and Sam belong to the wonderful Tolkein and 'On my own' is from a brilliant musical called Les Mis.
Summary:A little song fic from both Sam and Frodo's point of view. This first chapter is from Frodo and Sam will follow soon. It is set just before Frodo leaves for the undying lands and Sam's will be just after. So here goes:
On My Own
Frodo was sitting in his room. He had made up his mind and now was the time to say his last Goodbyes. The ring tormented him even now, after it had been destroyed. He could no longer stay here with his nightmares haunting him and although he hated to leave behind the good things, the bad things were too dark to cope with.
After days of thinking over his idea to sail to the undying lands Frodo had finally decided that it was for the best. He would miss his Sam and he knew Sam would miss him, but he could not stay a moment longer.
The thing that unnerved Frodo the most was the fact that he would be alone. He would no longer have Sam to care for him. For most of his life Sam had been there by his side, and to not have that any longer, it felt like someone had taken away his comfort blanket. He would miss Sam with all his heart but he could not stay and he knew Sam would understand.
And now I'm all alone again no where to turn, no one to go to
Without a home without a friend without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near, I can make believe he is here
Sometimes I walk alone at night when everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy with the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed and I can live inside my head
Frodo was thinking of all the things he and Sam had gone through during their lives. They had experienced more than most ever would and still Sam had stood beside him throughout it all. Their long walks together were over, their midnight talks finished but Frodo had his memories and they would last forever. Making this decision was the hardest thing Frodo had every done but he knew it was the right one.
Frodo would always have Sam in his heart and hopefully that would be enough. Sam would never forget Frodo and Frodo would never forget Sam. They would each remember the other in everything they saw and did. Never would the other leave them alone. Haunt them, almost.
On my own, pretending he's beside me
All alone I walk with him till morning
Without him I feel his arms around me
And when I loose my way I close my eyes and he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever
Frodo knew that from now on he would be on his own. He would no longer be able to tell Sam all his troubles and rely on him to be by his side in difficult times. He knew that Sam would now only exist with his mind and heart and after they had said Goodbye they would probably never see each other again. That was the hardest thing to comprehend. A life without Sam was so much different to the one he had lived. A life without Sam was full of troubles he didn't think he could cope with.
The undying lands were beautiful, peaceful places but Frodo was still finding it hard to think of a trouble free life. Especially a trouble free life if Sam was in it. The world was full of dark places and people and Frodo didn't know whether he could cope without his light that was Sam.
And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say that there is a way for us
I love him but when the night is over
He is gone the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are there and everywhere the streets are full of strangers
Sam had helped Frodo cope with the death of his parents and the move from his home to his Uncle Bilbo's. Sam had helped him to find some of the happiness that really did exist in the world. Some of the happiness that Frodo had never seen before.
Frodo had decided that, as much as he would miss Sam, he couldn't cope with these tormenting memories any longer. He had made up his mind and if he didn't do it now he never would. He loved Sam as though he were a brother to him, but he had to leave.
He took one last look around his room and walked quietly from it, closing the door firmly behind him.
I love him but everyday I'm lonely
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go unturning
A world that's full of happiness that I have never known
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